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So I've been dodging the military for a while and i almost got looped into it this time. However I got offered a choice i could go to college and get my degree and finally start my career. It'll all just be taken care of the problem being... I don't accept hand outs i have always just done shit on my own. I never felt accomplished if i did do it for 100% by myself. I know it's stupid it's just i love that struggle and reward. I guess I just I don't know. I guess I'm making an easy decision difficult by over thinking it

So I don't write stories of poems often or well. Which is kinda sad considering how much am love reading both. From time to time tho I'll share my least pathetic attempts at both

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FeverDreams
01:18 Oct 12 2018

Oh shush ... they are going to be wonderful.

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TheGildedGuardian
01:23 Oct 12 2018

Thank you but I don't draw inspiration from what I used to pain loss and anger. Now it's confusion and the lack of motivation

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Mimic
04:40 Oct 12 2018

Oh dude I could give you a writing assignment to help with that

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TheGildedGuardian
05:29 Oct 12 2018

I appreciate it but I've never been great with homework XD I literally coasted my entire junior and senior year in class work alone and still had straight A 's

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I've been sick for days, I have a headache my throat hurts and my nose is stuffed like a damn turkey. I just want to be well and go exercise and explore my home town see how much it changed in my absence. Go visit my little bestie and see how much she grew up and matured. I just want to be out and about man

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Dakotah
18:06 Oct 10 2018

That's going around here too. Mine started with headache, sore throat then fever. I hope you feel better soon so you can explore your home town.

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TheGildedGuardian
18:32 Oct 10 2018

Thanks i just hate being stuck in man

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FeverDreams
01:18 Oct 12 2018

Get well soon my friend

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TheGildedGuardian
01:24 Oct 12 2018

Thank you almost there just need to get over my cabin fever already XP

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I am not religious, but I do believe in fate, i do believe in a higher power. My actions are not reflected through consequence but through my own views and morals. My faith in those two comes from my success. Seeing the little things around me come together in a positive way keeps my head above the water and my resolve un breakable. Lately my faith has been shaken. Most of the good I have done has come undone and I stand to lose so much. Last time I didn't handle this well and my fear is that I will repeat my actions from before

Endless opinions. Endless arguments and not a way to silence them. No will to fight them off most days no ways to counter argue cause finding ways to arguing with them is an impossible feat. They think like me they feel how I feel and they see what I see. In many ways they make me as intelligent as I am, however they also hold me back from decisive action in the worst possible moments. I wish I had just one way to unify them. Just to find at least one moment of inner peace