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So back when I first was introduced and initiated into Wicca, I was foolish and ignorant about it. I didn't know what I was doing and I moved away from my mentor, so I had nobody to teach me but myself.



I attempted a summoning spell to communicate with my late grandfather, and something went terribly wrong. The summoning spell worked, but not the way I intended.



I summoned up a demonic entity and he/she/it took over me. Took over my body, my heart, soul, but most importantly it took over my life for 1.5 years.



I remember very little. The most I remember was, I was on the brink of destruction and found shelter in the bottle. I became an alcoholic for 6 months in attempts to cope with whatever it was that was happening.



I searched for answers high and low, up and down. I couldn't find anything to help me. I almost ended it all.



During my possession, I lashed out and physically attacked my mother. Physically harmed my best friend. Though the worst that whatever this was had done was, I tried lighting a church on fire the 1st day I tried seeking somebody to preform an exorcism.



After trying to jump off a bridge and word got out about me, my mom contacted a minister (or whatever he was) and this gentleman came to my house and asked to talk to me. Little did I know what was about to happen.



This gentleman wanted to test what was wrong, so he splashed me in the face with this BURNING water. (I only know this from what I was told) The water caused my flesh to steam. I didn't get many details after that, though I knew afterwards what had happened.



An exorcism was finally preformed. And a week or sleep, A LOT of food when I woke, and many frightening stories later, I was back to my normal self.



I since then, have NEVER attempted any kind of summoning spell at all. I remember looking at the broken furniture and walls when I woke up and thinking to myself "Did I do all of that?"



I still blame myself for EVERYTHING that had happened to my friends and family. I wish I could go back in time and NOT preform that spell.



This is the first time I've told the story of that dreadful time in my life. And I would like to thank you all for taking the time to read this and understand that Magick is not a game or toy, and should not be meddled with unless you are 100% sure you know what you are doing.



Be cautious, for these things are real.