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You are Not Alone my LC I am here with you.
21:02 Nov 30 2011
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for you my lil lc
17:43 Nov 30 2011
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lost in thought
07:55 Nov 30 2011
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I gave all of me to the vampyric community, I thought what I was doing was a good thing. I lost many of the women I was with to me doing more for the community. Instead of giving them my all I was always focused on doing what was best for the community that I lost sight of the most important thing in the world.......my family.......over and over I didn't understand what I was doing wrong.....it took me losing my lil girl to focus in on what I didn't do to keep them....



I did it because I wanted my children to grow up in a safe and honorable community and I wanted to pay back the man and woman that made me feel at peace with who and what I am.



But in the end I lost sight of what means more to me then anything in this world, my family.

I really believed she was the one, my soul mate, so we planed on our lil angel Lilith Cianna and in my heart and mind I dreamed of waking up everyday to my family, ending everyday with them.



I was happy, but I was too blind to see that the time I was putting into my community I should have been putting into my family..

I tried to have my mate at my side to fight for the community, but I was too blind to see she just wanted to be at my side just for me.....



My faith in my community she said was misplaced because it was already dead, that the community I came from died long ago and that I should just focus on our family.



But I was to stupid to see that she just needed me to fight for us, to be there for our family......so I lost it.........I lost my will, my focus and my reason...



I only want to be part of my baby girls life....





I can't let her go I have to be there for what's left of me..

She is my reason...



I hear her mother is saying so many things about me and it is killing to think she sees me that way and she has people believing it.....



Her saying things like that and people believing it has killed my faith in our community.



So in order to be re born I have to leave it all behind and become the father my children need me to be..........



I love you LC daddy is not giving up. I will do everything and anything I can to be in your life as a father should be.

missing you baby girl
23:40 Nov 29 2011
Times Read: 545

hey lil one, hope you are well, I am feeling so lost without you, but I will find a way for us to be together. I am working hard on it with others.



I met up with your mothers boyfriend and he told me if I looked for you he would kill me.

dont worry I wont give up.

I spoke to the police about him and they told me what to do and I am doing what they said so things are going to go the right way.



I am never giving up baby.



I love and miss you.



Love,

Daddy

Hey baby girl
04:58 Nov 27 2011
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Hey baby girl, miss you so much, I have plans to be in FL for two weeks I will find you, get your address and and do what I have to do to make sure I am in your life.



Things are moving along slowly but with the new job I am working on things look better.

I will be in your life and be your father NO ONE ELSE has that right and NO ONE ELSE will ever take my place.



I will be there for you always......



I love and miss you LC.



Daddy.

Another day withyou
00:42 Nov 26 2011
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Today I spoke to your grandfather on your mothers side he said that he is not taking side and that we need to speak because we are not kids anymore. I told him I have been trying to but she wont pick up her phone.



he said anything I need to get to you or her send it to him and he will see to it that it is pass it along.



I hate this, not speaking to you, it hurts like hell.

I love and miss you so much baby girl.

I wish I could turn back time, but I know I cant so all I can do is hope and fight for you.



Your all I reach for.

I woke up this morning thinking this was all a bad dream, I saw you guys wasnt here, ran to your room and begain to cry. I hate this..

it hurts so much.



I love you.



Daddy

For LC I live and Die for you. I love you my LC Bug!
15:55 Nov 24 2011
Times Read: 594




Your Mother always said I put the community before you guys. so this is for you. I hope you understand what I am trying to say baby.

The First ThanksGiving without you
13:06 Nov 24 2011
Times Read: 603

This is the first ThanksGiving without you here,

I am cooking for the family.

But it doesn't feel right without you.

I pray that your Mother Calls so I can hear your Voice.



Baby you'er one of the biggest reasons I have to be thankful for.

You made me into a man, made me see life in a whole new light.......It is because of you I live and for you I will die.



I hope you have a grate day that is filled with love and kindness.

Know that you are in my heart and mind always.

I love and miss you more then anything in this world.



Happy ThanksGiving L.C.



