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well seems I am the only one up today the rest have all been sleeping probobly cas my energy is too low ... and sadly I havent had any contact with what I need to get more. I should never have removed it ... it was a very foolish idea now that I look back on it and this anxity only makes it worse. but since I cant create my own energy I might have to turn to that... I realy would rather not though but its better then going into a frenzy. I would think getting a job would have decreased my worrys but somehow although I have one less 2 more poped up ... and life is getting more difacult by the day ..... wish someone would wake up I need sleep and need one of them to take over for now ... but I am not saposed to rely on that I prommised I would get stronger....anyways maybe I will go bug darmond he never sleeps ... I wounder where he gets all his energy form ... maybe I can borrow some

so finaly got a job ... I will be doing the janitorial work at one of the local bar and hostals. dosent seem like bad work its part time but better then nothing ... but i been running around all day and am exhosted now ugg... well better turn in feel like punching stuff for the lack of getting to do stuff for me today

so it seems that yesterday was the "RAPTURE" heh I have more faith in RAPTOR jesus then that .... god comming down takeing humans souls to use as batteries in his fights ... dispicabole. perhaps I just know too much of whats going on .... between my extended existance by takeing up residence inside my reincarnatins... and this hoasts ability to just know stuff ..... I know easly what the next step in the process is... though I shall not tell I have made it my buisness to stop this process... heh I am sure many think myself and my hoast insain but we shall see .... we shall see..

*sighs and shrugs* some people are just so rude ... I send someone a simple message asking how they are tonight meaning to strike up an acord so I might apologize for beeing so creepy last night and they block me and realy I still feel I am the one owed an aplogy for there odd behavior. well what is one to do ... some people are just barbarians who sadly have access to higher forms of comunication though they dont deserve them ... I do hope this person dosent mean to cause trubole here as I never managed to finish investigateing there intents as to report them if they where. o well maybe time shall bring this person wisdome but I doubt it

*sighs* another day wakeing up to find my wirless is on the fritz *btw darmond is asleep right now this is his hoast* well anyways I had to plug in the ethernet cable ugg its so short... I realy hate useing this setup it leaves me feeling teathered and traped. to me that realy is a very uncomfertabole feeling the lack of freedome to do as I please ... experianced it constantly all throught my life and sadly it seems one dose not get used to it. I feel as though the gods conspire against me though I know its just my crazy landlord stealking my wirless. I realy need to relax a little though I have a little movement room and if I do stuff just right can lean back in my chair ... anyways guess I better get back to looking for work hopefaly Darmond wakes soon he prommised to help and he realy is much better at this then I

humm I wounder it is getting light out already *sighs* only quarter to 5 ... this bothers me it gets bright out far too early and I do not agree well with the sunlight .... not that I can not enter it just I realy do not like it. I perfer it to still be dark out at 8 AM ... and get dark at 5 then again most people hate it when I say this they all wana go out and baith in the light ... but then they are not as irritated by it as I am I would much rather sleep when its light out ... perferaboly somewhere warm heh... anyways I shall ponder further as to what I will doo soon sleep or not

well I guess I should explain my position ... I am a squater of sorts within this body my hoast ... though he is my reincarnation as well ... but his soul is a mess a tangled web with many residence. many awake and many more asleep this leads him be beeing a bit diferent every day and somewhat randome. myself and a few others do our best to supress the weaker souls so that they dont take controll and cause his personality to be too mixed up but even then some slip by and after all even we must rest. ether way to those who choose to follow this one or even just watch his path do not be oveerly allarmed if one day he is dark and serious and the next he is bright and cheery. even his likes and dislikes can be randome at times though throught the whole process his core values always shine through it is ammazeing how reslilyant it seem to be *laughs* if I wasent liveing with in it I would want to take him back to my lab and experiment apon him.



it would seem his biggest dream and goal is to just live a happy normal life with a family... like that will ever happen for him *laughs* normal is the last thing to happen. this goal seems to even be stronger this his feeling of needing to acomplish something great he is greatly unsatisfyed with the world around him which often leads him liveing in others by reading or playing games just to escape the realitys of this one. He is also has strong feelings of leadership and how a leader should be and shouldent be ... and feels that all current world leaders fail there people on such a level as they should be replaced to quote him "leaders serve the people people do not serve there leaders" which leads to another desire of his to oneday be a leader of people ...



well that is about all for now ... ooo and if you wounder about me ? my name is Darmond Mazual I am an dark alchemist and crafter of chimira I shall explain more another time in another post.



and now I bid you goodeavening I shall go back to resting inside my hoast

well now this is new ... that is something I would consider calling a dragon ... but never myself *shrugs* well a title is a title and I have little choise over it at the moment though Divine alchemist or something like that I feel would suit me better.... realy though Whelp ... thats what I call that damned Lizard Tarnoth .... he gets so upset insisting he is a dragon but dragons are much bigger ... *sighs* anyways peraps I should put my hoasts journal here ... dont think he would mind or care ... though not sure how well recived it might be but this is something I can think of dooing later on in the future for now I think I am done with this entery mmm think he is hungery again





ooo just noticed poetry potion spells ... sounds interesting will definitly use those I think

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Kaine
07:49 May 15 2011

Yeah ,don't worry about the Whelp thing It goes fast when you start.

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