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As the night grows long I think of the people I've wronged. Why must this time of the year have such an effect on me? If I could I would lift you up to where I should. We would go higher and higher, I would give you anything that you desire. But as it is I can barely save myself. Why do I do this to myself? Why do I love others so damn well? When I know that they don't love me? I am alienation, dissatisfaction and disappointment. What is it that I fear? Not being close to anyone here. If I was strong, I would lift you up to where you belong without petty fears. But as it is, I can't go near. What i need to ask is, what is wrong with me?

How many years had I known your name

And never bothered yet to know?

So many years so many chances

But we would smile and wave then go.



How could this have happened

To one I thought I knew?

You could have been my brother

But I never had a clue.



Back in school when we were growing

Death was such a fairy tale

Bad things never used to happen

That was swept off in a gale.



We used to talk of anything

Before our separate lives took that away

Would your life have improved at all

If you weren't put in the ground to decay?



Parents without children

And children without their mom's

How are things so more real

Now that you are all dead and gone?



Reality struck with such a forceful hand

To teach us with this means

Did you have to be the sacrifice

In order for everyone to see?



How many years had I known your name,

And never bothered yet to know?

I'll never get that change again

To smile and wave then go.





In memory of:



Damien Ruston (1989-2010)

Nikki Sims (1990-2008)

Matt Winton (1984-2007)

Rebekah Burgess (1986-2007)

Monica Countryman (1989-2007)

Gary Givens (1984-2007)

Tyler Ford (1988-2005)

Caitlin Wooten (1989-2005)

Cody Bolin (1987-2004)