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i feel like i have this shield around me, blocking me from feeling any bit of human emotion. I long for an everlasting love, like most tend to do, but at the same time the fear of letting someone in, of exposing what little is left of me, is too great. I cannot afford to be given false hope or set upon false pretenses. This shield protects me, yet holds me back so much, and honestly i dont know if taking it down will be the best option.



Ya know i constantly read. Im seriously the world's biggest book worm. But for some reason i choose to read vampire romances...gee what a suprise considering reading about my own kind is comforting. I find myself consumed in the romance as if it were my own, a pleasant dream, an eclipse of a new beginning only to awake to find im still here...alone...in my shield



Maybe some day these barriers that lock my heart up so, will be taken down, or maybe ill meet someone strong enought to walk through them...

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OniKumo
18:00 May 30 2008

We all have our sheilds that protect us from what we long for most. But we all must learn that pain and loss does not mean the joy we felt before was meaningless. All love is worth more than anything we feel from losing it.

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leviathandelioncourte
04:22 May 21 2009

I know how you feel, its the fear of if you let someone in or someone gets too close you fear they'll hurt you in some what...its the "what if". All you can do is trust your heart and it will tell you when you've found true love

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