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The One That Got Away



My heart has been broken so many times



That all that remains is a sliver,



And so I've erected a wall to protect it,



A typical defense mechanism.







You were a dream too good to be true,



And so I assumed it was so,



And when the time came that you went away,



I stood silently and watched you go.







I knew the moment we parted,



I'd made the biggest mistake of my life,



And that's a decision, of this I'm sure,



That I'll regret for the rest of my life.







How could I've been so stupid?



Why could I not see?



You were everything I've ever dreamed,



And madly in love with me.





Why couldn't I just trust in your love,



Or believe in your loyalty?



You'd done nothing to deserve otherwise,



But I was too jaded to see.







Many years have come and gone



Since that faithful day,



Yet everyday that's come to pass



I've loved you just the same.





I've finally come to realize,



No matter what I do,



That even with my dying breath



I'll still be in love with you.



(c) Teresa Goodman

Decisions







Once again, I lie alone in this cold and empty bed,

While teardrops stain my pillow,

And my thoughts are filled with dread.



The decision I now face, while you wait behind the glass,

Is an agonizing choice,

But one I have made in the past.



Last time I chose to bide my time, and see how things worked out,

This time I know the answer,

There's no longer any doubt.



I'm sick-and-tired of being sick with anxiety and angst,

Waiting for the shoe to drop,

Afraid what tommarrow might bring.



This time the tears are not of sorrow, but of tension and rage,

It could have been prevented,

But you refuse to act your age.



Now the time has finally come for me to make-up my mind,

Though either choice is painful,

The hurt WILL heal in time.



The time has come to say goodbye, cut our loses, and be done,

Cash in ours chips, and fold our cards,

This game is no longer fun.

(c)Teresa J. Goodman 4/22/09

My Fallen Angel



My fallen angel with the magic eyes,



With eyes so blue they mystify,



With a smile so raw and penatrating,



The sight of him invigorating,



The touch of him exilerating,



The thought of him intoxicating,



Ah, my fallen angel!









My fallen angel with the chessire smile,



The kind of smile that drives you wild,



And lips that curve like cupid's bow,



That make you wonder what lies below,



And wonder if you'll ever know,



Meanwhile the yearning grows,



Ah, my fallen angel!







My fallen angel with the velvet touch,



Ah how well I remember that touch,



With fingertips that tingle the spine,



The feel of his carress divine,



The feel of his silky skin to mine,



Ah, my fallen angel!







My fallen angel the thought of you,



Of never making you mine I rue,



Why I let you slip away



I ask myself to this very day,



What would've happened if I'd only stayed?



Ah, my fallen angel!



(c) Teresa Goodman

Beautiful Dream







You my love are a beautiful dream,







A fleeting moment of happiness,







A moment in time I'll forever treasure,







My time with you I'll always remember,







Oh what a beautiful dream!









How I wish that I could keep you,







But I know that just can't be.







There's still too many steps that you must take,







Too many sacrifices that you must make,







But oh what a beautiful dream!















I know eventually I must wake up,







And once again I'll be alone,







But right now you're right here beside me,







And there's so much happiness inside me.







Oh what a beautiful dream!









I know the price for such a dream,







Unsurrmountable pain and heartache.







But for a moment I had everything,







And it was all I'd hoped it would be.







My God what a beautiful dream!















I know when I wake I'll long for my dream,







But every single second was worth it.







You say that it's just a delay,







That you'll come back for me someday,







Oh what a beautiful dream!







But I know that it's just that,







It's just a beautiful dream.







(c) Teresa Goodman

No Fair



No commitments, no titles,



No Lies, and no fear,



But we both know



There's no safty in here.







No false expectations,



No delusional dreams,



Yet we both know



This is more than it seems.







No drama, no questions,



No spoiling our fun,



But will we still smile



When all's said and done?









We try to pretend



That this isn't real.



We try to deny it,



But we know how we feel.









We try to escape,



Getting lost in the now.



We try to forget,



But we just don't know how.







We try to find solice



In each others arms.



We try to find comfort,



But we're doing more harm.









No heartaches, no anger,



No pain, and no tears,



That's what we agreed on,



So why are they here?









No worries, no envy,



No dreams crushed and broken,



No hunger for those



Three words left unspoken,







No wanting those things



That just can not be,



Yet we just can not help



But to crave what we need!





(c) Teresa Goodman

Cat's Got Your Tongue



As I walked into the barrom



Your jaw dropped when I walked by,



Gotta body you would die for,



But all you could do was sigh.







You watched me across the room



Before you finally got the guts



To come over and approach me,



Afraid you might not make the cut.









You asked me for my name



Then you offered me a drink.



But what I replied caught you by surprise,



And you couldn't even speak.







"Do ya think I'm too aggresive?



If I want it I just take it.



