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Ok last night was a mixture of two dreams. The frist one was pretty epic in that I got to hang out with the lead singer of Chevelle and we were super tight and great friends and he crashed at my house. Completely normal and awesome. The second dream was strange and horrifying. It started out completely normal with a couple of my friends and I went to the mall and we were getting picked up by these guys. Then I saw some guys that I remember from elementary school but the guys that were with us kept pulling me away from them and were becoming very aggressive. I asked one of them to let go of my arm and he smiled and I saw something change quickly in his eyes and disappear. I was immediately startled and scared for my life. I saw this group of men and they were vamps I guess like elders or something and apparently the group of friends I had were all special in their own right. The group of elders coming toward me were yelling my name, telling me to pay my dues etc. I still don't know what I did though. One of my friend's took care of that guys and we ran off. We took off in different directions and promised to keep each other safe and meet up at Hot Topic (that makes me laugh) I apparently was half vamp half shape shifter which was pretty bad ass. I took off to the left side of the mall and I could hear the men coming for me. I jumped up and hid in the rafters. I watched them quietly and carefully but I should have known better that they could smell me. They looked up and saw me and I ran. I ended up bumping into my friend and the left side mall was completely dark and dank. I hid in a nearby kiosk as a fly and my friend was captured. They held him by the neck asking him where I was and he refused to say anything. They revealed his greatest fears to him and he started to panic so I flew away to the second floor. I shifted back and could hear him screaming in pain and agony and then the sound of bones breaking and turning to dust. I slid into HT and my other friends were there waiting for me and I felt relieved for the one moment. We could smell them getting closer so we shifted and hid. They burst through the doors killing the woman who was our look out. Two men walked in looked around, didn't see anything and left. We shifted back and another one of my friends appeared and I thought his presence there was fishy to begin with. He wasn't anything special at all, just a business man I went to school with years ago. I walked outside to see the mall completely deserted and saw two of my other friends from school and them showing up just felt off. One of them was Nate and my best friend from school and she walked inside to see everyone. I hugged him told him it was good to see him and when I pulled away his eyes changed and he had this devilish grin on his face. At that moment I heard screaming come from inside and one of my friends ran out and told me to run. I pushed my "friend" off of me and took off. My same friend that told me to run was a werewolf and I couldn't be around him on days he turned but these people that came after me, made him change early and he hunted me. Absolutely horrifying!!!(I have a huge fear of werewolves since a nightmare I had a month ago.) I hid in the rafters and saw him trying to get to me. I could see in his eyes that he was have some kind of internal trouble but he still came after me. He knocked me off the rafters and I smacked into the first floor. He jumped down easing me back into the center of the mall, when I got close enough I felt this force grab me by the ankles and drag me. I started screaming and my friend shifted back and reached for my hands. At this point I was crying, terrified and a whole bunch of other things. "You belong to us!" his voice was so loud it shook the place. I have never seen the main guy of the pack but I knew his voice and every time I heard it, it sent chills down my spine. My friend finally pulled me out and apologized over and over again saying he couldn't control himself. We made our way to the exit and I couldn't hear their sinister laughter and my friend started to change again. I ran outside jumped into a car that was magically on and everything and I drove off. I didn't look back and drove like a bat out of hell. I heard his voice though saying they were going to come after to me no matter what then I woke up.

I'm going to sound like a bitch but I'm peeved so I don't care. I'm slowly starting to dislike my friend because of her association with my room mate that I had a falling out with. I know, that's stupid, it's so high school, blah blah blah. Look, I wouldn't be feeling like this but she's changed and hasn't been acting the same anymore and it's slowly coming to that point where I want to snap. My friend was mentioning that she's going to have a birthday dinner and I had this sinking feeling she wouldn't invite me. It would upset me if that happens since we were real close but then again I wouldn't be surprised.



