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And They Were All Lies



I couldn’t ignore the pain any longer

Life was just too much

I never saw my life in future times

Or happiness and love and such



I’d been to the edge with the intent to jump

And had become happy with thoughts of no pain

Feeling my uselessness as an inherited curse

I had nothing left to gain



The sun failed to shine

In my world overcast

Birds no longer sang

And the first had become the last



All things good and whole

Had turned and went their way

They were never to return to me

So I felt I should just go away



Consumption by hate, to save was too late

Where should I turn now?

Why do I get kicked when I’m down?

When could I be happy? Or even better, how?



Fallen and fetal

I will return to the dirt

Bittersweet battle within

No longer would I hurt



Smiles soon faded

And hearts followed to break

As I cried out for help

I cried in heaven’s sake



Routinely I cried

For a hand to reach to me

I looked blankly at emptiness’ stare

And closed my eyes reluctantly



But I felt one more fight, a chance in me

To save myself from isolation

Piercing my lips were words of insignificance

And the end to my frustration



As time's hands moved on and on

Together, as one, we grew

Now solitary routine you seek

You seek you never knew



Tired of times we spend together

Tired of me you grow

Tired of being tired in time

No feelings will you show



But in time as your thoughts are even

Will I be thought of only as your pawn

And will you be happy or sad

When I’m finally gone?

What Did You Expect?



You came into my life

As quickly as you left.

You grabbed a cutting knife

And sliced right through my breast.



You didn't mean to hurt

But what did you expect?



My heart now cut in two

It feels beyond repair.

Injury done by you

God, life just isn't fair.



You didn't mean to hurt

But what did you expect?



So here we are, just friends,

But I long to be more.

Desire with no end

Throbbing from my core.



You didn't mean to hurt

But what did you expect?

Shattered Pieces



Inside my sleeve, I pull out my heart,

handing it to you, "careful it's fragile,

and easily falls apart."



Extending your arms, you take the heart in

your tender warm hands.

It falls into a million shattered pieces - on

the floor it lands.



You begin to bend down to pick it up, sorrow and

sadness in your eyes.



Apologies are not enough.



Looking at you with tears in my eyes,

I ask you not to pick up the pieces of a heart

that has fallen apart.



I am the one who needs to pick up the pieces of

my shattered heart - one by one, piece by piece.



I need to put it together again, some how. some way.



Each piece of my heart has a memory so true.

Each piece of my heart has part of you.



You are the one who is leaving to start a new lease on life.

I'll just be here on my knees picking up the pieces of a

heart that feels like it's being pierced with a knife.



All my tears won't keep you near

All my tears won't mend what's not here.



Again I look at you with a whisper in my voice,

The only way my heart will mend and finally be complete,

is if you and I can come together without being discreet.

You see, what we have here and today, helps me face the

world, with a love for you that gives a glow -

but now, my darling, you made a choice.



My heart is on this floor, shattered and broke.

With each piece I pick up -

I need to learn to let go.

Heartstrings Are Played Upon



It's becoming more evident

Much more obvious to me

I thought much more of you

Than you ever thought of me



Was this my biggest mistake

Letting myself think you cared

Was I just your marionette

With heartstrings open and bared



With me left here still thinking

What was false, what was true

So puzzling and so complex

I’m left to await another clue



On my heartstings you played

Each left with a loving memory

Yet I still have those questions

Do you ever think about me



I’m wondering why all the intrigue

Now why all of this mystery

Why am I left here hanging

Your the one that holds the key.

Promises Made



Yesterday's goals, dim memories.

Dark saddened eyes, blurring with tears.

Painful scars borne; Love's history.

Futures crumble when doubt appears.



No brightly lit hope envisioned,

When following after harsh words.

Hurt soul splits in twain, partitioned.

Swooned by appeal - when numbness lured.



Apologies made, never bought.

Price paid turned out far too costly.

Though never known what would be wrought -

Must walk into the night softly.



One wish, only to be released.

Granted - now receive this token.

Words written in rhyme, love's deceased.

When promises made . . . were broken.

Broken hearted memories dance through my dreams...I'm destroying my perfect solitude on my very own. It seems so clear to me there's nothing left to hold. Something seems so wrong and I can't make it right. What to do...I'm alone. There's no one here beside me. No one to call me own. Theres got to be a way to find me a home. Someone reach out, hold me safely. Please dont let me drown in this unending sorrow.Please don't let me drown here...