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let my body freeze

let me form into a clear crystal

let my powers take over

no more control

let them take me if that is what they so want of me

pain consuming every step

unable to even move to far

screaming in pain as i try to step once again

unable to even be able to scream for help as i fall

just lay there

then there isnt a shot of pain

I don't want to cry

I don't want to feel this way anymore

I don't want to shiver in the night as the thoughts that come to my mind

I don't want to think of the lives that I've killed

Let alone, the ones I'm going to kill

Can't I just return to not existing

Be a nothing

Be nothing at all

I sometimes wish that I could turn back time Redue what I have done wrong

Change my life so I was never hurt

Learn my lesson after the first time

Or not even get that way in the first place

Then I'd be with my love

Said goodbye before he left

Called a loved one more often before he disappeared

Tried harder to keep one alive

And never shed a single tear

hold me as i fall to the ground

hold me as i cry

hold me when i break until a thousand pieces in your arms

dont let go of me when im dieing

dont forget me when im gone

dont forget me

forever remember my laughter and smile

a single tear i dont want to shed

a tear that comes from my breaking heart in pain

my world is gone

i have nothing more

a tear falls for my children that will never be

a life they will never know

i have no one

not even the spawns that grow inside of me

im empty and alone

no one can know

not even my own love

cant i die

just not exist

disappear from this world

and if i want

never return

i cant stand this false existance anylonger

please just let me once have the curage to die

to actually finish what i started

When it's Christmas time in South Dakota

And the gental breezes blow

About seventy miles an hour

And it's fifty two below

You can tell you're in South Dakota

'Cause the snows up to your butt

And you take a breath of Christmas air

And your nose holes both freeze shut

The weather here is wonderful

So I guess I'll hang around

I could never leave South Dakota

My feet are frozen to the ground

in times of pain i scream to the heavens

in times of sorrow i fight against the holy ones

when i say i f*cking give up i rise from my ashes

not heaven nor hell want me

nor will they keep me

i am the forsaken one

so this is to you who says i am nothing

who says that i dont belong

and who claims that you know the true me

f*ck you

the knife against my skin is so cold

my hand is trembling in fear

fear of what i am about to do

i can hear my boyfriend on the other side of the door trying to get in to stop me

all i can do is think of all the things that have gone wrong in my life

even though everything has started to go right latley

the pain from the past is just far to strong

i can feel the blood and tears flowing now

he's going to break down the door

to get in here to stop me

im afraid that he might be to late

i can feel the darkness coming about me

but why can i now feel warm arms around me?

he's broken down the door

taken the knife from me

thrown it across the room

places his large hands over my wrists, and wrapt his arms about me with my own arms around me

as i feel my body fall back into his

i can feel the most odd, yet most peaceful feeling of tranquility wash over me

the darkness begins to fade

and the last thing i hear before everything is engulfed in a warm bright light

"I love you"

then total sadness comes over me

he loved me

and i left him

without telling him that i loved him as well

forsaken by my family

for wanting to be a little different

forsaken by my friends

for wanting to be a little bit wild

forsaken by a man

for wanting to be with him so

forsaken by the world

for wanting to be me

and not what THEY want me to be

From childhood I've been happy

Always smiling and giggling

One major turning point in my life changed that

And sent me into the darkness

With my heart sill beating/Ifall away screaming/damning my heart for living/crying as I'm still bleeding/pain surrounding me/every bone aiking/I've fallen from the sky/to heavy to fly/broken wings upon my back/I scream to the sky's why/in the rain and cold/ I break upon the bleached sands



Chorus: I do fall/an angel I once was/about to die in this body/to take that final fall to the gorund cold and lifeless/to die alone as pain consumes me/to remember you're face one last time/knowing you had forsaken me



I gladfully except the darkness instead of the light/my life has no meaning to live/I remember the peaceful times/before life seemed to make no sense/I roll over within my final breaths/looking up into the night sky/I see my final light/the stars are my last light



Chorus



And now I speak

(whisper)

Here I lay me down to sleep/peaceful heart I shall keep/hold me tight for all the night/no more fear shall I feel/make my body feel the warmth of the light/let no harm come to me/only but a child I do speak/keep this small thing safe/keep me safe for all the night



Chorus:



forsaken me for helping/condeming me to die/never to know any life

In our grandest of moment, when everything we try we fail, that is when we know. Know ourselves for who we are. You can not never escape it. No one can. YOu are always trapt in the secrets of you're mind.

To cy tears of blood

To shed everything to the ground

To make you're eyes open wide to the harshness of the world

To fall from the heavens

To break upon the sands

To breath you're last breath

To see you're last sight

To say good-bye

To you I wish

To you I love

Life is bright

Death is dark

This world is bland

My life is nothing but to stand again

Time passes as nothing has happened

My life feels pointless

Can't I just eternaly fall away from the world

Turn to one where there is no light

Eternal darkness

Where none can find me