Ok rant over :]

Last night's dream felt incredibly real because I dreamt something that felt normal to me that if I didn't know any better, I had gone out late last night as it rained. I went to this shopping center back home and I met with a couple of friends to meet some celebrity. The actor was Paul Wesley and when I met him, I wasn't starstruck I acted like I've known him my whole life. He did this really embarrassing thing, you know one of those things that you do alone and it slips up in public, and I caught him and started laughing and his face turned bright red. I told him it was ok it was adorable. After our fun chat we exchanged numbers to keep in touch and then my friends and I drove out into the middle of nowhere and it was a blue moon and we went skinny dipping and cliff diving. I woke up this morning and it was raining and it made me smile.

So before I went to sleep last night I watched many episodes of Mad Men season 1 and needless to say, it seeped into my dreams. I was Don's secretary and there was this huge party he asked me to go to and it was a party for the elite and then later he showed up. It truly was set in the late 50s early 60s time period. I think I slept with someone but I can't remember. I don't remember much of the dream since it's so late in the day now. It was fun though ;]

Gah, last night's dream was boring. I was in some theatre troupe and we were traveling but it was like in a video game and some one got left behind and they only had a certain amount of time to get back with the group before troops were sent after them and they were killed. So I went back for my friend and dodging bullets and such was fun because I had a sense of invincibility and then I woke up.

I know I'm behind on posting last night's dream. I dreamt that I had some massive issues with a cat gang and I saw my old physics teacher and I was kind of in the movie avatar...I know this is short but it wasn't all that exciting and I didn't sleep all too well last night. :/

Last night's dream was interesting to say the least. I was at someone's house and there were so many people there and I had this sinking feeling that I wasn't supposed to be there. And this one person kept making advances towards me and I told them politely to back off and what not and they kept telling me I was too beautiful to be a slave but they make an exception for me. (So creepy) Then that person kissed me and I slapped the shit out of them and ran off. Came upon a room and hid there then my boyfriend (he was a vamper from a previous dream) showed up, asking if I was ok etc. I was freaking out because of what happened and something else that I can't quite remember. Then my dream did a 360 and we were at his apartment and there were people having a feeding fest and I wanted nothing to do with it. He took me into his room and his animal instincts came out and then the window swung open and all these birds came in and I was at my house in the game room and this guy who looked like a Jonas Brother (I don't even listen to them or like them!) and his name was Jeff and he was shocked and pleased that I had no idea who he was. Then I yelled at my best friend for being a dick walked "Jeff" out and I woke up.



What the shit was going on last night?!

So last night's starred 2 vampires. They were brothers and I was dating one but I secretly loved the other and it was only a secret to the one I was dating. But Before they entered my dream, I was a "republican student" fighting against these disgusting business man for something (I can't remember) and after much deliberation and scheming I won. It was pretty sweet victory but immediately after that's when the guys entered and my scenery had completely changed. I was at a ball and it was elegant and beautiful and expensive. I was there with the one I secretly loved for the one I was actually with had business to attend to. He had no idea of the intentions the other was holding for and I wasn't one to complain. I remember wearing this cream colored gown and we were dancing and I remember asking him about the cologne he was wearing because I adored it and I can't remember the name. WE talked about "us" and how selfish I was for trying to keep them both but that was part of my charm.(really?) All of sudden I was at this run down home that had snow everywhere and apparently the guys were looking for me and I took it upon myself to play hide and seek (my wardrobe had miraculously changed. gotta love dreams) and I remember jumping to the second floor from the first and I was hanging over the ledge (because I'm an epic fail) and one of them found me and we laughed and the other asked why I was here and I told them there were people in the attic (insane) and he checked and they weren't there but then I saw them on the front lawn starring at me. Blah blah blah I was bitten by the brother I secretly loved as a tactic to lure these people closer to us *shrugs* I was reminded that I liked being bitten. Then there were these ghost wolf people and they were massive and I was stuck in a tree and I broke the news to a neighbor that they live next to vampires and she was surprisingly ok with it.



