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Photobucket Shit On Everyone's Parade

02:24 Jun 29 2017
Times Read: 249


So, thanks to photobucket changing their policy, a lot of pictures have been lost. Now people will either be paying 400.00 to use photobucket or finding another image hosting site or they have the lovely option of seeing "3rd party hosting disabled" in place of their pictures. Thanks a lot shitbucket!


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Dakotah
Dakotah
06:05 Jun 29 2017

Yeah Lily profile background is messed up too





Umyalanaraku
Umyalanaraku
18:41 Jun 30 2017

Yeah, Photobucket changed their policy to where you have to pay $400.00 in order to use it now. These types of websites make these kinds of changes after they get so many users. A lot of people only use Photobucket to store all their pictures, so they waited until there were a lot of people using their site as a photo album and then hit them up with a mandatory access fee. This way the users now have to either pay the $400.00 fee just to be able to access their account or risk losing all their pictures. And out of all those users, you are going to have more than a few users who never stored their photos to their computer or anywhere else. This means even if the user doesn't like the new policy, they'll still have to pay the $400.00 to even get to their photos to download them. Many will pay the fee just to have access to their photos, especially if they are of sentimental value.





 

Clown Shoes

21:26 Jun 27 2017
Times Read: 285


I laugh at all these people who say dumbass shit such as "you can't save me, I'm possessed, I'm evil, I have no soul or feelings for life, not even my own, blah, blah, blah". They name themselves after demons such as Lucifer and claim their heart is black or that they're dead inside. Youe type are an absolute joke, a regular fucking three ring circus, you're nothing more than a public spectical with no real substance to you or your claims of being sinister, just sit down and shut the fuck up already, CLOWN!


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Dakotah
Dakotah
01:26 Jun 28 2017

Some people take role-play wayyyyy to far where they start to actually believe they are what they are playing.





Umyalanaraku
Umyalanaraku
03:23 Jun 28 2017

I just think they really have no life outside of whatever cockamamie fantasy they've created in their head to keep from having to deal with reality.





 

Friend List Removals

20:28 Jun 27 2017
Times Read: 288


I just finished up clearing out my friends list of people I don't know and never talk to, much less care to know or talk to. I only kept a total of nine people and removed the rest of them. There was just no sense in having that many people on my friends list when I don't know them or ever speak to them. Not to mention some of them had multiple profiles anyway and that's just stupid and annoying to me.


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Dakotah
Dakotah
01:27 Jun 28 2017

I should do that. My friends list is over 700 and if I removed the ones who I never talk too it would drop down to about 25-30.





Umyalanaraku
Umyalanaraku
03:29 Jun 28 2017

When I had Facebook, I had like around 3,000 people on my friends list. And one day I was looking at it and thought to myself, "who in the hell actually knows and talks to that many people". So instead of going through that huge long list of people and unfriending them, I just deleted my facebook profile altogether. I just see no sense in friending people I have no idea who they are and never talk to them. I'm not really very social anyway, I'm very standoffish when their is a lot of people around because people tend to make me feel awkward and uncomfortable for the most part.





 

17:46 Jun 26 2017
Times Read: 318


When I was in my early twenties, I had to be hospitalized for a week in a psychiatric unit. My hospitalization was a direct result of my addiction to prescription drugs and excessive drinking which had altered my mental health in a negative way. My experience in that psych unit was horrible, the staff of nurses and doctors harbored no real care or concern for the patients. Upon arrival, we were forced to sit in an operation room of this hospital for several hours completely unattended. After two hours had past, one patient became extremely agitated and began to act out aggressively due to the long wait. This prompted the staff to finally become involved and what they did to the rest of us was entirely unethical. All because of this one patient's violent outburst, the rest of us were injected with some sort of medication that was so potent it was debilitating. This medicine was so strong it literally made me feel like I was dying. They injected me in the shoulder, a place I was told later that this particular medication was never supposed to be injected because of it's potency. After several more hours, they finally brought us all food, bu by this time I was so sick and weak, I could not even eat. My breathing became restricted, vertigo began to set in, and I forced myself to stumble to the hallway to alert the staff. They were acted very coldly to my plea, and after another thirty minutes passed, they finally sat me out in the hallway and gave me two puffs of an inhaler. The nurse giving it to me was so rude and unconcerned, her words to me were, "I shouldn't even give this to you because I don't believe anything is wrong with you anyway, you're just faking all this shit to avoid going to the unit, you need to straighten up". A few more minutes passed and my breathing worsened and I began gasping for air while sitting right there in the hallway. I stopped breathing and blacked out, when I came to, there were a bunch of staff around me trying to get me to breathe again. They finally believed that I wasn't lying, I was actually having an adverse reaction to the injection they gave me, but they first had to witness it nearly kill me before they'd take me seriously and they still tried to blame me for it by coming there for help in the first place. To make a long story short, that week in the psych unit was completely shitty. The nurses and doctors there handed out medication, checked vitals, and made us do stretches. As far as any actual therapy sessions, there were none. The one time I met the doctor over the unit, he did nothing but question me in an aggressive manner and hurl insults at me after each answer I gave. Every remark he made to me was "you are stupid and childish" and "your parents are lousy people". Mind you, this was the DOCTOR over the entire unit who was saying this to me! But it wasn't just him, all the staff there acted this way, they seemed to delight in aggravating a bad situation. The staff of nurses there would get patients all worked up by belittling them and then laugh when the patient acted out in a violent manner. Granted some of the patients did act up on their own, the staff there made no effort to calm the situation, if anything they seemed to strive to make the situation even worse by pushing the patients to act out. After a week, I was released, I quit drugs, and I will never go back to psychiatric unit or hospital ever. That was one of the worst experiences in my life.

