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when its him im thinking of.... Wrote in october of 1997 for english class
06:40 Jul 04 2010
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i would've done so much for him,

but he didnt care,

he meant the world to me,

but was never there,

i gave so much to make it work,

but he didnt even try,

now my world is falling apart,

since he said good-bye,

he has his eyes on someone new,

he treats her very good,

i cant help but wonder,

why he didnt treat me like he treats her,

now i have a broken heart,

that maybe time will heal,

i wish i had another chance,

to tell him how i feel,

now i sit here lonely,

with no one to love,

not just anyone will do,

when its him im tinking of.

shadows of my mind
06:39 Jul 04 2010
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i sit here my heart hurting,

so much in love,

it's scary.



hidding in the shadows,

shados of my mind is a voice,

it whispers,

telling me he dont love me.



sitting here wondering,

should i listen to my heart,

should i listen to the voice,

in the shadows of my mind.



scared im pushing him away,

scared i might be losing him.



now i sit here teling that voice,

the voice in the shadows of my mind,

he does love me, he cares.

voice in the shadows.

the shadows of my mind.

scared
06:38 Jul 04 2010
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i'm scared to let him in in to my world so many times ive fallen apart had my heart broken.

cant show him i'm scared cant let him know hes all i think of.

grades droping life passing seems so little when you care.

where do i start not quiet sure wish i knew knew how to tell him.

trying to figure it out maybe to late.

should tell him lifes to short to spend alone.

alone without that one.

never knew how to care untill the day.

the day i meet him.

the one i can get alone with better then anyone

HIM
06:37 Jul 04 2010
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i see him in a differnt way,

not like i do other guys,

i'm scared to tell him how i feel,

im scared to let him in my world,

to many broken hearts,

so little time to heal.



i'm scared of making mistakes,

i'm scared of braking your heart,

those seem to be little things.



When i see his picture,

i get a big smile,

when i hear his voice,

everything bad goes way.



i dont know where i stand,

i dont know how long things last,

if i had my way it would be forever,

i dont know how he feels,

i wish thats how he fells,

all i know is how i feel.



its getting hard to hide it,

time to let it out,

cant stay inside me forever,

needs to be let out.

gift from god.. wrote n dedicated to my friend kiko who passed way in 2001
06:36 Jul 04 2010
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your a special gift from god,

sent here to bring joy to our lives,

sent back up to live with our father,

to lay in the glorious heavens,

to look down upon us,

and remember the good times we shared,

we sit here and remember all the times,

you made a smile out of our frowns,

and how you made us laugh when we were down,

but most of all well remember,

the times you smiled and brought,

good things to all our lives,

when we look up at the sky,

well be looking up at heaven,

where you lay with our glorious father,

in the heavens of love,

when we look up at the beautiful stars,

well be wishing you were with us.







* I wrote this for a good friend of mine that killed himself when he was only 15 yrs old cuz everyone gave him a hard time about how his brother/ his best firend died while in the car racing with my cuzins and things go to hard for him n he couldn't handel it any longer so decided he'd take his own life tha day after the 4th of july. we found him he hung himself over the rafters in his own room* KIKO WE ALL LOVE YOU N MISS YOU......

never say
06:34 Jul 04 2010
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never say "i love you",

if you really dont care,

never talk about feelings,

if they arent really there,

never hold my hand,

if your gunna brake my heart,

never say your going to,

if you dont plan to start,

never look into my eyes,

if all you do is lie,

never say hi,

if you really mean goodbye,

if you really mean forever,

then say you will try,

never say forever,

cuz forever makes me cry.

if tomarrow should come without me... This one made me cry when i wrote it:
06:33 Jul 04 2010
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if tomarrow you wake up,

and i am gone,

if the sun rises,

and in your eyes are tears,

all i wish is you wouldn't cry,

wouldn't shead those tears.



while i look back,

on the many things,

we didn't get to say or do,

i know how much i love you,

and how much you love me too.



if tomarrow should start without me,

please try to understand,

that i do love you,

and that an angel came to take my hand.



in the heavens far above,

my place is ready,

and i had to leave behind,

everything i owned,

and all those i dearly loved.



as i tured to leave,

a tear fell from my eyes,

for all those things i left behind,

for all my life,

in which i thought there was more to.



i had so much to live for,

so much to do,

it seems impossible,

that i have to leave you.



if tomarrow should start without me,

ill be sitting up in heaven,

thinking of all the love we shared,

and all the fun we had.



if i could relive yesterday,

just for a little while,

i would spend more time with you,

to say good-bye and kiss you one last time.

or maybe just to see you smile.



But that can never be,

for emptiness and memories,

would take the place of me.



when i thought of all the things,

i might miss come tomarrow,

i thought of you,

when i did,

my heart filled with sorrow.



So if tomarrow should start without me,

please wont you take my hand,

and share my life with me,

dont think we are far apart,

for when you think of me,

ill be right here in your heart,

so remember i'll always love you....