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As I wipe my eyes... I think to myself with a sigh...

"Water proof mascara, my ass."

I shake them away... but they fall inspite of me...

And now I've got black streaks down both cheeks

Great... perfect... just what I need tonight...



I shrug it off... not much pride to worry about...

My favorite part of a song plays... tears come harder...

"When it's just me and you, who knows what we could do...

If we can just make it through the toughest part of the day."

What if... what if we did work out...



Usually, I'd be running away by now...

Staying only, in the past, has caused me pain

But I promised... and I, deep down, want to see what this is

Is it just two lonely people connecting...

Or is this something completely wonderful?



It hurts so badly to not run away from this...

Especially because it's going so well

But I'll stay cuz I have to know... have to see...

*smiles as the tears fall* I'm truly scared

Arent you?

You said that we'd always be honest...

Yet after I fall for you, you tell me that you've found another

Had been dating her for a week...

When not a week ago, you talked about being with me

You impressed me when I told you how I felt about us

Where I saw us going... and plans of being together in the future...

You left me with a smile... but it was all a lie...

Of course you took it well, you had someone else

You were loosing nothing... I was just your back up...

Well, not anymore... we're over... completely over...



You're such an asshole, Anthony...

Hell, you told me yourself of your betrayal

Wasn't even ashamed enough to hide it...

You want to talk to me... probably apologize...

Well, stick it up your ass

I don’t want it... nor do I think it's sincere

I regret letting you so close... so fast...

I revealed myself to you...and I never do that with men...

And you slapped me in my face at my weakest moment...

Well, this cheek has had enough...



I comforted you... my friends comforted you...

And I don't let my friends do what with most people...

I let you in... in to what most men never have...

And with a patient heart, you could have had me

All of me... but I'm sick of this... and of you...

I honestly don't want to hear what you want to say to me

Know that I've blocked you...

Crying over you hasn't even crossed my mind

For the simple fact that you don't deserve it

Not a moment more of my time...



Call me jealous if you want, hun... that's fine...

But know that you can't be jealous of what you don’t care about

Don't call me... stay clear of me... that's in your best interest...

Plus, you've got what you wanted... Lynze...

God, that name is spelled so fucking gay...

Be happy... have that family that you so desperately want...

Bathe in it... bathe in all of the possibilities...

But know one thing... YOU fucked us up...

Not me... nor life... it was all you...

And that, my old friend, is what you must live with...