My wife works at a state hospital in pain management, and she is one of the few who is striving to create a better environment for psychiatric patients by not only treating the psychological aspect but the psychical aspect as well in a positive and professional manner. She has put countless time, money, and effort into her research and is striving to educate nurses in treating both the mental and physical condition of patients. She has busted her ass towards getting her PhD and to better the world of psychiatric treatment. I am so proud of her and the work she has done, I can only hope that more nurses will follow in her footsteps and understand that the physical condition is just as important as the mental condition. The physical condition plays an extremely important role in an individual's mental condition, and vise versa. She suffers from chronic pain herself, so she definitely understands the importance of treating the physical aspect as well as the mental. Chronic pain is a very real struggle that can weigh heavily on the body as well as the mind. I am so proud of my wife who struggles with chronic pain on daily basis herself and yet has the strength and courage to fight for others who struggle with the same condition. There need to be more like her in the field of psychiatry, there needs to be more attention paid to those who suffer from chronic pain on a daily basis. I truly believe this will help with minimizing the rise in mental health issues as well as effectively help treat those already committed to hospitals and psychiatric units who struggle with this condition.


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Dakotah
Dakotah
18:34 Jun 26 2017

Was the medical Haldol that they injected you all with?





Umyalanaraku
Umyalanaraku
18:53 Jun 26 2017

Probably, I don't remember what exactly it was. I just know it was some really bad shit.





MistressAngelique
MistressAngelique
02:42 Jun 27 2017

Thank you my love:) My goal is to educate not only nurses, but physicians, and other healthcare personnel, so that incidents like the one you went through does not happen. I am so sorry that you went through what you did! It was totally uncalled for! It should NOT have happened at all! Education is sorely needed in the mental health field, and I truly hope that more nurses, doctors, social workers, and case workers become more educated so that patient care delivery can be greatly improved:)





Umyalanaraku
Umyalanaraku
04:16 Jun 27 2017

I love you so very much my sweet, beautiful angel love wife! You are extremely dedicated and hardworking in everything you do! I'm always gonna be your biggest number one supporter in anything you do! I am so very proud of you! I appreciate all that you do, believe me, I do!





MordrakusxMortalitas
MordrakusxMortalitas
10:56 Jun 27 2017

Throughout all that you didn't even get an enema.....Time to fix that I think! >:)





Umyalanaraku
Umyalanaraku
12:22 Jun 27 2017

No, that would've taken them too much time and effort. Lol





Umyalanaraku
Umyalanaraku
15:07 Jun 27 2017

Y'all are missing the point. I only gave my personal experience in a psych unit as an example of how a lot of doctors and nurses in the field psychiatry need better education and as well as reevaluated to see if they are appropriate for their job position. My wife, MistressAngelique, is doing just that by doing research and study on pain management in the psychiatric field. Her efforts are greatly needed more than anyone realizes or understands simply because most don't care about psych patients or people with mental health issues. My wife is striving desperately to change that situation by better educating nurses in pain management. As I said, y'all really have no idea just how much she has busted her ass on this and has yet to receive the proper thanks and appreciation she damn sure deserves! She hasnt even recieved a proper acknowledgement for her constant hard work! There is NOTHING easy about earning a PhD, it is mentally and financially exhausting! And given my wife's chronic pain condition on top of all the other stress, it becomes physically exhausting as well! She has worked all her adult life to reach this point, she has spared no expense, and there was times she didn't know if she was going to be able to do it, but she persevered. It has been a constant struggle for her in every way, shape, from, and fashion, but she has never given up on earning her PhD! She genuinely cares and is dedicated to her work, and in her line of work, it is rare to find people so concerned and dedicated! My story was just to give y'all an example of how special and important my wife's work is to the field a psychiatry.