Daddy.

It just doesn't stop
14:37 Nov 23 2011
Times Read: 620

Last Nite I got a call....No not a good one.....

It seems your mother just wants to hurt me more and more.....

so I hear dez is there with you and your mother..

he is getting married and your mother doesn't seem to care...... I dont understand how she could be with someone I thought was a friend.



Then she says why do I care about you because I have other kids....



Well when I met your mother, I knew in my heart, it was right. you where planed we were so happy.....



You made me into a man made me re-think my life.

I built my world all around you.

I wanted to be the best father I could be.



when she took you my world fell apart, and each day a peice falls away.

You are my joy, my happyness, my everything.



I found peace in you.



I love you baby girl.



Daddy.

thinking of you
04:35 Nov 23 2011
Times Read: 626

Another day passes and still I have not heard your voice...

Only the voice mail I have left on my cell.

The pain inside grows with each passing day that I don't. Hear from you.



LC I miss you so much.

Every thing here feel off without the sound of you running around.

I miss that smile, I miss the way you held me.



Today I made turkey wings. I remember eating them with you and your mom.

Lol the first time she saw them she was like wow I can't eat all that by my self, her face was priceless.....



I remember you having it all over your face lol

You was such a messy eater.



I bet your so big now.

I bet you can eat all by your self with a spoon like a big girl.



I would give anything to hold you and eat dinner with you.

I miss watching tv with you like we use to.

I miss taking you outside and watching you run around.

I miss you so much I can't see clear.



Yesterday I saw a baby girl who looked just like you. When I first saw her my heart stopped as I got closer I saw that her eyes were green and I begain to cry.

The girls mother and aunt asked if I was ok and why did I start to cry.

I told them their lilone looks just like you and I showed them your picture. They both said wow if only your eyes were green you couldn't tell them apart.



They gave me a hug and told me to keep on trying and wished me luck.





Baby girl it is because of you that I get out of bed in the morning, your are my reason for living.



I love you, your always on my mind and in my heart.



Love,



Daddy.

Your Mother is making things up again
07:05 Nov 22 2011
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I went to file for court today so I can have joint custody of you today, and the message I got from your mother was if I want her address I have to look up her dmv records.

she says I was a bit rough on you and that your happier there.



wow I dont know what to say about that....

Just know I wont give up even if I have to go there to find you I will... I will never give up on being in your life. you are my baby girl and I love you.



Thinking of you always

Daddy

longing
04:58 Nov 21 2011
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Another day has past and I still haven't heard from your mother. I miss the sound of your voice,

I miss the feel of your hugs. the sight of your smile.



baby girl I miss you so much.

I will try and dream of you playing and running around the house the way you do.



I feel lost without you.

Daddy is going back into law enforcement to try and make you proud of me.

I wont give up on being apart of your life baby, you have my word I will do everything in my power so that you know you have a father that loves you deeply and that I will never leave you.



I love you Princess.



Daddy.

Bad Dream
11:56 Nov 20 2011
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Last nite I had a bad dream, it woke me and I cried.

I saw your mother.

I asked her why she is doing this to us, she replyed " because I HATE YOU"

I asked what did I do for your Hate?

she said I JUST HATE YOU!"



I saw you in the back of a car, and they wouldn't let me see or speak to you...she got in and took off...



I ran after you but I couldn't keep up...

my chest started to hurt and I fell to the ground...



thats when I woke up and begain to cry..



I cant lose you LC I love you so much.

God I wish I knew what to do....



Thinking of you and always loving and missing you.



Daddy...

Missing Your Voice
11:32 Nov 19 2011
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Its been just over a week and I still havent heard your voicer , I miss you so much.



its getting harder to get out of bed.

are you ok? do you need anything?

I love you LC.

I pray to the gods and goddess's that we will be together again, that I will hold you see your smile and hear your voice.



I dont know how to put what I am feeling into words.



I love you isnt enough because it is so much more then that.



Daddy....

My dearest Daughter LC
16:56 Nov 18 2011
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She's a soft cool rain on a hot summer’s day.

