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(yes I'm a geek :P)

So now I can txt unlimited w00t!



Thank god..I don't have to drop out in the middle of a conversation because I've run out of messages for the day.

So I had sorta made a half-ass friend on here..

nice enough fellow

Went to send him a picture of glowsticks today and apparently there's no such user...and I was using the reply option.

I guess they deleted him *shrugs*

I hope they at least warn me if they're going to delete this account.

I've put forth some good effort here to get things up and running..

with a lil help of DarkGypsyPirate (thankyou)

Cause I'm a dunce with html.

So yeah, made my profile a lil more spruced up.

I'll get around to centering the damn graphics later cause they look silly

Finally hit lvl 2. Took me about a week. Hopefully lvl 3 will come faster. I could really use the unlim txt. *sighs*

I should go to bed now..

I feel so numb today

My thoughts rage on, the mind shakey as if with fever.

Almost vacant, yet only holding it all back

Is it merely insanity?

Or is it a caving depression based on the simple need to be understood.

Noone understands, the loneliness is palpable

tangible, able to be touched, and sliced through with a knife

Many think they understand, their eyes think they see, but they too are decieved

One I know comes close to understanding, I keep Him close to me..

Close because His mind stretches, He knows without a doubt that He cannot know me, yet loves me still..

He tries so hard, and that love is sacred to me

Most of the time I am fufilled

But then the madness returnes

Noone can fill that insane void

I don't believe even I understand it

Just that it is dark, and waiting

Mayhaps it is the evil locked away in me

That will never let me be normal, to fit in with the humans around me.

I can pretend, yet I am more frightened of losing ymself then of this loneliness

At least I have his comfort

With Him I am not alone



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Now I must go to work

I fear that the fake smile I give will grow

That vacant servitude will consume me

Protect my soul- gods who are no longer adored

Let me be free and never fade away