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I sit alone in my room twirling my small razorblade between my thumb and my finger.



My mind is running over every scene that I saw today, from right when I woke up to when I went to sleep that night.



My thoughts stop on the fight we had



When the words "It's over" run through my mind, I flinch and tears begin to slowly run down my cheeks.



I try to stop them, but they just keep coming



So, through tear blinded eyes, I set the small razor against the inside of my left wrist...the cold steel feels good on my warm skin.



I slowly drag the sharp razor across my skin, then I wait while the blood slowly rises to the surface and flows out of the small, straight line.



I apparently didn't go deep enough, so I move upward on my arm.



In the middle of my arm, it's pale, soft and mark free.



So I carve the world "FAIL" into my left arm



I chose the word FAIL because I feel I failed to be the girlfriend you wanted



I finish my masterpiece with the last letter I need. When I sit back and admire my work, the sweet ache of pain runs through my body.



Then, my mind snaps back to reality. I realize that the world is spinning. I'm losing alot of blood.



I run quickly to the bathroom and grab a towel to stop the bleeding...



But, turns out, I'm too late. I can't save myself now.



As I fall to the floor, I say your name quietly.



I never got ot say goodbye to you.

You probably would'nt've listened anyway.



I only wish that I hadn't done that, or maybe that I could've stopped the blood flow in time.



So now, I say goodbye for the last time. Don't remember me in the future, I know you'll forget me anyway.

I normally walk these halls alone

No one understand why I'm like this

They understand how I'm like this, they just don't know why

I have my reasons for being like this, I just don't want to explain my story to everyone

When I walk these halls alone, I either stare at the floor or straight ahead.

I don't mind that I walk alone

The silence is sometimes soothing

And sometimes, even if I want to walk alone my friends will walk right by my side, letting me know they're there for me

So, now there's a decision you have to make.

Will you walk alone?

It's your choice, don't let anyone make your decisions for you.

It's dark and cold

You can't tell where you are

Suddenly you hear the sound of small breathing behind you

And that's when you realize that the person you've been running from is standing right behind you

So you begin to run as fast as you can while fighting the temptation to look back

After a minute or two of running you begin to slow

Then you stop and look back, hoping that it's safe

When you see that you're safe, fear seeps out of your body like water draining from a bathtub

Then, this next thought comes to your mind.

"How am I going to get out of this Labirynth?"

The small fingers of despair run down your body, just like sweat would.

Now that you can't think of the next thing to do, you realize you've been running from your fears.

Wie erklarst du jemand, das du sie liebst?

Erklarst du ihnen vertraulich?

Oder has du einen diener Freunde tust ihn fur Dich?



Es macht nicht aus, wie du ihnen erklarst, dass... es die Tatsache ist dass du sie diese Angelegenheiten liebst



Oh, bitte lach jetzte nicht



Aber jetzte habe ich etwas, das, zu dieser spezillen person in meinen Hoffnung des Lebens...ich zu sagenspeziell ist, dass spezielle person besonders nah heute hort, damit sie die reale Mitteilung in diesem Gedlicht horen



So jetzte gebe ich dir mein alles, mein Herz, meine Liebe, mein Lebe, mein alles...und hoffe, das du es fur und Ewigkeit haltst



Ich benotig dich hier mit mir, du bin, mein Leben, mein alles.



Manchmal glaube ich dir, mich zu verstehen, ohne ein gesprochenes wort



Wir versprechen uns keine Ewigkeit wirklich



Ich hoffe, das du verstehst, was ich versuche, zu sagen..., wenn du nicht tust, es ausmach nicht...ich habe nie den mut, ihr wieder zu sagen.



Was ich versuche, zu sagen binder ich liebe dich, und Ich konnte nicht ohne Dich vermutlich Leben.



So, nun da ich dir meine zu treffenden Gefuhle fur Dich erklart habe, sage ich zu dir dieses letzte Auf Wiedersehen. Auf Wiedersehen meinen Liebe, fur immer und Ewigkeit.

How do you tell someone that you love them?

Do you tell them face to face?

Or do you have one of your friends do it for you?



It doesn't matter how you tell them..its the fact that you love them that matters



Oh, please don't laugh now.



But now I have something special to say to that special person in my life. I hope that special person is listening extra close right now so that they hear the real message in this poem...



So now I give my everything to you, my heart, my love, my life, my everything...and hope that you keep it forever and into eternity



I need you here with me, you're my life and my everything.



Sometimes I feel you understand me, without a word spoken.



We really promise ourselves no eternity



I hope that you understand what I'm trying to say...if you don't, it doesn't matter...I'll never have the courage to say it again...



What I'm trying to say is that I love you and I probably couldn't live without you



So, now that I have told you my true feelings for you, I say to you this last goodbye...Goodbye my love, forever and eternity.

People always tell me to do my best at what I do.



I tried my best to stay with you.



But sadly, I was a failure.



I lost you faster than it took to get you.



I knew that you loved me for who I am on the inside, not what I looked like on the outside.

but I made you change your mind by saying 6 simple words.



I know now that I will never say those words no matter how pissed off I am.

Have you ever smelled blood so strong that it makes your throat burn?

When you find the source of the smell, you find someone else feeding from the source, so you have to wait your turn....

When you finally get to feed from the victim, you find that they have been drained dry by the creature before you.

You attention is drawn away from the dead, lifeless entertainment on the ground before you.

You slowly focus on the creature in front of you.

When your eyes finally focus..you realize your staring your own brother in the face...

Thats when you think to look down and see who the poor victim was.....

You stare into the poor victims face and see the face of your loved one...your boyfriend, girlfriend, sister, brother, mom, dad, or just about anyone that you love dearly.

The first feeling you have is sickness....

The sickening feeling takes over all of your senses until you can't feel pain or emotion.

So this feeling brings a thought to your mind....what exactly are the things we call our "prey"?

I simply call them...lifeless entertainment....