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Without You
16:21 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 879

Oh God I'm injured

I've hurt myself realy bad

I have a really bad scab

Oh God help me



Oh shit, I'm sorry

Didn't mean to hurt you

I have a really bad habit

Oh shit, forgive me



I'm just a maggot sitting in a corner

Waiting on my curds and whey

Please come notice me and give me a reason

To believe in my own fate



Oh Lord why me

I've tried so hard

I've given you everything

Oh Lord what did I do wrong



Oh man, you're in trouble

You don't understand

How hard I've tried

Oh man, it's over



I'm just a maggot sitting in a corner

Eating my little curds and whey

Won't you please notice me, give me a reason

To believe you chose my fate



It's not hypocrisy

It special see

I have a reason for me



I'm not unintelligible

You're despicable

You don't understand me



I'm not ever wrong you see

You're just incredibly

Much worse than me



I'm not infallible

I'm just always going to be

Better than you

State of Mine
16:20 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 880




Blocks

Of mine

Feel better

In the sun

Your

Design

Is smarter

Than that one

Eat

Something

That feels

So wholesome

Sue

All the

Religious

Ceremonies

Faux

Is for

The way

It stands now

I

Can hear

The cops

Come in town

My

Fag is

Slowly

Dying and

You care

Not

Spammeroni
16:20 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 881

I fell into a passage of sinners and saints

Just to get my transaction voided

And as the dearly beloved began to feel faint

The old man in the corner pointed to me



How did I get here, nobody cares

What do you want from me, Fashion and flare

Where are you papers, filled out on the stairs

Down on the floor, don't you dare don't you dare



I didn't follow you for nothing,

You just happened to pass me by

I saw the signs eons ago

It didn't make sense not to try



How did I get here, nobody cares

What do you want from me, Fashion and flare

Where are you papers, filled out on the stairs

Down on the floor, don't you dare don't you dare

s.i.c.
16:19 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 882

17 minutes to bedtime

I have a parrot on my head

In 21 minutes you’re all mine

Can’t want anyone else instead



You’re just a



Roll down the window to look out

It’s always on my mind

17 minutes to freak out

All a state of mind



It’s just a

Paramount reality

Taking up the best of me

For seconds and related firsts



You’re just a

paramount reality

Squeezing out the heart of me

Can’t of anything worse



Sitting on the corner of Washington

Waiting for a holy ghost

Counting down the minute s to honesty

All I want’s a cameo



I just want a

Paramount reality

To take out all the best from me

For seconds and related firsts



It’s only

A paramount reality

Squeezing out the heart of me

I can’t think of anything worse



Than being in this room

For 17 minutes more

Having been in this room

Have I ever been more than your whore



Just in time for…

RH
16:18 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 883

Silently

You breathe

And all the world's a playground

Desperately

In tune

Everything has fallen into place



Whisper into the storm

Break away from it all

Falling through the norm

Addicted to it all



Tasting this

Holding on

I never knew this ever could exist

Falling in

So fast

So good it hurts to be without...



