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Nothing Special
15:54 Jun 15 2005
Times Read: 669

I know that I’m nobody

Nothing special at all

So please don’t cry for me

I’m just another

one of the many faces

praying to the rain

Take away my eyes

and drown out my voice

It doesn’t matter anymore

Don’t cover me with laurels

or decorate me with diamonds

I’m not worth it anyhow

I can’t care anymore

I know I’m worth nothing

not even the love you give to me

I’m just a broken one

a crushed little toy soldier

swept underneath the rug

No one cares about me

because no one knows me

So why even bother crying?

Just leave me alone

and make the world go away

I won’t make you happy anymore

All I do is bring pain

to those I love the most

and cripple myself all the while

Just hate me

like all of the others

It’d make things so much easier

What good is love anyhow

When it brings only heartbreak

time and time again?

I don’t know how to be genuine

I’ve lost the real me

somewhere in all of that trivia.

Everything now is just a reflection

a reflection of a broken soul

that was never worth anything

and will forever be nothing special

Choices
15:51 Jun 15 2005
Times Read: 670

am but one person

I can not travel two trails at once

I can no more do all I desire

than split myself in two

and hurl myself down both paths

I can not sleep in a bed

and hope to keep it made

I can not read a book

while keeping total darkness

Nor can I hold the candle of love

while facing the winds of destiny

For what fills the heart

must also numb the mind

and what binds us together

will forever hold me back

But these are just choices my love

Choices that are made everyday

To play or to work

To dream or to wake

To love or to hate

To breathe or to die

We will make our choices love

We will cast our die

But know now, no matter what

that you and you alone

were the one to steal my heart

And should destiny call me away

you will be my greatest sacrifice

Glass of Tears...
15:47 Jun 15 2005
Times Read: 671

So there I was

just sitting at the bar

with my head hanging low

remembering the good times we had.

I would have crawled into a bottle of whisky

but decided instead to fill my glass with tears.

I came there to sit with the drunks

perhaps to meet someone more miserable than myself.

Though I heard sob stories

and tragedies of all kinds

they only made me miss you all the more



What is a guy supposed to do

when the woman he loves breaks his heart?

How's he supposed to react when his trust

his love

his life

has been broken?



He listens to tales of ancient heartbreak

while drinking deep from a glass of tears

He puts a quarter in the jukebox

and plays the saddest song he can find

Because as a wise man once said,

"The only solace for a broken heart

is bitter company

and the only solace for bitter company

is a pint of bitter beer."



And though I dare not tip a glass for you

nor buy a round in your name

I'll always see your face smiling back

at the bottom of my glass of tears

Understand me.
15:33 Jun 15 2005
Times Read: 672

I don't expect you to understand me

I know how I act

the words that I say

the things that I feel

and the way that I live my life

are all mysteries to you.

You held me

you cherished me

and now you watch me disappear

fading into the mist of a darkened wood

heading down paths you dare not tread

and opening doors you thought locked for good

But that's where we're different

you and I

where you saw safety

I saw a prison

Where you saw a closed door

I saw opportunity

Where you saw taboo

I saw nothing but emptiness and lies

So no, I don't expect you to understand me

No more than I understand you

and your laws

and your petty ideals

But I ask you to let me live

as I let you

Give me the freedom I crave

Spare me your ill tongue

or your spiteful gaze

I offer neither to you

All I seek is the freedom I need

the freedom to open the doors

the freedom to chase my trails

and the freedom to follow the dreams that suit me

That is all I ask of you

and that is all I ask of the world.

Because I can break all of the ties that bind me

save the ones imposed by my fellow man

in a senseless bid for safety

in a world missing all notion of compassion

I can throw my shackles aside

and unlock my own chains

all while rotting in a world devoid

of even the basic concept of understanding

Ghost In My Mind
15:31 Jun 15 2005
Times Read: 673




I would have told you I love you

if we hadn't been saying goodbye

With the end always a breath away

it never seemed real to me

like vapors disappearing before my eyes

and even though you're gone today

there's a ghost lurking within my mind



I wanted you to know me

to make sense of a heart gone wrong

I wanted you to need me like I needed you

and to wash away the sins of thought and deed

You were too perfect to grasp

and too wonderful to touch

but now that you're gone

all I have are memories fading

and a ghost walking withing my mind



It's only now that you haunt me

on quiet, lonely nights

when the wind carries your name into my ears

leaving me adrift in a sea of regret and remorse

I can't face who I am

much less what I've become

Just a wounded soul living in an broken heart

walking these empty halls

hoping to catch a glimpse

of the ghost stalking within my mind

97 Percent....
15:29 Jun 15 2005
Times Read: 674




97 Percent

When I look into your eyes

I see that something has been left behind

through the smiles and gentle kisses

I see a heart still longing

a touch left unfulfilled

a kiss that is vapor to the wind



I'm ninety-seven percent of what you need

inches away from being complete

I could be your everything

your only wish

your only dream

if only I weren't so human

and so bound within myself



But instead I'm ninety-seven percent

leaving love unfulfilled

and dreams untouched

just an imperfect hand

grasping at perfection

watching as you drift to the horizon

with your sliver of emptiness eating you away

seeking perfection with longing eyes

leaving me behind with every step you take



I know it's only time until you're gone

the quest for completion pulling you away

leaving my only dream shattered

my everything gone

and the ninety-seven percent of what I was destroyed

Too imperfect to be immortal

and not enough to be your one true love

just inches away from keeping you

but miles away from feeling your embrace



I can only watch as you disappear

into the blinding horizon light

slipping into your perfect love

without my ninety-seven percent heart

or the emptiness it leaves inside

19:14 Jun 09 2005
Times Read: 677