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I Miss You
16:38 Jul 31 2009
Times Read: 519

I miss you so much

The smell of your hair

The feel of you arms

And every time I think of you

My heart breaks in two

And Then I'll remember

My last time with you

There's nothing I could do

I couldn't save you

You lie under the waves now

And here I am,

Paying for trying to save you.



~Maggie Lee



....I don't like this one...

Goodbye Soda, Goodbye Monster, I Won't Miss You.
03:21 Jul 31 2009
Times Read: 520

Good bye Soda

Good bye Monster

Good bye poison in my veins

Good bye toxic sugar

And all those other things

No more will I kill myself

Slowly

Each and every day

But instead I bid good bye

To Death

That's waiting by my side



~ Maggie Lee



Soda and Monster are terrible for you. Which is why, as of right now, this very instant, I am giving them up. I don't like asking Death to take my life, when there's so much to live for.

The Dusk Builders
03:54 Jul 30 2009
Times Read: 523

They came with hammers

And paint

With black

And with red

To build a scene

That fills the night

With dread

The time just before dark

When no song comes

From the lark

When the robin is silent

While the cougar it rest

And no harm is meant

They paint the sky

Dark

Their hammers are tapping

The scene they are building

Come

Sprinkle sparks through

The skies

Come watch

The Dusk Builders

Paint in the skies



~ Maggie Lee

I Love You This Much, Jimmy Wayne
02:18 Jul 30 2009
Times Read: 526

I DIDN'T WRITE THIS AND DON'T OWN ANY PART OF THIS SONG.



I Love You This Much



He can't remember

The times that he thought

Does my daddy love me?

Probably not

That didn't stop him

From wishing that he did

Didn't keep him from wanting

Or worshipping him



He guesses he saw him

About once a year

He could still feel the way he felt

Standing in tears

Stretching his arms out

As far as they'd go

Whispering daddy

I want you to know



[Chorus:]

I love you this much

And i'm waiting on you

To make up your mind

Do you love me too?

How ever long it takes

I'm never giving up no matter what

I love you this much



He grew to hate him for what he had done

'cause what kind of father

Could do that to his son?

He said 'damn you daddy'

The day that he died

The man didn't blink

But the little boy cried



[Chorus:]

I love you this much

And i'm waiting on you

To make up your mind

Do you love me too?

How ever long it takes

I'm never giving up no matter what

I love you this much



Half way through the service

While the choir sang a hymn

He looked up above the preacher

And he sat and stared at him



He said

'forgive me father'

When he realized

That he hadn't been unloved

Or alone all his life

His arms were stretched out

As far as they'd go

Nailed to the cross

For the whole world to know



[Chorus:]

I love you this much

And i'm waiting on you

To make up your mind

Do you love me too?

How ever long it takes

I'm never giving up no matter what

I love you this much

On Love And Not Knowing
15:52 Jul 27 2009
Times Read: 529

As I look up

Things swirl around

Shades of blue

Come from

Roads of brown

Roads of brown

Fade to fields of green

Is this real,

Or just a dream?

Do you care,

Or are you mocking?

How do you control

My heart?

Its stopping?

How do you hold

My life

In your gaze?

How do I escape

From this haze?

Why can I fly

When I look to your eyes?

Why do I sigh

When time won't pass by?

Do you cause this?

Or is it me?

Is this my capture?

Or am I free?



~ Maggie Lee

Come With Me
14:45 Jul 27 2009
Times Read: 531

Come with me

I'll be your everything

There's nothing I can't do

For you now

So come with me

Your everything

Out of the light

Join me in the dark

Tonight



Screaming my pain

For the world to hear

I'm slammed into the wall

Of loneliness

By your evil words

Words that burn my soul



You plunge you sword

Through my heart

But you can't stop its beating

Because it never did start



So leave me now

Get out of my sight

I don't want you here

By my side

At least not tonight

Not when you're killing me

Inside



So leave my sight

Or choose to die tonight



So here I am

Laying in a pool

Of my own blood

Cause by your sword

And your hate filled words



Just leave me here

Dieing will

Save my life

For the first time

But my heart doesn't beat anyways



So swear to me

I'm still your everything

And things will turn out all right

That this fight will end

Tonight

In the dark

Where danger lurks

Where everything does

Or doesn't work



~ Maggie Lee

random idea for a poem that i need to write down so i don't forget it...
05:00 Jul 27 2009
Times Read: 533

the ashes of what used to be emotion

fade to shattered molecules of numbness

untitled
03:07 Jul 27 2009
Times Read: 535

Why did I say that?

