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im the happiest ducky in the pond :)

w00t! got my webcam working today!!!! sweet

ok well this is weird... i wrote on my arm with a sharpee it says " fuck this shit" and the f is backwards... but... i cant remember doing it, i mean i have a bad memory but not that bad... its like i blacked out and sumthing happend.... damn am i insane???

ok this entry is to brittney!!! i miss you honey!!!!!!!!!!!! sooooo much!!!!!!!!! i havnt seen her for a year... ive known her half my life... she my sister, my best friend and i love her... i miss her terribly! why did you have to move brit??? i dont think ill ever meet any 1 who will be as great a friend as her... damn i miss her... i havnt seen her for a year...ok... im going to go cry now...

ahahahahahahahahahaha!!!! damn im a vengful bitch!!!!! im going to take my lil brother to boyscouts soon, and i know my ex will be there.... so im making myself look all hot so i can make him want me make him miss me, and when he asks me back out im gonan shut him down and laugh about it!!!!! i want him to hurt as much as i did!!!!!! hehehehehehehe lmao

im gonna wear- my tight camo jeans, and my huge ass black hoody, do my hair how he likes... and make my eyeliner extra heavy!!!!!! to bring out the hurt in my eyes! im gonna hurt him like he hurt me, and its going to be fun!!! >:D

as i sit here pondering about my growing up. i noticed, that when you are a child, or teenager ( mostly) you cannot wait to get older, you wish you were older and hate being young. but, as you reach a higher age, you wish you were younger, you see your life slipping by... and wish you were a child once more... so i am begging all whom read this, do not grow up too fast ok?

i am sorry but why doso many ppl fall in love with me? its stressful... and i dont know whom i am supposed to be with! i have strong feelings for 1, and thats all, but i do not want to hurt the others... its not my nature... i feel like aphrodite... goddess of love, every1 loves you, every1 falls in love with you, damn she musta been stressed.. lol i know she was supposed to help with lovers and things, i need guidance, hopefully the gods and goddesses may help me

lol, i am in pain, my legs really hurt... i walked a lot today! but i got my webcam w00t! so its worth it

ok, so i already have a shit load of stress in my life, as well as my repressed feelings , which cuases my depression... and my ex seems to try and make it worse... i already feel badly for breaking his heart... but he doesnt have to break mine everytime we talk... i wanted to be friends and he said he would try, now the longest we've talked together is about 5 mins, and he always hurts me...well my heart... it makes me cry, but i still want to talk with him, and when he tells me hes going to kill himself it hurts more.... i mean i still care and i dont want him to hurt himself at all... oh man... its shit like this that makes me wanna start cutting again...but i wont...i promised myself i wont.... god i need to stop thinking ths way... i refuse to see a therapist

wanna know whast gross? when guys who are a lot older then you, try and hit on you, i mean like over ten years older then me... not ppl on here, ppl here rock! lol but in real life for me, and sumtimes online in chats... but thats just sick...

man, im sick of people lying to me.........why cant any1 be honest??? its not like im gonna flip out if i know the truth

hey i went up pikes peak for the first time today, ive lived in colorado springs 11 years and havnt gone all the way up until now! the only bad part was coming up and going down... my dad was driving...hes not a very careful driver....

weird, today im like not sleepy..... its like 4 am and i cant get to bed im soo awake!!!!!!!! i slept in til 1 pm, god i love summer break but its a little tiring lol awyway, ok well thats all for now, bye

wow, ok yesterday, i saw my ex...which hurt, but i also almost got hit by a car cuz the breaks on my bike dont work... and i fucked up the back of my knee becuz i tryed to stop...it hurt...but seeing my ex hurt the worst.....

OK, IM LIKE BEING STALKED!!! LIKE IRL... THIS GUY I KNOW IS OBSESSED WITH ME, AND CREEPING THE SHIT OUTTA ME!!!!!! HE KNOWS WHERE I LIVE, AND I THINK HES READING MY EMAIL!!!!!!! IM SCARED, IM LIKE SHAKING... HE KEEPS SAYING HES IN LUV WITH ME, AND ALL THIS STUFF... ITS FREAKING ME OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

any1 wanna come protect me?

well i think not... when i was coming home from my frnds grabdparents house on the fourth... big traffic block... anyways... some fuking redneck stop his car... takes the keys.... and climbs out... then he pulls a woamn halfway out the window... and hits her!!!! then he walks off... her son get out of the car and tell us his step dad hit his mom, he almost in tears. and that we need to drive around.... anyways... my frnds dad calls the cops... 4 police cars pass by the truck and no one stops.... isnt it great how wonderful our justice system is??? im still pissed at this injustice.... it was just horrible