'Cause ya sure look good to me,



And I think I wanna taste ya."







"'Cause ya smell so fuckin' good



It makes me want ya here and now,



Pin ya up against the wall



And rake my claws as I go down."







"As I'm bobbin' up and down



You'll roll your eyes and then you'll scream.



While you're tuggin' on my hair



I'll roll my tongue and make you cream."







"Just when you think I'm done



I'll hop astride you like a pony,



But I'll ride you like a stallion,



Proove to you that I'm no filly."









"Now I want you to take it!



Come and catch me if you can,



But I don't think you're fast enough,



Come and take it like a man!"









"Pin me up against the wall.



Hold my hands above my hand.



Sink your teeth into my neck,



And throw me down upon the bed."







"Tie me down with velvet ropes.



Rub me down with flavored oil.



When your tongue begins to flicker



That's when my blood begins to boil."









"Flip me over, sit me pretty,



Pull my hair, and slap my ass.



Take it to it like you own it,



But still treat me with class."







"When we're done we'll have a smoke,



Chat awhile, then I'll get dressed.



We'll say goodbye and part our ways,



Both of us in need of rest."









"If it was good then I might call,



But I wouldn't hold your breath.



'Cause I'm just olut to have some fun,



Not to settle down just yet."







So you slammed down your beer



Then you took me by the hand.



Not another word was spoken



As we left out the back.









As soon as the door slammed shut behind us



You pulled me up onto your hips,



Pinned me up against the car,



And pushed your bulge between my hips.







When we madde it to your house



We barely made it through the door



Before we started strippin',



Throwin' clothes upon the floor.









You chased me to your bedroom,



Threw me down upon the bed,



Whispered "As you wish!" into my ear,



And did everything I said.



(c) Teresa Goodman

Just out of Reach



Wanting each other,



But never to have.



To covet each other,



But walk seperate paths.









To love, but not love,



A union forbidden,



To fear the inevitable



Passions are hidden.









We kiss and we touch,



But never make love,



Afraid if we do



We won't give it up.









Afraid of the agony



Of a broken heart,



Knowing that soon



Our ways must part.









You to live your life,



And me to live mine,



Living with memories



While dying inside.









Wish for what could've



Instead of what is.



Wonder what would've,



What bliss that we missed?









Would life be different?



Of that I've no doubt!



Wish that we'd only



Had a chance to find out



.





(c) Teresa Goodman

Summer Storm





Our love was like a summer storm,





Passionate and impetuous.





We couldn't get enough of each other,





Desperate and ravenous.











We were almost inseperable,





Two halves of a whole made one,





That is 'til summer ended





And the raging storm was done.













Then life crashed down upon us





Like a wave upon the strand,





And washed away our dreams





Like castles built from sand.













Just too many obligations,





Your wants competing with your needs.





Too much time spent on vocation,





Too little time to spend with me.













Then there came a winter storm,





Frigid and isolating,





Once passionate fires now stifled,





Alone and suffocating.











Missing your touch everyday,





And missing your warmth everynight,





Wishing you were here beside me,





As I cry mournful of our plight.











Now I'm standing in the rain,





In the distance I hear thunder,





As my heart begins to race,





Once again I feel the hunger.













I know the storm is coming,





It's just a matter of time





Before you come back running





Into these arms of mine.





(c) Teresa Goodman

The Human-Animal



Nature is duality,

Darkness as well as light,

Both positive and negative,

Day as well as night.



Just as we are good,

So evil are we too.

Just as we are spirit,

So animal are we too.



There must be a balance

To truly know oneself,

Accepting that with good

There's also evil in oneself.



So many hide the animal

To make the spirit righteous,

But to accept the animal

Is to be truly righteous.



Nature is the cathedral of the gods.

Natural laws govern over creation.

Nature made us what we are.

Why fight against your nature?



It's time to cast your cage aside,

Release the animal within!

Open up and set it free,

Don't keep it locked within!



Embrace your inner creature,

Follow your instincts, feed your needs,

Feed your wants, and feed your hunger,

Harming none, do a you please.

(c) Teresa Goodman 10/08/06

Vampiric Fanstasy



All my life I've dreamed of him,

My vampire lover from long ago.

In my dreams he visits me,

So my nights are never alone.



Night agter night, he comes to me,

Hungery, not only for blood, but for my heart.

Locked in his embrace, I find peace,

Though I fear the dawn for he departs.



When daylight comes, and I awaken,

I sill taste the blood on my lips,

Yet again I wake alone,

But I still hunger for his kiss.



Is he really real, or just imagination?

That I may never know.

Does it really even matter,

As long as he never goes?



As long as he keeps coming to me,

Keeps loving me in his dark way,

Than that is the only reality

That even matters anyway.



(c) Teresa J. Goodman 04/29/09