Suffer but don't cry

You're in an aeroplane

Bleed and don't deny

All that's left is sane



Letting go of

Everything

The wind becomes more

Perfect everyday

Holding on to

Everything

Crashing burning lust

Loves every way



Addicted to it all

Whisper into my skin

Tear away from it all

Breaking all the skin

Raspberry
16:18 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 884

For the first time

For the first time

Will you step around to see it there

It's sitting staring at you waiting

Patiently

For the first time



And is it any wonder

And is it any wonder

That you are gone and you don't know

Golly it's morning and we're alone

Together

And is that any wonder



For you it's nothing new

Just another notch

And I am waiting

In the bed for something

New



For you it's economy

Just second rate

And you have been here

A thousand times before

Now



It's nothing special

It's nothing special

That you are falling on the floor

I can't help you get to the door

Takes too long

It's nothing special



For you it's second best

Forget the rest

They're fighting for the right

To be ignored

By you



For you it's nothing new

I'm fairly certain

You have all been here

A thousand times before

It's true





I know I'm self-constructive

And confused and I don't

Know the answers

Sorry I'm not you



I know I'm so naive to just sit and wait for

A chance for happiness and something more



It's on it's way I do believe

You've seen me you know how I am

And how I get to be sometimes

It's not a hassle it's just fine



For the first time

For the first time

Wiil you step around to see it there

It's sitting staring at you waiting

Patiently

For the first time

punctuation
16:17 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 885

Into a door

five dollars more

Sir please can I have a cola

Slip through the room

Two more minutes please

I have to find that little sleaze

Who called me a whore

Crying for my milk today

It rained today

I cried today

No milk today



Into a bar

Five more dollars

All I want’s my favorite drink

And some caviar

For breakfast

It will taste good

With a side a guilt and apostrophes

Crying for my blood today

You died today

I cried today

No funeral today



Nancy Nancy

Why are you mad at me

What did I do wrong

Lying Crying

All I want is mine please

Give me back my little whore



Seven dollars more

Neophobic
16:16 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 886




I close my eyes

And slip away

Not that you care anyway

I go beyond

Into my world

Where I can hide away



I see your broken spirit

I heal your every pain

All to realize

That everything's still the same



It's just a simple task

My existence is sublime

But I wake

And every day's a crime



It's no real secret

My life is open wide

But yet nobody knows

We toss and turn the words

The comfort feels eternal

We all play anything goes



You hear my echoed speech

You feel my shattered bones

All to realize

I'm stronger on my own

It's just a simple task

Your existence is sublime

But you awaken

And everything is fine.



Goodnight to the darkness

Here comes my new best friend

A change from all I'm used to

Starting over again



What used to be my enemy

Is now my only remedy

The antidote is setting in

As I try to correct my sins

Sin corrects my eternal vision

Cyclical Monotony
16:15 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 887

Hey little Jack

where you going today

You got your bookless schoolbag again



Hey little Jack

Why don't you go play

And let us deal with all your problems



Hey little Jack

Do you need some cash?

I've got it all for your soul, you see



Hey little Jack

Want to come play?

I'll let you give it up for free, you see



Indoctrinated

Procrastinating

Infatuated

Deteriorating



Over-saturated

Insinuating

Broken and faded

you've lost everything

vacation
16:13 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 890

green is like my mind

green is like my head

green is like the color

of the sheets upon my bed

thanks for the flowers

it was really too kind

you’re one of those

you’re one of mine

I go to school tomorrow

don’t say you’ll miss me

when I fall on my knees

please oh please don’t fucking kiss me

yellow’s like my mind

it in my head

yellow’s the color

of the walls... it’s in my head

thanks for the flowers

it wasn’t kind enough

I wish you’d been one of those

I wish you weren’t quite so tough

I go back home tomorrow

don’t say you missed me

when I crash and wail and bleed

please oh please don’t fucking kiss me

it’s just a hairstyle

not a sign of anything special

but when I cried

did you think I was the devil back then

I leave tomorrow

I know you’ll miss me

I’ll go silently

so that way you can kiss me goodbye

m&m's
16:12 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 891




you’ve got me sitting on pins and needles

backwards forwards oh you prince

I’m on the side of all that’s evil

sideways, hide behind my hints

if you can’t see me through the glass

you’re just a piece of lazy ass

or if you’d like to take vacations

give me - give me - give me (- give me )cash

Insufferable you are to pass

So take my wisest piece of cash

And you might think it’s rude to ask

But no one cries a river to last

the lifetimes is finally falling down

and you’ve got nowhere to go

blame it all on the jack of crowns

by tonight you’ll be the biggest cup of joe

[chorus] don’t steal my thoughts and idealogies

you just wanted to play with me [#2 - talk to me]

I didn’t expect to see you in the

high school cafeteria [city auditorium]

like someone who should matter

but they’re just a cooky hatter [but you’re]

grab a pencil take my order please [write down my complaints]

I need to write some recipes [to go drag all the other saints

down

it’s not everyday I see a superstar

but if you’d like me to entertain you

I’ll pretend I don’t know who you are

it’s just coincidence that I know all your secrets

fill me up with café lattes, here’s my number

see you all next weekend

average joe... don’t listen to me [don’t you listen]

ok fine, I’ll spill my guts to you [all my guts]

just like a little girl would do [little whore]

oh and by the way (you suck).