Am I so far gone

That I don't know it's wrong?

Do I care

That I'm leaving?

Everyday it seems

Is filled with the leaves,

Falling from the branches,

Or fluttering on the breeze.

If only I were

One of those.

To dip and twirl,

To spin and plunge.

To float down the stream,

Till the wind is gone.

Then I'd return to my life,

Just in time for more pain.

Waiting and praying

For the wind to come back

And cause me more freedom

Than ever I'd asked.



~ Maggie Lee

untitled
02:53 Jul 27 2009
Times Read: 537

I can't begin

To comprehend

Why I am yelling

From within

This hole is being dug

Ever deeper

Why don't you just lay me in the casket

And seal it shut

I bid the dark

Come in

Will you be

My only friend

Can you take away my pain

Can you save my life again

I just want to go home

And escape from within



~ Maggie Lee

Slavery
02:30 Jul 27 2009
Times Read: 540

Sunrise, sunset.

Look down, not up.

Always with fear, from

Violence found here.

Every word we speak or breath we take,

Returns the pain. We aren't the same.

But what if you were the slave,

And I was the master?

Then who'd bear the whip?

And who would scream faster?



~ Maggie Lee

Betrayal
02:20 Jul 27 2009
Times Read: 541

You took it all and threw it down

Into the abyss

And watched it drown

Sinking

Ever deeper

Falling

Ever steeper

What once was there

Is shattered

Gone

And so fades

The unsung song



~ Maggie Lee

untitled
02:13 Jul 27 2009
Times Read: 543

You tell me

To listen

Then yell

When I do

I don't know

What to say

I'm so

Through

With you

You scratch

And you tear

So violent

I'm scared

You batter

And bruise

Blood streaks

My hair

Sobbing

While running

Trapped

In this life

Broken

Unspoken

Just hand me

The knife

I'd use it

On you

But

I still care

Even if

You don't too



~ Maggie Lee

There's No Difference
01:38 Jul 27 2009
Times Read: 548

Alone

In silence

Alone

In pain

Alone

By myself

Just

Alone

Again

I don't want to stay

With you

Alone

You've scarred me

Marred me

Killed my soul

I used to be

Gold

But then the

Sun

Rose

You used to be

Free

But now

You're like

Me



~ Maggie Lee

Desisions
17:16 Jul 26 2009
Times Read: 549

Where did it come from?

This continuous

Darkness.

I'm drowning in tears,

Cowering in fear.

Failed to do what I should,

Defeated by

The greater good.

End the pain,

Now.

Just shout,

Shout,

Let it all out.

Sinking further

Into the dark.

Leaving my breath

Behind.

Going out

Of this wasted mind.

You wanted the truth,

Well here it is:

I'd leave you

ALL,

To go back to them.



~ Maggie Lee

untitled
16:49 Jul 26 2009
Times Read: 550

How can they

Understand how I feel

It's different

But at least this is real

They'll never get it

Why I am this way

But a real friend

Won't care if I'm...

Whatever

Forget it

They don't care anyways

And if they're like me

They'll never betray

This gaping hole

That's ripping wider as we speak

Why do they all glare at me

I've done nothing wrong

Is it because of who I am

Or what I've become



~ Maggie Lee

Explaining Life
16:40 Jul 26 2009
Times Read: 551

I don't understand

Why they can't get

What I'm trying to say

Will light the long, winding way

That will give them the life

The encouragement and strife

It'll guide them

All the way through

Don't be afraid

And though I can't stay

To explain to the day

By the end of your time

You'll lead them through

The entire way



~ Maggie Lee

Exhaustion
16:35 Jul 26 2009
Times Read: 552

It slowly consumes you

Dragging you down

Through the air

Beneath the ground

Escape is impossible

It grips you with claws

Has fangs which it bears

You try to resist

But it's been to long

Struggling, fighting

Overwhelmed with despair

Slowly the will to fight

Evaporates to the air

Fall into it's clutches

It's release is so sweet

So this is what

Is known as

Sleep



~ Maggie Lee

Clouds
16:13 Jul 26 2009
Times Read: 555

It's so loud,

But I can only survive

With silence,

Crystal, pure and perfect.

Shrouded in darkness,

And clad in decay.

Why am I so happy

Living in this gruesome way?

It's disturbing and thrilling.

What else to say?

Besides the fact that I think

It's perfect in every way.

What am I saying?

This sounds so insane.

