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Ugh!!



So remember back in April I was rear ended ( in a car accident you dirty mind) lol....

anyways and the doctor did xrays and found that I have degenertive arthuritis (sp) She said it was sever and I was extreamly too young to even have it but to have it this bad is just un heard of......nice.



Well it seems that my headaches have been lasting longer and getting stronger over the last few months. I try to pysch myself into thinking its not that bad and its gonna just go away.

Well, it will be about another month before I have insurance again.......I am right now dealing with sever headaches and my eyes are getting blurry even with my contacts and glasses..

and I am feeling naucious (sp)

The headache meds aren't working anymore.

I keep saying Ann, its all in your head, you can think it away. It only hurts more because now you know something really is wrong....snap out of it....now if I can just get my body to go with my way of thinking we will be just fine......



But truly once I get insurance I am going to the doctor and see how bad it really is or isn't......

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ladySnowStrixx
13:39 Jun 30 2009

I,m sorry your having s much pain hon, I,ll say a prayer to the goddess for you and hope that truly find some relief .

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ugh! I cannot seem to get any rest. I am soooooo damn tired all the time but when I sleep I am tortured by night mares and constantly waking up. I can't remeber the dreams so to figure out what is bugging me.....grrrrrrrr its so frustrating... hell and getting a bit dangerous. The evening drive home with the sun beating in and so warm just makes me want to fall asleep at the wheel...not good.

I am so restless. I really don't know what is driving this either. I think I need to go see my Grandpa. I miss him so much. I am sure by now they have him carefully tucked away in his little nitch and his plaque (sp) in place....I just need him. I don't know if that is it or not.

I wish I could remember the nightmares they would maybe help me......

Sorry I am just starting to babble on here.......I am so tired even now.

Have you ever been beyond tired???? I can't hardly keep my eyes open but even if I close them I won't get a damn lick of rest........

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BLOODLIFE
12:00 Jun 25 2009

Dear Sleepless,

you're be thought of ... constantly.

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ladySnowStrixx
12:50 Jun 25 2009

sweetie, could it be that deep down you are afraid he is not ok? maybe you do need to go see him.I use to get those feeling and dreams when my grandmother needed to see me or was feeling lonely.its a really weird feeling.

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when it seems like just yesterday I was showing him how to hold a spoon and whiping apple sauce off his nose. Now he is cooking and has his own schedule of things he has to do. Hell he's only going on 13 but, seems as though he is nearly grown....telling me..... 'its ok mom I got it." or ' dont worry, I know how to cook'.......

My oldest is transitioning from a little boy to a teenager right before my eyes.......I just pray we both make it thru this.....

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BLOODLIFE
09:55 Jun 24 2009

I know the love you have for both the boys is immeasurable. You are doing a great job with them, what you will see as they grow is that same love you ploughed being ready for harvest, and you will get it back ... with interest.

Just remember, like with any harvest, we need a little rain to fall too, just stay strong. ;-)

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CarnelianMyst
13:08 Jun 24 2009

Wait till they start bringing girlfriends home for your inspection..heh heh.

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So I needed my Grandpa's advice today.......I talk to him all the time....but I never get a reply. I really didn't know what to do......so I called my Grandma.....and I asked her to ask Grandpa for what I needed help with..

She is such a good Grandma, she chuckled and then she helped me. then we talked and laughed about the past......and cried too.



I miss my papa so much...........

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ladySnowStrixx
18:23 Jun 23 2009

I know the feeling , only both mine are gone now ,I share your pain.

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So this time last year I was the manager of an office......doing very well. I was on salary but had to work overtime on a regular basis. So when you break it down to hourly pay it was kinda sad.........



This time I came back to work at the same company....coming in at $2 less / not a manager and hourly, I get lots of overtime too........I was a little worried about that since I barely made it on my salary last year...........



I got my first paycheck today..........nearly fell out of my chair.......I made more money this time than I ever made as a manager on salary.



I have less stress this time. I get to travel to different offices, see different people. Where ver I show up they are more than happy to see me. I feel like a Goddess when I walk in and they are all saying.......... yes thank you! we are so glad to see you.. and when I leave they are just as thankful.

I feel good helping my fellow closers. Especially when I know they appreciate my help.



YaY

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RedQueen
08:29 Jun 25 2009

I'm so happy for you sugar- I knew you'd be ok

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June has started out as a good month. :o)

I emailed my old boss this morning and told him things just didnt work out with the other title company.....and I wanted to know if he had anything open.

Welllllllllllllllll he called!!!! I went in this morning around 11am cst. Its $2 less an hour than I was making :( but, its hourly and there is plenty of overtime.......ugh.....but good too. I will be a traveling closer.

Meaning he wanted someone that could go into any office pick up a file and take care of it......and he knew I could do all that and more...which was nice to hear. So.....I start tomorrow...if I can ever get in touch with the damn Manager at a certain office.

So things will soon be looking up again.....hell that seems to be the only way I can look these days.....lol

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CarnelianMyst
00:45 Jun 02 2009

Hey girl congrats...things are looking up indeed!



Don't let that last job off the hook though. You need to know if they put something bad about you on your work history. You are entitled to a copy of EVERYTHING in your personnel file when you leave a place of employment, it's the law. If they won't give it to you, call your state department of labor and report them.



Good luck!!!

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13WhiteWitch69
15:06 Jun 03 2009

YEAH!! I a am so happy my dear niece cause I know you were stressing.. Love you and yes the above advice is very good and solid. :) *hugs*

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shall we. :o)



This will be a good week. Think positive focus and it will happen. I will get a job this week, I will get a better paying job, I will findsomething that I will enjoy doing it will all be ok.

This was all meant to happen this way. Everything happens for a reason and I am just meant for something bigger and better........



:o) :o)