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Kaela, you say it doesn't bother you but you were crying the other night, about what I couldn't know but you know what you're really like. You say people don't like that's why I have friends who alway have my back, unlike you? You have a lot of people on here fooled, but once the see you fro what you are, they will shun you as all your "friends" in Glade have. It's funny you say that I'm mean and ugly and lazy, but if I was that bad why did you ask me to buy you ticket back out here after you graduated? Was it because you got into it with your mom or because you wanted to be with me? Either option make you a user or a liar. I must be magical too because it takes money to pay for things like food, housing, phone and internet....and money don't grow on trees Kaela. You just have no idea about anything and that's why shit always blows up in your face.

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superfreak899
00:35 Sep 01 2009

*rotfl*

You're a moron...please get over it. I don't want you. You're pathetic. You're probably using the interent either at Adam's or at the library like usual. Get a life Javier, and leave me alone. You don't know me, and you never will. So fuck off.

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TruthHurts
01:00 Sep 01 2009

So you don't want me, so it proves you're a liar and a user, because you did ask me to buy you a ticket back out here when you got into it with your mom in late June. You lied about lovign me and you wanted to use me so you could do whatever the fuck you wanted. So typical of you, just like you moved in with Andy Owens, but called me telling you loved me. That poor chump was just a place to stay and cock to fuck....hmmm I suppose that's all I was to you as well.

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It's funny how you have to "admit" that you loved me, funny thing is Kaela, that love means being honest and faithful. The things I asked of you only. I didnt care about anything else. I wanted nothing more than to make a good life with you, but you chose to ignore my love for you. You keep dong the same things you did with now with some other sucker, but you will never change. I wish you couldve been that sweet girl I would see sneak out from time to time, the girl I loved holding close. The one I thought I'd have a family with. I mourn you and I always will for my heart aches for what I thought we had......

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winterdarkmoon
16:11 Aug 30 2009

It is called move on

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superfreak899
17:32 Aug 30 2009

How am I doing the same things with someone else? You don't know what I'm doing in my life and you never will. I can't stand you. You're mean, ugly, and not to mention lazy as fuck. I mean hell, you can't keep a job and just to let you know..no one from G2K even liked you. You think you know everything when you don't. Get over yourself, grow up and move on. None of these pathetic journal posts and shit means anything. All they are to me is a way for me to laugh.

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winterdarkmoon
17:58 Aug 30 2009

It is called JEALOUSY GirlFriend....lol

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superfreak899
18:04 Aug 30 2009

LMAO,

Good point sweetie...*hehe*

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winterdarkmoon
18:08 Aug 30 2009

Thinks it is called harassment..But then again it is your journal to say as you plz but it can become flaming and thats a no no

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superfreak899
18:27 Aug 30 2009

*hehe*

I feel it's harrassment, but I'm not bothered with it so guess not lol.

I don't care what he has to say. I don't love him and I never will. It's over, he's just jealous and can't let me go.

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TruthHurts
22:21 Aug 30 2009

That's funny Kaela, because the entire time you were cheating you wouldn't tell so I could let you go, now did you? I'd say you're the one who wouldn't let go...well not until you had someone else like you always do.

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You're the only one who made yourself insecure and you're the one who chose this way. You couldve done it the right way if I wasn't who you wanted. Instead you lied and strung me along. I loved you with everything I was but you threw it away. I would've shaken the heavens down for you. Your lies and infidelities will undo you and you're nothing but what you know you truly are.

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winterdarkmoon
16:10 Aug 30 2009

Funny thing is you keep making her more famous..Why not try to ignore what she does, she seems happy..so leave her alone..she chose not to be with you so stop harassing her

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superfreak899
18:28 Aug 30 2009

You're very right Winter hun, I'm more than happy now.

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TruthHurts
22:20 Aug 30 2009

Yes, Kaela that why the other night you asked to be shot and claimed you were nothing your kismets? I'm not jealous, just angry.....you weren't what you made yourself out to be.

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> Date: Fri, 17 Apr 2009 15:00:22 -0400

> From: kaela

> To: nada187@hotmail.com

> Subject: Hey jewger!

>

> Sorry my battery was really low so I decided that I would email you.

> Javier, I really do love you and I hope that you know that now. If not

> I'll be destroyed because I've done all I could to show you. I want us to

> be happy and have a family together. At this point I truly wonder why I

> haven't gotten pregnant, regardless of the medications. The birth control

> should be out of my system by now and invega doesn't do anything but

> stabilize my moods. So it doesn't make sense to me at all. Ugh, I'll be

> eternally depressed if I cannot conceive. I know it will upset you as

> well, or at least I hope. Speaking of children, have you tried to call

> yours? Will she let you talk to them? Anyway, I have to tell you something

> and I hope you don't get mad...but when you talk about her it makes me

> feel worthless, even though the things you say are usually bad, it still

> makes me feel like I don't mean anything. I don't like hearing her or her

> name. She is nothing to me, but apparently she is something to you and it

> kills me. Well, I have roughly 7 to 10 minutes left. I guess I'll call you

> when I get to bus duty. I love you. Email me back if you want.