Then again,

This is coming from

Someone that doesn't even know

Their own name.



~ Maggie Lee

Confusion Isn't Found Amongst Chaos
16:05 Jul 26 2009
Times Read: 556

In an anarchy

Unable to comprehend

The calamity unfolding before them

Dissension fills the streets

People conspire to take back what is rightfully theirs

But this image is simply assimilated

Along with all things Bizarre

Imminent and meticulous

Shackled and arraigned

Interrogation makes you lionized

If only for one short night

Weeks and months elapse

Bitter cold and sweltering heat

Are joined in harmony

All things impossible

Are happening

Time has no meaning

In this place where

We are all the same



~ Maggie Lee

Isolation
02:17 Jul 26 2009
Times Read: 562

Why did you leave me

Here all alone?

My tears had been shed,

And your doubts had been shown,

But that was no reason

To leave me alone.

You swore and you screamed,

And didn't once stop to think,

What would happen to me.

The lights are turned out,

And the flames they are black.

But still I beg

For you to come back.

You know I'm afraid.

But inside I know,

Even if paid,

You wouldn't come back.

So I'll sit here alone,

And you'll never know,

If I stayed here and mourned,

Or left and went home.



~ Maggie Lee

untitled
01:59 Jul 26 2009
Times Read: 564

Open your wrists,

I'll let you bleed on me.

This was over from the start.

You've seen my life,

It's filled with misery.

Why are you killing me?

I used to love you,

But that phase has passed.

Don't make me start again.

You took my soul,

And I don't want it back.

It's filthy anyways.

Must you insist

On always beating me?

I can't take it anymore.

I can't take it anymore.

So why don't you leave this place,

And let me live for once?

I can't take it anymore.

I won't take it anymore.



~ Maggie Lee

untitled
01:50 Jul 26 2009
Times Read: 567

I look, full of longing

At the surface

Grey and cruel

Full of horror

But not without grace

Glare at it

Kick it away

Come home from school

Pick it up

Why?

Slowly I realize

Slowly I cry

I run from it

But it's still trapped inside

No way to run

I don't even try



~ Maggie Lee

Stress
01:32 Jul 26 2009
Times Read: 568

It builds

And it builds

Every night

Until there's only one way to stop

Glance across

No, it's not right

But I'm drawn to it

Hold it longingly

Stroke its side

Waiting, waiting to die

I keep saying no

But I can't help myself

I want to be dead

Forget all the consequences

Just cock it, pull it

Goodbye



~ Maggie Lee

untitled
01:20 Jul 26 2009
Times Read: 556

Audaciously waiting

For someone to come

Confiscate the wind from the Earth

And from the sky, the Sun

Conscientious movements

Then from behind comes a whisper

"But wait" It says

"Don't turn around"

So with no inkling of what's going on

And serene even though the mutiny's far from gone

Unable to depict for the stars up above

You embark on your journey

But soon turn around

Lackadaisical hope

Torn from the ground

Pilfer it again and yet still

There's still a profusion

Of men at the wheel

Slovenly organized

And rankled at fear

For, at last,

It is here



~ Maggie Lee

untitled
00:44 Jul 26 2009
Times Read: 570

What they offer

I know I can't take

But I long for it

The second I wake

They won't take me in

No matter what I do

So I've lost who I am

And blamed it on you

What I did,

It was wrong

Now I now that it's true

The first time and last

They say that the past

Is over with

Done

Yet it still Kills us each day

Then takes us away

So I guess what I'm trying to say

Is I'm sorry

It's true

I hate what I've done

Not to me but to you

So please forgive me

For ruining you



~ Maggie Lee

This Is How I Dissappear
00:39 Jul 26 2009
Times Read: 571

Thinking of what

Will never be mine

I remember her laugh

Remember her shine

I looked away

And when I looked back

She was gone

So that's what I am

A lost little swan

Sitting surrounded by leaves

That fall day by day

Until that last ones fall

And I go away

Then there they are

Searching for me

The pull away the leaves one by one

But when they finally are done

All they find is a hole

And there's nothing there



~ Maggie Lee

Story Of My Life
23:36 Jul 25 2009
Times Read: 572

Here on this bench

The center of all

I scan the Earth

Although I'm so small

I can make all the difference

So if I sit and do nothing

The great Earth will fall

But only if

I do nothing at all

So I stand and I walk

Then I spring through the leaves

I laugh and do back flips

On branches

Of trees

Then take wing and fly

Through the crystal clear sky

I dip and twirl

Ride the wind

A life line

This life is a mural

And to think of it gone...

