I am Calling out to the only one
17:05 Dec 16 2011
Times Read: 576
Seems like our love is on the road to nowhere fast
All my life I thought a love like this would last
But every road can hide a corner we can't see
I had a vision that I woke up by your side
I felt you're breathing and our souls were intertwined
But who controls love's destiny
Not me
We had it all right in our hands
We had the room to fly and still the place to land
And so I'm calling out, I'm calling out
You're the only one
Who can save us from what we've done
That don't leave me hanging on
I'm reaching out and praying you'd come back again
It's just darkness I'm living in
And you're the only place my heart has ever been
Maybe I'm longing in a way of love naive
Maybe I'm desperate for a reason to believe
There wasn't any wat I thought that we would fall
I've seen perfection in a rainbow in the sky
I've seen a child make the coldest grown man cry
But loving you I thought was greater than them all
And we had it all, just you and me
And now there's a doorway to my heart without a key
Wherever you are right now, come back baby show me how you feel
Because I'm lost without you here
I'm calling out, I'm calling out
You're the only one
Now take a look at what I become
And don't leave me hanging on
I'm reaching out and praying you'd come back again
It's just darkness I'm living in
And you're the only place my heart has ever been
this life of MISERY!
09:43 Dec 07 2011
Times Read: 637
Standing in self-hatred,
drowning in my tears.
Looking back on my life,
what I've been through the past 37 years.
Living in as a shadow,
everything I do & say,
wishing somehow things would change,
praying for a way.
Same old shit just another day,
living in this evil world that was created just for me.
Starving for love, affection, & attention,
I know none of this is how it's really supposed to be.
I try to be strong,
even though I feel so weak.
Feel like just giving up,
but I won't accept that level of defeat.
Pretend like I'm always happy,
although I'm never really okay.
Waiting for this pain to end,
that I feel every fucking day.
It's hard to say what's wrong,
when nothings going right.
Hard to keep myself going,
when I've been blinded by light of everyone else.
This pain is never ending,
it just goes on & on & on.
It's all so unbelievably real,
I just wish it all was gone.
Trying to pick myself up,
when I've fallen so far and hard.
But I don't know where I'm going,
It's all so very dark.
My heart is weak, my emotions sore,
I do my best to never let it show.
But deep down inside I feel like,
I'm dying & nobody knows.
A lot of fucked up thoughts,
run through my head constantly.
I just wish I didn't live,
this life of MISERY!
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