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Sanity. Can anyone tell me what that means? Because i dont know anymore. Lately it seems liek every-thing is moving a thousand miles an hour. The strange thing is that i know it isn't. Speaking from past experiance, i should not be this stressed. I have dealt with way more shit than this before & it didn't bother me, but for some reason this is getting to me. The only real problem that i am facing is my religion. Recently i have put a lot of thought into converting to Satanism. It makes a lot of sense to me but it feels like i am betraying the Goddess. At one time, I was a very devout Wiccan, but lately i don't know anymore.It's a littel bit maddening, but ill figure it out.I wrote this because i don't have any one to listen to me vent. I have never been one to jouranl but lately it seems like the only thing keeping me sane or at least close to it. I hope that i will be ok soon, but at the moment i am on the edge of sanity. I dont know if anyone here is sane. It is the age old question; does a crazy person know that they are crazy? I don't know but i think im losing it.

Oh! how wuickly can one's soul become corrupt. All of us a Tabla Rasa "Blanks slates" when we are born but along the way our souls can become tanted and blackened by lies & treachery. People not only lie to one another, but on an ever-constant basis-they lie lie to themselves. It is my belief that all creatures are born with honor and a sense of what is right, but as time goes on we are told by this wretched world that the noble way is not the path we should travel. It is sickening. People all over the world preach "do the right thing" but noone even knows what that means anymore. That in of it's self is hipocrisy. This then evolves until people become hipocrits to their own soul. One that lies to himself has no future. Only another sign that this world is doomed to die.

i am writing this to vent all the things in the wretched world that drive me into a rage. Women call it a diary, the meek call it a journal, but to me it is one of my last lines of sanity that I have. This is a way for me to attempt and exorcise all the demons that fester within me, because if I didn't my rage would surely eat me alive until the point where I would surely murder someone. So, in a way this book is not only a personal outlet but instead it is a public service. I am doing the world a favor by venting all this shit. Not that the world deserves it! If I could, I would mow down all these wretched fools. Some would call them pitiful & pathetic, but they are not! I have no pity for them one-so-ever. They brought all this world of pain upon themselves.

They have noone else to blame. All thes weak, insolent humans deserve a bloody & painful death for they have allowed this world to become. There was a time when honor & descentcy was alive and well in this world, but that time has passed. Now, the only time you will find honor in this world is in the shadows of the world. That is where i live. In the shadows away from this world. I am one of the blessed few who still hold on to what is right & honorable in this life.

It is strange that people like me, the warped, demented, evil freaks are the only ones who still have common descentcy. I know well that the world is dying & I welcome that. For those that call themselves humans have forfeited their right to exsistance & they must be over thrown. Then the world will belong to those of us who have ascended. Yes, the world is dying, but I will not be happy until it is drowning in it's own blood

This is my choice

I have the right to be

Who I am

My soul is free