I can't bear the thought

So instead watch the swans



~ Maggie Lee

Abyss
22:00 Jul 25 2009
Times Read: 574

In a room filled with people

But I'm all alone

With no one to guide me

Or to share how I feel

The spiraling darkness

One great abyss

Spiraling downwards

Towards nothing

But this

A small spark of light floods the floor

Then the abyss is back

And it's dark once more



~ Maggie Lee

Abandoned
21:32 Jul 25 2009
Times Read: 575

What have you done

With your life?

Where have you gone,

Where did you hide?

Why did you run?

You didn't even try

To find what was

Right before your very eyes.

Or maybe

You just weren't ready

To let go of it all.

The big,

And the small.

So you could be free

To do as you wish,

Even if it's not right.

But then,

At least,

There might be

A fight.



~ Maggie Lee

A Day To Remember, Not To Erase
21:22 Jul 25 2009
Times Read: 576

The glint of sunshine

Off raindrops

Off dew

The giggling laughter

Of shadows

Of you

Care free and happy

Yet tethered in place

The beat of a heart

That won't again race

They reach out from beyond

To say they're okay

But we don't hear

The words they say

We sit there and morn

But that's not what they want

They miss the joy in our hearts

And the smiles we've worn

The dimness of days

The tears bar the way

All leading back

To that one dreadful day

No escape from the past

No way to see what's ahead

But that's alright

It's okay

Only one thing to say

Open the gates

And seize the day



~ Maggie Lee

Things Don't Change
21:10 Jul 25 2009
Times Read: 577

You think things change

Just because I saw

The awful things she does

But they don't

So stop your begs

Your whining

Your pleas

The don't matter at all

You don't matter to me

The lies the won't leave

They've become the shadows

Of the leaves

Swirling on the wind

Shredding in the eaves

Whispering their fears

Trying to contain

All the betrayal

The hatred

The pain

The game of destruction

That is what you became

A white ray of burning emotion

In the space between insane and insecure

Where nothing feels good

And everything hurts

Nothing feels this kind of way

Life turns to dust on the wind

Then that's it

It's over

The one chance

That will

Never

Come again



~ Maggie Lee

Ressurection
19:04 Jul 25 2009
Times Read: 584

In the dark

And the cold

Above the Earth

In solitude

Forming slowly

Not yet complete

A gallant beauty

Of which no words can emulate

Magic in motion

A breathless scene

The world pauses

With avid attention

As with the sun it meets

But the cause of the spark

The conciseness of its glory

Is also its reason of succumbing

The abrasion is slow

And a clad in sadness

The chance to endeavor

Is derived

It's gone

Anonymous to the excruciating recurrence

A spontaneous extrication

Imperative to the tears

It would have become

But evoking the strength to carry on

Out of the sun

And into the clouds

This time it's forming

But not all alone

Now it's done

It's ready, complete

It falls from the sky

And I watch as it snows



~Maggie Lee

Performance of the Stallions
18:47 Jul 25 2009
Times Read: 585

Fathomless beauty

And grace unending

What's normal for them

Is amazing for us

Delicate footsteps

In the sand of the stage

Silent Applause

For a performance well made

The performer just stands there

And then bolts away

Reclaiming the stage

That very same day

They wait for the signal

Then pave the way

Fly through the air

Again and once more

Reaching the end

The lights flicker out

One by one

Until the show is done

And the performer gone



~ Maggie Lee

torture
17:27 Jul 25 2009
Times Read: 589

pain flaming up

writhing inside

try to escape

but my arms they are tied

try to cry out

but i have been gagged

spidery fingers

disappear to a bag

blood

hot

stinging

non-existent

call

to the edge

one step is all

it would take

and oh how

easily

we all

break





~ Maggie Lee

untitled
17:25 Jul 25 2009
Times Read: 590






im drowning



in a darkness



that is me



choking



gasping



struggling to breath



you're there



i can see you



but all you do is



watch for a while



before you leave



you ignore



the water



bleeding through my skin



to my lungs



you ignore



my leaving



ignore



ignore



ignore



until i am



no more







~ Maggie Lee

memories
17:20 Jul 25 2009
Times Read: 591

If you don't look



You will see



Every bad memory



Surrounding me



A billowing cloak



Of satin



Or woven of



The finest silk



To dismember the images



And create the illusion



Of dazzling beauty



But it's really soaked in treachery



And dripping with



The silent screams



The begging



And pleas



The wanting



And needing



Waiting patiently



For it to leave







~ Maggie Lee

untitled
17:15 Jul 25 2009
Times Read: 594






as i look up



things swirl around



shades of blue



come from



roads of brown



roads of brown



fade to fields of green



is this real



or just a dream?



do you care



or are you mocking?



how do you control



my heart?



its stopping?



how do you hold



my life



in your gaze?



how do i escape



from this haze?



why can i fly



when i look



to your eyes?



why do i sigh



when time won't pass by?



do you cause this?



or is it me?



is this my capture?



or am i free?







