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How can any one person consume my mind and heart so much? And why do I hold them back. THese are not my intentions but I am uncertain of everything now...What I would give to trust again...

These tears of mine...Why do they fall? They mean nothing to me. But i cant seems to delete them from my body.



Why do I cry? Good question.. I was hoping you could tell me. My hostile additude and all these feelings that rape my mind have consumed me so I no longer can see my options. I feel as if I have given a choice: to fall or to fall... But then why am I falling? Is it because I have chosen to fall? Is this all secretlly my fault or is it just another thought I must face every day until I forget? Will I ever forget? Will I ever be forgiven? Or am I just here to take it all? I know I am not the only one because those who read this and understand, understand.



The sun has burned out this abused lightbulb. It seems this time it can not be repaired. So what next? Are we forced to seclude ourselves in this freezing nightmare? Condemned to walk through this darkness alone? Or do you have a written document that consists of your reasons and conclusions on why remain unbarablly blind?



Please if anyone truly understands these words that my broken fingers type, let me know. I am desperate.

I am not your pet to be beaten around. If you command me to "speak" I will visiously sever the skin and muscel from your bones. I am not your dream to throw away. I am not your scar to only bleed again. I am not your bitch to be raped. I am not your fucking pet.



Im sorry for those who are viewing if I offened you. I am just tired of being pullled by a leash. It seems everyday more victims fall into this hole that causes you to lie. I am tired of people not being honest. I am tired of it. Im runnning out of places to trust. Tell me who can I run to?



It seems no ones arms are open to the unknown. But thats just human nature I guess.