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I'm soooo tired

I can't sleep

I kunt think!

I want to write another poem

I want to draw another sketch

I ought to feel another's lips

teasing me,

tasting me,

hating me...

this hatred bubbling

like boils on the surface of my skin



Don't look at me like that- - -

as if I make no sense

as if I've lost my mind.

I'm not crazy I tell ya...



Wait, who stole my jelly bellies?!

*cries*

They are mines and I need them.

Did you steal my jelly bellies?

No one leaves until I get them back!



Oh - wait - nevermind

I forgot I ate them already

Now, what was I saying again?

Sometimes when its sunny outside,

I could almost see God cry.

Was this sight made for me,

made for only me to see?

What does it mean, can you tell?

Is, God, sending me to Hell?



Sometimes when its cloudy outside,

all of a sudden I would want to die.

Was that sight made for me,

can you tell me, tell me please?!

Stop this insanity! Make this only be a dream.

I reach out with all my might,

"Take me, God, into the light..."

She's numb inside



not knowing how to feel



she only knows when to smile



when others seem concerned



She cries sometimes



mostly when wanting to scream



the memories of trauma and tragedy



stubbornly return



She tries so hard



desperate to appear normal...



while self-inflicting cuts and burns



Her reflection lies,



her break-downs are just a foible



Taking control of her life



is something she has failed to learn











And so now we are left to witness



as she withers into a waste



She begs your forgiveness



while she chooses to leave this place