Lemon Tree
16:11 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 892

It's not like there's anything new here, just one accusation and hit after another,

You never saw the finite mortality of life, and I never saw you any other way but perfect, that's how you stayed to me



It's only a matter of time before it's right, and everything just slips into place, with answers, dreams, hopes, and

you thought I'd never fall back into it all, you thought wrong, you thought wrong,

It's only real here when it rains down with insecurities that were there all along



All your own (and anything else)

More than I ever thought you could be (you could be)

(all alone and imperfect) Like them

(it just happens to be) It's a nice way to be, for me



If you can fall and if you can sing than you could be

Anything I thought you already were before

All of it hit, with miss after miss, baby

You don't see, you don't see anyone but me, baby



Only inside can you find what you hide from yourself, from myself, from it all, you will fall

It's no surprise, it's in your eyes that you despise what I control

And you can hate what you feel instigates the only thing that makes you feel good (feel good, feel good...)

All on your own (with anything else)

More than I ever thought you could be (you could be)

(all alone and imperfect) Like them

(it just happens to be) It's a nice way to be, for me







Something about love



Something about life



Something about the wind as it caresses your skin on a cool winter's day

Does the day really belong to winter?

Or do you own the day, and simply loan it to winter for a circumstance or two



There is something beautiful in the way you walk around

You've got a look in your eye that I never noticed before

There's a look that I don't recognize

and a prance that's gone missing





Where is your youth?

Where is your fragile innocence, or your expectant naivety?



There's something about the way you dance

Something different in your step today

I notice a look in your eye

Your eyes didn't used to look this way



It's not unusual to feel despair

It's not unusual to feel lost or hopeless

It's not unusual to feel strangely apathetic



Why then, am I so accustomed to your joy?

Why is it so strange and disturbing when you lack color?



Why am I nauseas at the thought of your pale skin, your distant eyes, your cold touch, your placid attitude?



Why do I fear your normality?



There is nothing beautiful in utopia

There is nothing beautiful in familiarity



But you are so beautiful to me

Apaxis mini
16:09 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 894

Dancing with the stars

Did you ever see your face

Stop to take it in

Stop to embrace



You are alive

Not a part of me

But just a piece of work

Delicately

Placed and of

Over-estimated worth



Intrinsically delicate

You fight for life

As every little thorn

Cuts into you as it they were all knives



But you can smell

And you can taste

You can do anything

That creates more

Waste



Inside yourself

You find it odd

That solace is crawling

With stickers for sale



And they tell you

What you want to hear

You're with the stars

So you must be top of the pier



And I apologize

For your life

It never seemed to work

Quite right

It's not that you're wrong

It's just that you're not right

And suddenly with excited mental girth

You realize your lack of potential for worth





It's not like you don't care

It's not like I'm not there

It's just a part of being

You're just a part of me

I am not what I thought I was

And you aren't who you were

There are no lines anymore

Everything is blurred

Everyday, more and more

There are deeper holes with bigger stories

You may be right

But I'm not wrong

And this situations been like this for too long



And where are you now

And where is that feeling inside

What is the answer that you thought I denied

As if I fell into you

And broke you into

It's just another tragic manifestation of my lies



That's not an excuse to miss out on being there

That's not right, it's more than fair

But it's a million times the insanity of working with me

And true I really couldn't ever care

If only there were stars in the sky that could realize my

Potential for being and making perfection

Then every now and then I could change a person's mind

Instead of somehow affecting their erection

But with you



But where are you now

But where is that feeling inside

What is the answer that you thought I denied

As if I fell into you

And broke you into

It's just another tragic manifestation of my lies

The SIHMS
16:08 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 895

I can't feel

Because it's all

Impossible to deal

With on extrapolating planes

Of existence



You can't feel

How I feel

Because it's all

Generally impossible

As a basic defence

Against



You and your excellence

You cry at my reason

begging for expectancy

And dying without anyone



You are your competence

You find out it's really

Just something expected of

You with insolence and hope



It's not real

At least not like it used to be

A part of me and you

Intrinsically beautiful

And whole and perfect and complete

And all that shit



You're no longer here

And everything else

Has gone missing without trace

In it's place

Alone and breeding inside its own

(Skin)



You and your excellence

You cry at my reason

begging for expectancy

And dying without anyone



You are your competence

You find out it's really

Just something expected of

You with insolence and hope

IWA
16:05 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 896

Samples of heaven

Are good with cherry cola

Never trust a girl

Whose name begins with Lola



Eat the heart

Of the crashing burning suicidal answer to the pie

Never start

A word with, “Fucking bitch I hope you rot and…”



I forgot the mail today it

Must have been a Freudian Postal Slip

Along with ordering those flowers and that perfume

Along with ordering those flowers and that perfume



Eat the heart

Of the crashing burning suicidal answer to the pie

Never start

A word with, “Fucking bitch I hope you rot and…”



