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It seems like eternity ago. It was their promise however, I did not trust them in the begining. It started as I sat back in the court of that ancient King, whose name I am forbidden to speak. There were many of us, young and old, male and female, servant and ruler. There were those who had come from distant lands just to hear him speak. They came from Ethiopia, Corinth, old Mesopotamia, the land that few claimed to be the land of the garden (they dont even speak of that place anymore) Babylonia, even in the midst of this may I say congregation was the Queen of Sheba. The sparkle in her eyes when she covertly would glance at the ancient king, its a look I will never forget. There was another present and it is you that I will truly never forget. It was when the ancient king stood to his feet with a staggering gait, he began to speak thats when I noticed you from across the great hall looking into me. The ancient king said something like this : לכל זמן ועת לכל חפץ תחת השׁמים׃ עת ללדת ועת למות עת לטעת ועת לעקור נטוע׃ עת להרוג ועת לרפוא עת לפרוץ ועת לבנות׃ עת לבכות ועת לשׂחוק עת ספוד וע רקוד׃ עת להשׁליך אבנים ועת כנוס אבנים עת לחבוק ועת לרחק מחבק׃ עת לבקשׁ ועת לאבד עת לשׁמור ועת להשׁליך׃ עת לקרוע ועת לתפור עת לחשׁות ועת לדבר׃

It was your speech at that moment that penetrated this mortal clay that truly mattered at that moment. It was the promise you made. The promise you made, it was quite a deception. Yet I find myself daily thanking you, and hating you. The key to the promise you said was this: כי נפשׁ הבשׂר בדם. It was not until a decade later that I truly understood the meaning to the key. I resisted for quite some time. Oh the pain was absolutely unbearable but I was young and stubborn. I wanted the world to be mine, I wanted to sit upon the peak of the mount and receive the praise that this ancient king received when he would speak. It was selfishness, I would have to agree with you. You told me that selfishness could make eternity miserable. You also said that this was a lesson I would have to learn on my own, and whether or not I learned this lesson and how I responded to it would determine my destiny. It was the second evenng that you took me out among the shadows of that great city and attempted to show me what you meant. The suffering of the people, and how they were treated as sheep. I thhought you were being foolish until I saw the woman in red. She was beautiful, I mean really truly stunning. When I saw her it took me what seemed at that moment as eternity in itself to gather my bearing. What was happening, I could see into her heart, it was that glimpse you allowed that helped me through these years, and to finaly come to terms with the whole selfishness thing. Thank you for that gift, even though it was a horrid sight. What was even more horrid was when you showed me my own heart. Then it was at that moment that you made me choose to eat or not to eat. This was not feeding like most would imagine. It was something that words may never be able to explain. From that moment I had to leave every thing and everyone I had ever loved and embraced. I think this was the most painful experience ever. You told me to never look back. Many times I hear people say never regret, its the worse thing you can ever do in life, but let me tell you everyone of them eventually found themselves in regret. Regret is something to be embraced, if not this is something else that can make eternnity miserable. Well must step back into time, to play the game. I will continue this ancient story for you later.