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For reasons to long and dull to go into I was taken out of school at 13 years of age and 'home educated'. Being pretty much left to my own devices I quickly got bored with what seemed like endless days of books and daydreaming, so I turned my attention to the study of my dreams and ways to enhance my ability to control and remember them. I had some early success teaching myself to remember about 75% of my dreams, and found that there was only certain periods where it was possible to be fully aware and in control, but that I could still remember a lot of what went on during these non-lucid phases. This eventually lead to my first transformation dreams (initually wolf/human hybrid) and the dream that inspired my first interest in vampirism, and caused me to believe I myself was a vampire for many years afterwards. Back then there was no internet, no 'vampire rave', no 'others' that I knew of, I hadn't even seen a vampire movie, all I had was a vague historical account of 'vengeful spirits inhabiting risen corpses'. So rather confused and more than a little spooked at my new obssession with the 'red stuff', I hid in my room and carried on dreaming. The dreams became increasingly violent and bloody, I took my first 'feed' there one night and found it helped sooth my jarred nerves in the waking world. I wanted to see if it was in fact having any effect and I withheld on feeding for several weeks, as time went on I became more and more 'confused' mentally and I was spending more and more time considering homicide (Blood was PART of my drive, but 90% of it was VENGEANCE, the taking of life to replace what was taken from me...crazy huh?), so I relented and that night bathed in the blood of several hapless mortals that crossed my path (In dreams, which later turned out to be the astral realm) and woke up the next morning feeling (almost) normal.

From then until this day I feed 'there', I've found it the easiest way to do so...but sometimes...I'm tempted...just one drop...what could it hurt?