Dakotah
Dakotah
01:41 Jun 28 2017

Reason I asked if the was the drug was when I fort went into drug treatment from jail, they shot me full of that shit and it started restricting my neck to were I was doing that move shit of linda blair and my neck locked and I could not move it and they had to give some kind of counter shot. Now to your post. When I first got transferred from Jail they moved me to a mental ward for an evaluation to see if I was duel diagnosed. I am sure there are some good wards out there but there are way more bad ones then good. Thus my experience with the Haldol. Seemed the staff really liked using that shit on everyone to keep us under control. What they did was make us all Zombies. When my family came to visit and herd what they given me the flipped. About only mental issues I have (besides at the time of just being young and stupid) is a bad case of OCD. Many patients in these hospital are misdiagnosed, over medicated, and for the most part released before they are ready where then the fall into the cracks and some loop and never end up getting the care they need. The plight of the mental ill in our society today is a very sad one. Look at all the Military Soldiers coming back from the war that is still going on over there and the lack of care they get. They good enough to serve our countries but not good enough to get he mental health care they need. So many of the homeless you see on the streets are just untreated mental health patients kicked out of hospital before they are given the proper care. The only thing that will ever say these human beings is more Nurses like Lisa. Duel diagnose is a thing of our times and these patients are not getting the proper care they need.





Umyalanaraku
Umyalanaraku
03:39 Jun 28 2017

Yes, nurses such as my wife, need more appreciation and support shown to them for all their efforts!





 

The Troll Patrol!!!

17:50 Jun 21 2017
Times Read: 362


So you say in your kismet that you don't understand why new people who have nothing on their page get tens, but you go to people's profiles who have something on it and down-rate them an 8 and then message them about it just to be an annoying troll? Yeah, that makes a whole hell of a lot of sense! Do some of you even realize how fucking idiotic you sound when you say shit like that? You waltz your happy high horsed ass up in someone's profile, totally butt fuck their rating all up just because it isn't to YOUR liking, then you have the audacity to go bitching and whining about how the rating on VR is unfair to YOU??? Maybe the reason people give VR new comers 10s is because of a thing called courtesy, a quality which YOU obviously lack!


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Wolfofthenorth
Wolfofthenorth
18:49 Jun 21 2017

Sounds like someone has ego issues...





Umyalanaraku
Umyalanaraku
20:58 Jun 21 2017

Yeah a particular person, I have no idea who they are, decided to down rate me and then message me about it this one time. Now that person is carrying on in their kismet about how they don't understand how people can give new comers a ten when they have nothing on their profile. I personally don't understand people like him and their ego.





MistressAngelique
MistressAngelique
21:03 Jun 21 2017

I agree with you my love! And wolf, it is not about EGO - it is about an individual complaining about a system in which he himself does not even follow! It is an idiotic kismet, because the person my husband referred to, did rate a profile with a lot of work put into it an 8, and messaged him about it! Not only one person, but numerous others! Then this person has the audacity to put on his kismet why newcomers with nothing on their pages get tens? Did you comprehend what my husband was even saying??





Umyalanaraku
Umyalanaraku
21:05 Jun 21 2017

Thank you love!





Dakotah
Dakotah
21:48 Jun 21 2017

Hey Bro message me ok





Wolfofthenorth
Wolfofthenorth
00:20 Jun 22 2017

Either way the guy is 51 and should act his age and not like a special snowflake who gets upset about everything.





slipknotbabe356
slipknotbabe356
03:31 Jun 22 2017

Damn it seems like I miss everything!





