Who AM I?14:10 Dec 19 2014
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Who am i? I ask in the mirror today, Certainly not the man last year or even yesterday, We all as humans change, rebuild, then fade away. white and black, whats lies and facts, but these days only see shades of grey.. day by day, I stray and lay some blocks to speed the clock and pave a way, and make a path of righteousness and pray the pain away. scars remain and stain the brain so memories just go away, Defense mechanisms erase protecting sanity, Erasing are humanity because of egos vanity. can it be I protect myself from myself and thus my worse enemy? Who am i and where to begin.. I've lived in sin, and swimmed in gin drowned died risen evolved a dorsal fin, my life has been struggle, as if struggle is my identical twin, I hide my animal skin naturally a beast within, he wont cease till every piece of my peace he eats and has a feast so i can be with him. My animals a cannibal hunting and wanting my humanity like an antelope till devoured like a cantaloupe. So what am I? Am I Mind? an unconfined design aligned with all moments and no sense of time? Sometimes I'm unkind to know one in particular just mankind, Am I emotions? Roaring and raging like oceans, pouring and craving commotion, adoring then hating a person, Mourning my actions the next morning. forlorning oh!! the guilt stricken, bed ridden, alcohol sippin, swallowing guilt in, cause of foolish emotions teaching me a lesson that they started from the beginning! I constantly pray for forgiveness. All these words flash by in my mind in less then a second, and I'm set in a blank cold stare in the mirror still guessing. a quick distant lesson, faded from my mind and i forget why I'm stressing, My defense mechanism slowly pouring threw my head, my curse my blessing.. I just thought of some deep shit I say to myself... What was it?? Don't remember.. ahhhh fuck it.
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Tristesse
14:31 Dec 19 2014
Hi :)
SupremeImmortal
19:37 Dec 22 2014
Hi :)