>

>

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Date: Thu, 10 Jan 2008 11:58:51 -0500> From:~> kaela> To: nada187@hotmail.com> Subject:~> *Tears of Snow-White Sorrow*> > Falling into a dark abyss>~> Not knowing if light will come again> Searching for my place~> in this life> Always going in the wrong direction> You told~> me that you'd stay> But I knew deep down that you would leave~> me> How could you lie to me> How could you leave me in~> dismay> > So now I'm a captive of the shadows> Chained to the~> darkness for eternity> I'm drowning in the tears I cried for~> you> Oh, bitter tears of snow-white sorrow> > Torn into a~> million pieces> Never to be whole again> Seperated from the~> things I used to love> I'm a hostage of my own misery> I wish~> you were still here> Holding me in your arms> Chasing away my~> pain again> Wiping my tears away> > So now I'm a captive of~> the shadows> Chained to the darkness for eternity> I'm~> drowning in the tears I cried for you> Oh, bitter tears of~> snow-white sorrow> > Can you see me crying> I'm crying these~> tears for you> Can you taste the bitterness> Buried within my~> kiss (within my kiss)> > I'm forever a captive to the~> shadows> And I'm chained to the darkness for eternity> Now~> I'm drowning in the tears I cried for you> Oh, bitter tears~> of, oh bitter tears of snow-white sorrow.> > > Yeah,~> depressing I know, but it's still really good. But I'm hoping~> to God> that you never do that to me :(>

Sometimes I feel I've got to

Run away I've got to

Get away

From the pain that you drive into the heart of me

The love we share

Seems to go nowhere

And I've lost my light

For I toss and turn I can't sleep at night

Once I ran to you (I ran)

Now I'll run from you

This tainted love you've given

I give you all a boy could give you

Take my tears and that's not nearly all

Oh...tainted love

Tainted love



Now I know I've got to

Run away I've got to

Get away

You don't really want any more from me

To make things right

You need someone to hold you tight

And you think love is to pray

But I'm sorry I don't pray that way





Don't touch me please

I cannot stand the way you tease

I love you though you hurt me so

Now I'm going to pack my things and go

Tainted love, tainted love

Touch me baby, tainted love

Tainted love

LOUISE

IT SEEMED A LONG TIME AGO

LOUISE

I'LL ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT DAY



I CRAWLED ON MY KNEES

BEGGING YOU TO STAY

YOU MADE ME SHIVER LOUISE

YOU MADE ME QUIVER



NOW I DO THE STRANGEST THINGS

I THINK SUCH LONELY THOUGHTS

FORGETTING ALL

JUST FORGETTING YOU

LOUISE

ANYTHING AT ALL

NOT TO THINK OF YOU

ANYTHING AT ALL

DON'T DENY IT IS NOT TRUE

LOUISE

I FEEL I AM GETTING WEAKER

A LIFE BLUE ON GLOOMY WAVES

I FEEL I AM DIVING DEEPER

INTO THE DARKEST CAVES

THERE'S NOTHING AT ALL

TO FIND A WAY



LOUISE LOUISE LOUISE

MY HEART USED TO BEAT

NOW IT ONLY WEEPS

LOUISE LOUISE LOUISE

UNCARED THE CITY SLEEPS

I AM TWISTED IN THE STREETS



I AM SHIVERING

INTO THE STRANGEST THINGS

LONELY THOUGHTS AND FORGETTING YOU LOUISE

AND YOU PROMISED ME

YOU TOLD ME

YOU TOLD ME EMPTY LIES

LOUISE LOUISE LOUISE

( MY ONLY CORD IS NOT TO ADORE , I HAVE TO SAY, IT IS MY ONLY WAY )

LOUISE LEAVE ME , LEAVE ME

NO LONGER INTERFERE

LOUISE

LOUISE

It's cold outside - The night love died

On the night you murdered love I

t's cold outside - The night love died

On the night you murdered love



From an early age I was taught to respect

That a broken heart girl

Ain't a thing you collect

Close your eyes and say

Nothing lasts a day

You're wasting my time

Yet I love to love you

Close your eyes and say

Honour love obey

You're wasting my time

Yet I love to love you



January... February... March and April May June July sees you go by I see love walk away

Didn't use a blade

A bullet or a gun

You poisoned the moonlight

When you put out the sun

Close your eyes and say

Nothing lasts a day

You're wasting my time

Yet I love to love you

Close your eyes and say

Honour love obey

You're wasting my time

Yet I love to love you



Close your eyes and say

Nothing lasts a day

You're wasting my time

Yet I love to love you

If I were to say to you

"Can you keep a secret?"