 

Young

17:24 Jun 21 2017
Times Read: 365


We are young
But we have heart
Born in this world as it all falls apart
We are strong
But we don't belong
Born in this world as it all falls apart

I see the children in the rain
Like the parade before the pain
I see the love, I see the hate
I see this world that we can make
I see the life, I see the sky
I'd give it all to see you fly
Yes, we wave this flag of hatred
But you're the ones who made it
Watch the beauty of all our lives
Passing right before my eyes
I hear the hate in all your words
All the words to make us hurt
We get so sick, we're so sick
We never wanted all this
Medication for the kids
With no reason to live
So we march to the drums
Of the damned as we come
Watch it burn in the sun
We are numb

We are young
But we have heart
Born in this world as it all falls apart
We are strong
But we don't belong
Born in this world as it all falls apart

As we walk among these shadows
In these streets these fields of battle
Take it up, we wear the medal
Raise your hands with burning candles
Hear us whisper in the dark
In the rain, you see the spark
Feel the beating of our hearts
Fleeting hope as we depart
All together walk alone against all we've ever known
All we've ever really wanted
Was a place to call our home
But you take all we are
The innocence of our hearts
Made to kneel before the altar
As you tear us apart
So we march to the drums
Of the damned as we come
Watch it burn in the sun
We are numb

We are young
But we have heart
Born in this world as it all falls apart
We are strong
But we don't belong
Born in this world as it all falls apart

We will fight or we will fall
Till the angels save us all

We will fight or we will fall
Till the angels save us all

We will fight or we will fall
Till the angels save us all

We will fight or we will fall
Till the angels save us all

We are young
But we have heart
Born in this world as it all falls apart
We are strong
But we don't belong
Born in this world as it all falls apart
We are young
But we have heart
Born in this world as it all falls apart
We are strong
But we don't belong
Born in this world as it all falls apart


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You Don't Have A Logical Personality, You're Just A Sociopath, "Mr. Robot"!

21:44 Jun 17 2017
Times Read: 397


Sociopath Behavior


1.) CALLOUS UNCONCERN FOR THE FEELINGS OF OTHERS.

2.) GROSS AND PERSISTENT ATTITUDE OF IRRESPONSIBILITY AND DISREGARD FOR SOCIAL NORMS, AND OBLIGATIONS.

3.) INCAPACITY TO MAINTAIN ENDURING RELATIONSHIPS, THOUGH HAVING NO DIFFICULTY IN ESTABLISHING THEM.

4.) VERY LOW TOLERANCE TO FRUSTRATION, A LOW THRESHOLD FOR DISCHARGE OF AGGRESSION, INCLUDING VIOLENCE.

5.) INCAPACITY TO EXPERIENCE GUILT OR TO PROFIT FROM EXPERIENCE, PARTICULARLY PUNISHMENT.

6.) MARKEDLY PRONE TO BLAME OTHERS OR TO OFFER PLAUSIBLE RATIONALIZATION FOR THE BEHAVIOR THAT HAS BROUGHT THE PERSON INTO CONFLICT WITH SOCIETY.


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MordrakusxMortalitas
MordrakusxMortalitas
11:45 Jun 18 2017

"Mr. Robot?" Sure sounds like someone wtihout a personality or at least a wooden one. lol





Umyalanaraku
Umyalanaraku
18:01 Jun 18 2017

Yeah, this journal entry was aimed at a particular VR member who talks 24/7 about robots like terminator and technology like the matrix ruling the world, thus the name "Mr. Robot".





MordrakusxMortalitas
MordrakusxMortalitas
10:47 Jun 19 2017

Yeah I know who you are on about, he is an insignificant imbecile that can't avoid trouble if his life depended on it, so far the admins have ignored him and his babylon from what I have seen. My advice? don't waste a journal on a loser, because you would just be giving him the limelight that he probably craves.





Umyalanaraku
Umyalanaraku
17:50 Jun 19 2017

You are right Mort, he really isn't worth a damn in my opinion either and he doesn't deserve any attention, even if it is negative attention.





 

Words of Lovecraft

20:42 Jun 13 2017
Times Read: 408


There are horrors beyond life's edge that we do not suspect, and once in a while man's evil prying calls them just within our range. Do not call up that which you cannot put down. There are black zones of shadow close to our daily paths, and now and then some evil soul breaks a passage through. When that happens, the man who knows must strike before reckoning the consequences. It is absolutely necessary, for the peace and safety of mankind, that some of earth's dark, dead corners and unplumbed depths be left alone; lest sleeping abnormalities wake to resurgent life, and blasphemously surviving nightmares squirm and splash out of their black lairs to newer and wider conquests.


