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I am a living sin. Though, those who may know me will say different. My sin? Well, I'd say it's wrath. To kill all, whether they'd be friend, ally, foe, innocent, or otherwise. I'm very sad right now, and I feel pain in my chest right now. I have a heart, I know, but.....what gets to me is, why doesn't it beat? Since a years time, I feel great pain and I think I'm only lasting on will and spirit alone. I'm living a huorrible existence as it feels like I'm detachable. Right now, no one online or in person is talking to me much anymore. It's like, I'm becoming a living memory. It hurts. Some will say, 'You're trying to get all the pity you can, aren't you?' Well, if it seems that way, I'm sorry, but try living my life. One where no ones wants you, you unintentionally push everyone, even your loved one or ones away, feeling like you're about to die every second, feeling like you don't exist, and having a deep bloodlust ready and waiting to unleash on everything within reach....I only manage because of someone I love greatly...and even then, I can't be with her,...ever. It's like hating everything and blaming yourself, but you really aren't mad and then you just snap into nothing. I'm suffering....no one cares. No one f**king cares and I don't know why I'm fine with that. I feel like complete and utter shit right now. I think I'm breaking because of everything.....I just, don't know.