Learn to cry

Those tears of messed up orders

And forgotten dates with cheesecake contestant



Learn to cry

Without your solitude

Those quarrels of old will never learn their lesson

Gross Miscalculations
16:04 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 897

In your self-righteous hypocrisy

you let go of me

you let go of me

you felt me

bruised me

tainted me

left me all alone

Inside my head is where the ants lay

they devour me

you let go of me

you watched me

saw me

taunted me

and left me to die



Where there's no light, there's no salvation either

I sit and stumble on my pathetic hopes, aspirations

Thank for making me

The post-post-modern art

I am today

Golly Gee!
16:04 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 898

You never crossed that line

You never meant to hurt so much

Always first in line

Never out of touch

My freedom is contagious

My freedom is outrageous

If they ever dreamed

Of crossing that line

If they were ever there

Maybe then that time

(They could have changed)



My freedom was so contagious

My freedom is outrageous



I loved you more

I hope you know

That no whore

Would go as far as I would go



But your freedom is contagious

It doesn’t seem outrageous anymore



I loved you more

I hope you know

Always first in line

Never out of touch





But your freedom is contagious

It doesn’t seem outrageous anymore

Negative Type
15:57 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 899




It’s like nothing that I’ve ever felt before

nailing needles inside crosses on a bathroom door

hoping beyond hope their life will surface

but there’s no sign that anything else has a purpose



what would you do

in this situation

rely on information

from past experience and knowledge from the pure

what would you do

in this circumstance

would you risk a chance

or play by all the rule and never make a pass again



she’s sweet, lovely, and she’s charming

Intrinsically whimsical and intoxicating

a breath of fresh air in a room full of dead logs

she’s dead on the inside, but that doesn’t matter

here she’s alive



I’ve got all the right cards and I don’t know where they go

but I know more than I don’t know - that you’re someone I shouldn’t go to

But you smell so sweet and I’ve fallen so many times before - does that make me a whore?

I know you said you’re in for business, and so am I, and we’re on target, but I got so distracted from feeling empty, that now I’ve gone and felt too much

I don’t want to be alone but I hate this overwhelming jealousy, please cease the music and the lights, get that camera out of here it’s time to go home



It’s like nothing that I’ve ever felt before

scraping fingernails to a bathroom door

hoping beyond hope my life will again surface

but there’s no sign that there’s any purpose

Geraldo
15:56 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 900

All in all I’m just a

Million miles away

No time for fun

And I never want to play

See the flowers curling

At the sound of my name

All they know is I never bring a sunshiny day



Sentimental Jealousy

Is all you seem to think of me

The cards of defeat echo my

Insanity



As we walk down the aisle

To the flowered door

All you think of is

How you could never ask for more

The shadows copy all the rounded movements we could ever make

And that just shows us all the steps we could have but refused to take



Intrinsic solitude

Is soaping up your attitude

And you could never place a bet

On all those chances you have never



In my arms

Is where the happy ending always lies

Down the hall

You’re never failed to be dissatisfied

With broken promises and opportunities I failed again

We’re just some other broken hearted, reckless cemetery friends.

Foot falls
15:54 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 903

It’s so beautiful

It’s so perfectly Insane

There’s nothing here to say

Hey baby you should stay



I feel like you’re inferior

You feel like I’m superior

I feel like feelings lie

And that is why I’m always high



Are you hungry baby

You know I can help you

Are you lonely baby

Maybe I can help you



Maybe you should stay

Baby I can help you

There’s no one here today

Maybe they can help you

Catch some z's
15:54 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 904

There's not too much to say; besides, the words get in the way

It's almost as if you'd crave for someone like me to misbehave

As soon as the news is said, it's just another batch of tears to shed

It's time for us to go to bed - the afterlife is almost dead



Don't you worry your pretty little head

After all the cards are counted

You can see what you thought you'd dread

Isn't that trophy nicer mounted



On the wall

You've seen the colors changing

In the Fall

What's this new war you're waging

On the wall

Salvation's on its own

Oh, the Fall

Doesn't hold a candle to back home

Destination
15:41 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 905

I’ve finally got my feet in the water

Now I have a

Taste

Of the world

In my hands

But

I want more than

This town’s got

To offer

I want more to

Lose

Than

A handful of

Sand

I need to

Ride

With the

Wind

In my

Hair

I need to feel

Free for

Miles

And miles

And never look back

Date for a Patron
15:40 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 906