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Our Pleasant Journey to Innsmouth

18:29 Jun 13 2017
Times Read: 423


So this past weekend my wife and I took a Second Life journey to the virtual town of Innsmouth. For those of you that are unfamiliar with what SL is, it is an online sim world. For those of you who are unfamiliar with Innsmouth, it comes from dark gothic science fiction writer H. P. Lovecraft's short horror story "The Shadow Over Innsmouth". It is a small decaying seaside town in Massachusetts set back during the 1930s. With very few residents, and in extreme stages of disrepair, the atmosphere of Innsmouth is quite gloomy and the area is eternally engulfed by a misty fog that emanates from the dark waters of the surrounding ocean. Many shun the town out of fear, for Innsmouth just so happens to be the town of an oceanic horror known simply as the "Deep Ones". Deep Ones, nightmarish beings who have risen from the black depths of the eternal sea, they are avatars of Cthulhu, an aeon old evil which lies in deathless slumber, in his ancient temple in the abysmal city of R'lyeh.

Yes, this is where my wife and I had come to explore for fun. Call us odd, but like H. P. Lovecraft once said "seekers after horror often haunt strange and far places". We met a particularly friendly resident of Innsmouth, a bit of an odd encouter too. I fell into the harbor and could not climb back out again, so after some swimming around, I finally found a sewer pipe and entered. After navigating it for a few minutes trying desperately to escape back to the surface, that is when I was greeted by one who I shall not name here, but he was the master of the town and one of the Deep Ones. After escaping the tunnels, he was kind enough to show my wife and I around town which was more elaborate than we had anticipated, and we even got to visit the sunken temple of R'lyeh, along with some other intriguing sites. A very wonderful experience indeed. Being a Lovecraftian, I have a Deep One form now myself, and will be visiting Innsmouth more often whenever I am on SL.


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Birth and Sexuality Entitles You To Nothing

03:03 Jun 08 2017
Times Read: 469


This is probably going to piss off some of the more liberal types on here, but I really don't give a shit honestly. I rrecently saw these commercials portraying certain well known historical figures as being gay, lesbian, transgender or bisexual. I have heard about some of the figures they mentioned and nowhere in history does it ever state or give an ounce of evidence that these individuals were ever gay, lesbian, transgender or bisexual. They based their "facts" on stereo types and assumption, not historical facts. Had they actually spoke of true historical homosexuals such as Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky, then it wouldn't have bothered me so badly. Look, I know there's the whole gay pride thing now with gay and lesbian marriage being legalized and all, but nobody's sexual preference or birth entitles them to go changing historical facts to fit into their own agenda of forcing change upon other people who are not comfortable with the same lifestyles. If that offends you, that's just too damn bad, toughen up buttercup!


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MistressAngelique
MistressAngelique
03:11 Jun 08 2017

lol my love - yes, you and I have sat and watched these commercials, getting so angry at them! They have twisted the facts, to suit their own agenda. It is anger provoking, because it does twist the historical figures background! Irritating to say the least now especially, since we recently found out they are taking history out of the classrooms? What is this world coming to???

Wonderful post love!





Umyalanaraku
Umyalanaraku
03:15 Jun 08 2017

They try to say "oh your a bigot if you don't accept agree with our ways". I say it is a bigot that tries to twist and warp the world to fit their own needs without giving a single ounce of thought to anyone else. THAT is bigotry to me, and I won't keep quiet about it, I don't care who it offends. Nobody is going to push me into something I don't agree with.





MistressAngelique
MistressAngelique
03:18 Jun 08 2017

Oh I know very well that you won't be pushed into anything you don't agree with my love! And neither will I! But yes, I agree with you 100%. I do not hold with all of those "fancy" words or terms. I accept a person for who he/she is, not for the "title" he/she holds or is placed upon him/her. Always have and always will!





Dakotah
Dakotah
03:22 Jun 08 2017

Its what a person does in life that counts. Not the color of the skin or who they take to bed.





banesraver666
banesraver666
05:16 Jun 08 2017

I agree on this whole heartily.





Umyalanaraku
Umyalanaraku
13:15 Jun 08 2017

Race, gender, age, sexuality, or religion isn't what bothers me, its when people use these things as if it gives them automatic entitlement to do as they please without regard to anyone else. I also do not agree with some of these things, I don't hate the people, I just don't agree with some of them. But when they go using these things as an excuse to twist and shape the world into their image without regard to others and crying that anyone who disagrees with them is a bigot, that is what I dislike. I don't hate anyone, I dislike how they use race, gender, religion or sexual preferences as a reason to do as they please without a care or concern to others when they are the ones constantly crying foul on everyone else.








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