So Molly has been to the vet he says heart failure and I have two choices, I decided to do everything I can for her first......we went to the cardiologist. she stayed the night in a O2 chamber to help her breathe and relax....she is worn out. I picked her up last Tuesday and was given a ton of meds to give her every day twice a day. Nothing will make her better everything is to just get her by......so now its been a few weeks and she seems to be just hanging in there. She barely eats and just pees out her bum. She has no energy and I am feeling guilty. I have to crush her meds now and mix with water then squirt it down her throat.....wtf am I doing?!!!!!!!!!
So I haven't seen or talked to my real father for about 8 years. We never had a normal relationship anyways through out the years. Its been a hit and miss sort of thing. Anyways, so out of the blue, my step mom calls (she would be the reason we didn't stay in touch) I never expected to hear from them except maybe the call that he had passed away...maybe. So came a call from her. I was prepared for the above, but not for what was said. He was not dead, but could be soon. She kept it light and to the point. He has a cancer that attacks the bone not the soft tissue. It has attacked his skull. Turns out that it has eating part of his skull and was pushing on his eye socket. She wanted me to know that the deck was stacked against him in every way and if I wanted to see him I should. He has copd, empasizma, dibietes, over weight, and turns out half his heart is dead. (I know I can't spell some of those words, sorry)
I was quite torn on what to do......
I ended up going to see him on Sunday. It was ok. What do you say to someone you haven't seen in so long....... we talked about his situation and what was going to be done and what to do if the worst was to happen. Sorta caught up on current events and left it at that.
My step brother called me through out the day today to keep me posted on his progress. Turns out he did just fine, they were able to save his eye and he is in recovery. So now that contact has been made again..........what next? anything? bbq's ? what?
she has been with me through several relationships, two marriages, two kids, 5 houses, tons of tears. She has always been there for me when I needed someone to just listen and cuddle with. She is my best friend, my secret keeper, my snuggle bug, my sounding board.........now she is old and starting to feel and show her age, all I can do for her is keep her comfortable and shower her with all my love. My dearst Molly, has congested heart failure and the vet says all we can do is keep her comfortable. She isn't in any pain and doesn't act like anything is wrong, but when laying next to her I can hear her heart beating very loud and can hear her chest girgle.... when the time comes I will put her down. It will be the best gift I could give her.
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Oceanne
15:31 Jan 25 2011
I am really sorry to hear what you and Molly are going through.Perhaps it is time to let her go.Thats never an easy decision,but sometimes its the best.My thoughts are with you ....
gszander
20:18 Jan 26 2011
I it may be that time. Good advice.
RedQueen
04:41 Jan 29 2011
I agree sugar- no point in making her suffer needlessly just to make yourself feel better- because in the end, you won't. You're just delaying the inevitable and making her suffer.