~ Maggie Lee

Trust
17:12 Jul 25 2009
Times Read: 594

Just when it starts to come back it’s destroyed and



You just get so mad



That your vision tints red



And all you can do is scream



Your pain to the heavens



That watch and mock



Your sorrow and



Make it rain on your perfect day



The creators of all



And the saviors of men



Will start to laugh



And might not stop again



They scream with their laughter



You scream with your pain



There’s no one to



Save you



From what is already done



There’s no way to land



On top of the sun



Your protectors



The angels



That will never exist



Just mock and laugh



And say



Look at this



It’s a sad little human



That’s feeling their pain



Isn’t it fun



To watch them die



In the rain?



So lets come tomorrow



And the day after that



We can laugh loud



Through the skies



It rings loud and pure



As we follow our rule



Of live and let kill



So as they laugh



And throw jokes



As you wither away



Just remember the feeling



For when they feel pain



Then they will scream



As you laugh with joy



As they break down



And perish



As you play with your toy



Remember this lesson



For in time you will hear



The laughter is building



To more than can bear



~ Maggie Lee

suicide kills you too
17:05 Jul 25 2009
Times Read: 595

This spiraling abyss



It's black as night



But still I wish



To end my life



To slash my wrists



And watch the blood pour



Pooling in my hands



Before splattering the floor



Blood does drip



From my wrists



On to my face



So now I realize



That my life is such a waste



And that is why



It ends tonight



There's only one thing on my mind



That could end my pain tonight



I think only of it now



Suicide



I don't care if it hurts you



You've hurt me even more



When I'm gone



I now you'll cry



But there's only one



I wish I didn't have to hurt tonight



This time



When I say goodbye



It will be the last time



That's the last thing I'll do



Is say goodbye



To you



Then I'll leave this place



Finally free



Looking up at you



I don't know what to do



Struggling not to cry



I quickly say goodbye



Running blindly



Tears spilling from my eyes



I hope to hear you call me back



To have you drag me from the shadows



And bring me back to light



My life has ended



My breath is gone



Your soul is empty



Because of me



And what I've done



~ Maggie Lee

Tears
16:42 Jul 25 2009
Times Read: 599

Pain

Sorrow

These are the things I feel

Tears

Unstopping

Tears of pain

Tears of fear

Tears that come from my heart

And pour from my soul

They'll never stop

But this I know

I hate it here

Why can't you see?

I want my friends back

I want them back Please!

Though I won't admit for them to hear

I hate them all

And don't like it here

Don't make me stay where I am unwanted

By them and by me

Inside and out

I cry tears each day

Tears of sorrow

Tears of pain

Barbed Wire Kisses
16:37 Jul 25 2009
Times Read: 599

Barbed wire kisses

Ripping apart our love

Screams of hatred

Filling the air above

The shattered, non repairable things

Why are there so many things

We didn't say?

Walk along this empty path

Stop by your front door

You live alone

No need to be afraid

Ring the bell

There's no one there

Try the door

Open it and just stare

The floor is covered with your life

It's dripping through the air

Can't stifle the cry

Wrists turned to ribbons

Now there's no point

Left for living

Find the knife

The one that's sharpest and no longer shines

The one that took you life

And therefore mine.



~ Maggie Lee

Poetry...
15:27 Jul 25 2009
Times Read: 604

I miss the way you'd make me smile.

When you were there I was happy,

Even if just for a little while.

I could come to you

With tears flowing freely

Or wrists stained red with blood,

And you would just hold me tight

You'd make everything all right.

And when I'd say "I want to die"

You would just look at me.

Sometimes you would cry.

But, when it was the last time came,

You said "Don't do that, If you do,

It will rip open every scar

From every vein.

We won't survive like this.

Never leave this world for me.

Just always remember,

I am only a memory."

And then you disappeared

In to the night.

And left me alone.

Which is how I'll stay...

Until after I am even just dirt and bone.