Simmer in the crossroads

Burn incessant love and desire

That is all I have for you

Go elsewhere if your need is dire



Roasting on your pedestal

Maybe you should breathe

Burning in the pulpit

Letting your anger breed



Maybe someone else can help you

I only heal the pure

If your seeking salvation

You should go next door



I bought a hot dog

And I ate it without the bun

But no matter what I do

I won’t be good enough for that one



As holy as you

Infect me with your purity

Holy as your claim

Emaciated and dirty

Coffee Shope Madness
15:40 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 907

Sniffing you inside of my little world

you see you're beautiful like me

i want to complete you, you complete me

i love you, i want you, i have you



you are killing me to pieces

i'm falling inside of myself

i'm outside of everything and you are

inside of me and won't come out



i followed you down a path of no regrets

you regretted meeting me and

I regretted saying it too

it's beautiful, it's beautiful



now you want to get out and you don't know how

but you're comfortable waiting for the next best thing

it came last time, all you need is

a little paradigm adjustment, it should give it to you



but you can't see my unraveling skin

falling all around you like a casket

i'm soaking you in and drowning you

before long, you won't even be able to kill children



i fucked you in the ass

and you gave me your sodomy

i gave you everything

and you let me leave

Cocaine
15:39 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 908

I've been thinking, and it's dangerous, but i believe it helps.

i sort through all the thoughts and feelings and it takes me somewhere else.

but it's no mystery

how it came to be.

it's just a momentary lapse of concentration in the stars

and while we're sleeping they are dreaming of removing us to mars

because it's better there...

so much happier there...

and while we sit and wait for silence

they are sewing up the seams

that give us beauty inside violence

and relaxation in dreams and

if you go there you'll see desperate

reactions to addiction like anybody's faded attraction and

it's beautiful to be there

at the rising of the sun

but as the wind starts to unleash with darkness

you all start to run -

and leave me wondering...

what did i do this time...

is it just like last time...

all my fault again...

i wrote your story on reality

and painted it in burgundy because

it's your favorite colour see

and i still care 'bout what you think

but tomorrow is another story

i'll wake up screaming "could you be more slutty"

and we'll kiss and make up and i'll buy you a card

and father's day will come unharmed -

but you'll never know...

how much i love you so...

because it's all inside...

and it's already died -

ten thousand times from now i'll

dance away the broken dreams

and sew up all the stitches

from the broken pieces of my heart

and if you don't like my honesty

then i'll make it a fictional story for thee

because your precious feelings can't be

hurt or misconstrued in any way...

not for me...

i'm the last person you'd die for though i killed myself ten thousand times

so you could have a chance in life for all your dreams

you can't possibly be thinking of me in anything

i'm just a grace note to the soundtrack of your life

Packs
15:37 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 909

So you want to be different

So you want it

Different like a sandbag

Specialties are in



Does it make a difference

Whether or not you are

Does it make a change

Quality of essence in cards



What is it

Where is it

I want it

Oh long for it



I have no

Real intentions

You are so

Different



How is the change

Are you okay

I was there

You’re not anymore



What is it

where is it

I want it

oh long for it

The Birthday Song
15:36 Jul 21 2008
Times Read: 910

All I ever wanted was your birthday

all I ever needed was your smile

you gave me millions of dollars and the best house on the block

yet you couldn’t see through my tears for miles and miles

as if I broke it you declared it totaled

what a shame

as if I stole you called it missing

it’s always the same

and so I’m sorry

here’s my apology

here’s my affection

here’s my intentions

go away

you don’t quite see the golden side of life

anymore

go away

you don’t understand that I am wife

and not a whore

grab your horizons and give them all to me

still think I’m jealous

you just don’t get it

what a psycho I must seem

to you

go away

would you like to take my valiant efforts and mount them on the wall

you’ll be mounting my old journals and my old telephone calls

I’m not the biggest savior that I ever did see but I try and try and try

And my intentions are more pure than any host of your salvations

mounted on the bathroom door break my back for all your conquests

do you still think that I’m the classroom whore

but you don’t and you won’t understand the picture

I’ve done much better on the other side of college lectures

whore yourself to me and beg me tell you all my deepest secrets

oh and once I’ve told you, please remind that I’m satan’s leech, and

if you remember what I’m saying right now, then

do me a favor, extract your wisdom and your advice and

go away