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I blame myself. What for? I blame myself for loving you. I blame myself because I could not see the darkness that was within your heart. You lied to me. You said that you loved me. You lied. You told me that you cared about me. You lied again. You told me that everything would be all right. But you know what? You never loved me. You never cared. Everything will not be all right. You never saw the pain that was in my eyes, and now you never will. I hate you for making me believe in you. I hate that you were so convincing with your little stories that you told. They were all a lie. I can see that now. I thought that you where an angel. I wanted to be more like you and less like me. I hate you for making me feel the way that I feel. I feel so faithless. I am empty inside. Pain is all that I know, though it is not like you ever cared. I hate you for making me vulnerable. I have become weak. You have destroyed my barriers. Everything that I have ever known now lies in shambles at my feet. I hate you. You made me feel worthless. I do not miss you. I miss who I thought you where. I used to miss knowing how your day is going. I missed looking at you. I missed your sweet lips and your beautiful eyes. But you know what? Fuck you! Fuck you for what you did to me. I hate you for what you did to me. I hate you. I hope you are happy. You have lost me. Not that you care. You have lost me. And because of you, everyone else has lost me too.

I like your eyes but i love my eyes more because without my eyes i couldnt see yours.

Your eyes are blue like the sky which gives its colors to the sea and when it splaches to the rocks it turns white the color of pure love.

Your eyes are black like the night witch shines the stars soo bright your the moon of my life so dont you think so dark and black.

Pain



Pain does not hurt you when it is all that you

have ever felt. Do not talk to me about pain because I invented it. With one screw up after another, I am never able to right the wrongs in my life. As I take one step towards the light, I only manage to slide two steps back into the darkness again. The door to the light is slowly closing. The tiny sliver of light that I can still see is getting smaller. I seem to be losing everyone around me, too. It is getting darker and darker, now. I am alone, the last one standing. I always let everyone down. I am condemned to be alone in the darkness for I am hated. Death is only the beginning of my torture.