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No the title isn't a pun on the nightlife that VR houses, its the truth. i hate the mornings, actually i hate anytime thats before 4pm. everything i do (unless sunlight is actually needed) happens beyond the hours of 5pm. And i can never seem to sleep very well before the hours of 2-3am.. day time is just a much better time for me to sleep, more relaxing, more of a deeper rest. Plus i get much more done later at night, its rather surprising actually, i'm defiantly more alive at night.



But anyway i'm rambling on now.... mhmmm journal entry, yes the starters guideline said i should i write one so i shall. I have to mention though i'm not one much for "journal" entries, actually iv always started but its never gotten more then two entries. Hopefully this place will be different and give me more light to write and express.



Though i am sitting here by my computer, pondering as i do often, well much more often then i should really, to often that what i'm pondering about never actually gets done.

But pondering i am. New drawing and poetry ideas, i always tend to get stuck.. there's me, sitting down at the computer or laying down in bed, thinking of a good idea, many come and go until i find the perfect one. So i get up and reach for book and pencil, and then BAM! the idea has vanished or i just can't put the picture from my head onto the paper for others to see. I can see what i want as clear as day on the paper but when i go to draw it ends up all muddled and defiantly not how i had pictured it. Then yet again, another piece of paper in the bin and an idea flush down the drain, so back to the rest of my bed i go and fall asleep. Months on end ill do that, so many ideas wasted until one day ill finally sit down and draw something wonderful within the space of 3 hours.

Happens so often i'm getting sick of it, obviously thats how my mind works but id much rather have an idea and it take those long months to complete then do what ends up happening.

It's very very frustrating.



But for now i must sleep so i shall stop venting.

Goodnight world

xx