Would you know just what to do

Or where to keep it?

Then I say "I love you,"

And the foul situation

"Hey girl, I thought we were

The right combination."



Who broke my heart?

You did, you did

Bow to the target,

Blame Cupid, Cupid

You think you're smart

Stupid, Stupid



Shoot that poison arrow to my heart

Shoot that poison arrow

Shoot that poison arrow to my heart

Shoot that poison arrow



No rhythm in cymbals

No tempo in drums

Love on arrival

She comes when she comes

Right on the target

But wide of the mark

What I thought was fire

Was only the spark



The sweetest melody is an unheard refrain

So lower your sights

Yeah but raise your aim

Raise you aim



Who broke my heart?

You did, you did

Bow to the target,

Blame Cupid, Cupid

You think you're smart

Stupid, Stupid.





"I thought you loved me but it seems you don't care."

"I care enough to know I can never love you."



Who broke my heart?

You did, you did

Bow to the target

Blame Cupid

You think you're smart

That's stupid

Right from the start

When you knew we would part





Shoot that poison arrow

I'm glad what I do on here pisses you off, it must suck for the world to find out you're nothing but trash and an unfaithful slut. I wish, in retrospect, that I wouldn't have given you the time nor energy you got. Some might say this is wasted energy, but I feel great knowing I expose you for the person you are. I laugh at your brazen lies about you working as an EMT, but the truth is you got banned from the crew and you never could pass your test. You say you're going to college...lol...you couldn't even drag your ass out of bed to go to high school or spend a whole day in your classes. You're in for a shock when you realize you actually have to do your work in college. Why don't you take your crazy pills before you get locked up in the mental ward again.

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KanePendragon
03:21 Aug 05 2009

Hey man, She sounds like a complete bitch but why bring up all the drama on here. Just going to cause problems. Just my 2 cents. Blessed be

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20dollarnosebleed
21:47 Aug 06 2009

yeah she sounds like a real bitch but why bring it here your just stooping 2 her level lol

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Heaven is closer now today

The sound is in my ears

I can't believe the things you say

They echo what I fear

Twisting the bones until they snap

I scream but no one knows

Say I'm familiar, cold to touch

And then you turn and go



Feels like heaven

Feels like heaven



See how we planned for saddened eyes and tears

To pave the way

I fought the fever as I knew

My hair, it turned to gray

Study your face and fade the frame

Too close for comfort now

We can recall the harmony that lingered but went sour



Feels like heaven

Feels like heaven



You wanted all I had to give

See me, I feel

See me, I live

Whoa oh



Feels like heaven

(heaven is closer, heaven is closer)

Feels like heaven

(heaven is closer, heaven is closer)

Feels like heaven

(heaven is closer, heaven is closer)

Feels like heaven

(heaven is closer, heaven is closer)

Never had a doubt

In the beginning

Never a doubt

Trusted too true

In the beginning

I loved you right through

Arm in arm we laughed like kids

At all the silly things we did



You made me promises promises

Knowing I'd believe

Promises promises

You knew you'd never keep



Second time around

I'm still believing words that you said

You said you'd always be here

"In love forever"

Still repeats in my head

You can't finish what you start

If this is love it breaks my heart



You made me promises promises

You knew you'd never keep

Promises promises

Why do I believe



Arm in arm we laughed like kids

At all the silly things we did

You can't finish what you start

If this is love it breaks my heart



You made me promises promises

You knew you'd never keep

Promises promises

Why do I believe

All of your promises

You knew you'd never keep

Promises promises

Why do I believe



Promises

Promises

Promises

Promises

Promises

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FreakBitch1991
22:47 Aug 30 2009

Ive checked out your profile and read your journal. Im going to add it to my faves because I can completely relate with the fact that people cant be themselves and dont tell the truth when they really dont want you or cannot be true to you instead they drag you along until it hurts the worst when theyre gone but yea i also want to add you to my friends list if thats alright



-Jamie- -aka- freak bitch

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I have to laugh at how you to try to make yourself out to be something you aren't and have never been. You always ass=sume other people's personas because you have no substance to you. I guess you must detest yourself so much Kaela that you need to be everyone except for you. Nothing you say you've experienced is true, but rather things other people have told you about their lives or what you've seen on tv. You're so fucking pathetic with your charades. Oh, I also heard that Dustin abused your slut ass while you were cheating on me with him......poetic justice! You deserve all the pain you've had in your life and all that is coming to you.