I love my dreams, reminds me how dull waking life is. xD

I came to the conclusion that I need a place to write down my dreams and since I am attached to this site as an outlet to express myself I'll keep my dreams here. Ironically, the first dream that will be documented here is about a vampire. Among other things in my dream (alien invasion, end of the world, car crashes, ghosts, and Walmart) I was in my car that popped up from a a rubix cube, and I'm in the backseat with my friend driving the car. IT was me and 3 other people, whom I can't recall, and I can't quite remember what we were talking but then a man appeared in the seat next to me and was laughing along with us like he had been there the whole time. I wasn't alarmed because apparently I knew him but my friends didn't take notice to him. Moving along, we started talking about all these dead bodies we saw along the road because of the "alien invasion" and someone sprayed perfume in the car and that heightened his "vampire" side and he fangs came out and his eyes went black. He buried himself in the crook of my neck as I cracked up that something so miniscule could have such a heavy impact. He leaned back and for some reason we started kissing and I distinctly remember licking his fangs. Not like a dog or anything but I grazed it with my tongue and then from there, there was a huge party for all us people that were going to save the world and then a huge fight broke between myself and some know-it-all punk ass. It was very odd... but there are points in all my dreams where I remember one thing clearly and it stands out from all the rest and it was the whole kissing and licking of the fangs thing. I don't know why but it's what's still perfectly clearly in my mind. Well that concludes my dream from last night. Toodles!

I don't know why I put up with my best friend's shit. I love him to death but some times I just can't stand the way he is when he acts like a child when he doesn't get his way and he acts like a diva and a know it all. I know his flaws and he knows it too but he doesn't change at all. I just needed to get this off my chest right now.

Tonight I looked upon my sister and I guess it's the mean person inside me that is slowly coming out (20 years in the making) and I was disgruntled at the fact people think we're twins. I guess upon a first glance, yes, we do look an awful lot a like but we carry ourselves completely different and our looks are on opposite ends. I have finally come to own my body and looks and the way I carry myself, I take great pride in my appearance. I am very much a curvy, voluptuous, full figured young lady but I'm a narcissist at heart. I don't even under stand where I am going with this... I don't know... I feel superior to other people some times, but I'm nice and polite to everyone I meet (southern hospitality) but there are those few people I pass and I think to myself, "yeah, sure she's skinny but she's got nothing on me." Oh my goodness, seeing it typed out in front of me, I sound like a self absorbed bitch. I express this here because I can't express this side of my out in this world, I just can't do it. On the outside, I'm a sweetheart, intelligent, funny, charming charismatic person but the other side of me I choose to hide is vindictive, a seductress, aggressive, cruel person who honestly believes that some times she is better than everyone else. Ha! Just realized I referred to myself in the third person oh lord. My thoughts are all jumbled tonight, I just had to get this out.

I think it's sad when people can't stand to be alone with themselves. I guess "sad" is a harsh word to use but for a lack of a better one, I'll stick with it. I had made a huge change in my life that resulted in me leaving behind 3 very close friends and several acquaintances behind to move to a place I felt was better for me. As I got older, instead of having masses of friends, I kept a select few close to me and gave others the title of friend because they were more than an acquaintance. I tend to lose friends for some reason and now it just doesn't phase me anymore. Something stupid always tends to happen during the fall to where by the time my birthday comes around in the spring, they are no longer around. I recently had a fall out with one of my room mates and we are no longer friends anymore. I lit our bridges ablaze with a match and never looked back. Bridges turned to ash between her and me and her and my other room mate. (I have no use for liars and toxic people in life) Since she lost us, she now hangs out with two other people to occupy her time and to her everyone becomes her "best friend". One of the people she spends a great deal of time with is one of our mutual friends. Now, I would never put any of my friends in a situation to where they felt like they had to pick between me and someone else, that's stupid and ridiculous. I knew she knew about the fall out because my room mate can not keep her mouth shut to save her life, so I never brought it up with my friend. It came up once but I quickly dismissed it telling her I wouldn't make her pick etc. Needless to say, she chose on her own which is fine. It just saddens me because I know they both are guilty of trash talking about the other and they constantly need to be around someone for being alone drives them bonkers. I just don't get people like that. Make peace with you solitude because lovers and friends come and go but you're stuck with yourself for life. I just had to express this some where, I'm peeved with their naivety and foolishness.