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When life beats you down over and over again, when do you finaly stop getting up?

Or do you just think that the next time you get up it will be for longer.It is amazing at what someone can live thru.Mentaly, Physicaly and spiritualy. I wonder how many changes a person goes thru befor they die.

Is it the same amount for everyone or is it not.

I mean eveyone is different, but it is not unusally to meet someone similar to your self?

The psyce is fasinating.How it can differ from one to another,but match others in one way or another.I wonder if fate has a roll in it. it must, for it has a hand in everything else. I sometimes sit an wonder how much i myself can take befor i reach my breaking point.Why is it that the good people must suffer but they say nothing...yet people who get all the breaks are the ones whom are the ones that complain all the time...Nice people are also the ones with the most "walls"..every day,from behind thier walls, they scream for release.yet they also fear the outside world...i find it entertaining all the lies and mask people have for this world.tho some should not talk for even they have to put on a different visage around certain people so they do not know that they are hiding anything...some should just stay enigmatic.some lose that...but ,after time,they will gain it back..For being a mystery is a double edge sword..







wrote:March 28th, 2004

Have you ever found yourself at a point were you feel you have "died" yet you are still walking amongst the living? Did you ever stop an sit down just to watch people? you then wish that that could be you even for a moment. Then you cast your eyes downward towards your hands an remember....you can't feel..An the only way you "feel" emotions is like the way an amputee feels that which has been lost.A phantam sensation.You can almost feel it yet you know that it is gone.If you would give up all worldly possesions just to be hold and/or to be held like that in return.If this has come from an unanesteticly ripping away of a loved one.Or some traumatic event.Or you just "feel" a connection to this then something deep inside of you has awakened an became part of your very essence..But with this deadening of you, you now know if someone near is in need of help..an you get a insight of events that have not happend..There is a name for this "being"..Saddly you have bacame a CROW.You see, there is more like us..We are few an far between..the reason for this? As you now know, it takes alot to create one of us...So to you i give my condolences....



Welcome to the murder......

To bad you could make it.....



Signed

forever

The Crow



Wrote: July 9th, 2003 7:00pm

Here i am again,

walking around the abyss....alone.

No sense of direction.

No care for self being.

Feeling nothing but the emptinessinside this....

Shell?



I hear the distant scream of my former self.

I know what he screams for.

He screams for someone or something to free him and all the emotions from the cold dark obliet they reside in an have since the "death" of them.Love,or the tender touch from someone is what he craves.But who?

I look around with no prevail at finding that....one person to complete him.to help with the healing process.

For this person must be very special. because they then will be lead to the most obscure spot.

The inner sanctum..a place so obsure that no one has been since the keeper was taken..



This place is the very core of his being..Here is what makes him tick.Where all secrets are kept...along with his dreams.so until this person is found I shall be..pain,sorrow saddness & despair shall power me



The metamorphesus is almost complete.I can hear him scream for someone or something to stop it.....YET?...I can hear in the scream an almost longing for it not to be stopped. No more pain or sorrow or saddness or despair for him to feel



FOR YOU NEED TO BE,TO BE HURT..





Signed

Forever

The Crow









P.S.



(names to smeared to read) Reast in peace my friend.

For you fought all your battles bravely..I commend you..FATE.What wonderful and painful things it brings...so until the day your resurrection....LATER



wrote: JUNE, 24th, 2003 6:57 am