She makes me laugh with the funny things she has to say.



She's the beat of my heart, and the air that I breathe.

She's the sun and the wind, and autumn’s golden leaves.



She's the pride that I feel when I know she's done what’s right.

She's that warm feeling I get, when I remember tucking her in at night.



She is homework and sports, and a busy social life.

She has this beautiful smile that could light the darkest night.



She is the scared feeling I have when she stays out late.

Or the feeling that I am losing her, when she wants to date.



She's the mixed emotions I have, as I watch her mature and grow.

I tell myself she will never leave, but, I know in my heart that someday she will go.



I hope the man that steals her heart, will treat her like a queen.

Because she deserves so much more, than a man that treats her mean.



I will always cherish the wonderful times we have had.

The best part of my life was being your dad.



So now you know who she is, she's my little girl.

I love her with all my heart and I always will.



For Lilith Cianna Morales

LC your always on my mind
16:49 Nov 18 2011
Times Read: 681

Do you know how much you mean to me?

As you grow into what you will be.

You came from within, from just beneath my heart

it's there you'll always be though your own life will now start.

You're growing so fast it sends me awhirl,

With misty eyes I ask, Where's my little girl?

I know sometimes to you I seem harsh and so unfair,

But one day you will see, I taught you well because I care.

The next few years will so quickly fly,

With laughter and joy, mixed with a few tears to cry.

As you begin your growth to womanhood, this fact you must know,

You'll always be my source of pride, no matter where you go.

You must stand up tall and proud, within you feel no fear,

For all you dreams and goals, sit before you very near.

With god's love in your heart and the world by its tail,

You'll always be my winner, and victory will prevail.

For you this poem was written, with help from above,

To tell you in a rhythm of your Father's heartfelt Love!

for you LC I love you, just want you to know, I am always there.
16:38 Nov 18 2011
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Going To file in court today
16:35 Nov 18 2011
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I am going to fight to be in your life, because a life with out you is a life not worth living.

You came into my life and changed my views on a lot of things, my mother told your mother thank you for making my son into a man, but it wasnt her..It was you.......I tried so hard to do what ever your mother wanted me to so she would stay, but in the end it didnt matter she left any ways.



I will not give up on you baby girl, I cant as I said a life without you is not worth living.

Trying to understand
10:28 Nov 18 2011
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Yesterday I got a call about your Mother, there was a message to me from her..

The messagewas " Ryu Please don't walk away from the community because of me, they need you...You have helped so many Think of those who will need your help."



What she needs to understand is that I need you. All that I do in the comunity is for you.

So you have a community with honor and a rich culture.



You are the reason I get out of bed, everything in this world that matters is you LC.



I wish I was there to see your smile, to hear you say I love you daddy. all I have left of you is two pics your mother left me and a voice mail of you and your mother saying that you love and miss me. I play it everyday, I close my eyes and in my mind you are in fornt of me saying it.

it makes me smile, then when I open them I begain to cry because it is only in my mind



I miss you so much it is hard to breath.



I love you Lilith please dont ever forget that.



Daddy.

My baby girl
20:54 Nov 17 2011
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First off let me say that your Mother and I love you deeply.

I am sorry that we didnt work out, I did try.

Now on to you.....

You are the best thing that I have ever done.

I love you more then life it self.

I never thought I would never see you again, I thought your mother was comming back.

every day I dream of holding you and seeing your smile, holding you..

dont be upset with your mother about leaving she wanted a better place for you to live, a better life for all of us, but it was me that could not leave VA. because your brothers and sister where moving back for me to be apart of their lives. No I am not chosing them over you or you over them, I am just trying to do the right thing for all of you's.



I love you so much and miss your hugs and kisses. I would give anything to hold you again.

I want you to know I will not give up, I will fight to be apart of your life.



You are my world, not a day goes by that I don't cry because your so far away and I need to hold you and make sure you are alright....





I love you so much baby

I will write you every day so you know your always in my thoughts and in my heart.