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Times of torment that the heart brings forth and leaves a harden lump where love once stood.



Pain will forever flow within me for love has no meaning unless it is shared by another.



Loneliness is all i know and i beleive thats all i will ever know in this life, i had lovers but not the one i crave for.



He is my guiding light, my reason for living life, but he is gone and if he decides to return he will be of such a young age that to me it would be criminal.



I love him dear, now that he is not here and i feel so alone, this pain is unbearable and at one time i acheived a sucessful death to myself to be with my one love, but i was saved by the one i was with, even he wasnt the one for me.



MY Love wait for me til i return to the neitherworld for we may start over again anew and be one once more, to our dying days together forever.



my sweet love i miss thee.

last night before i left for the night to go clubbing, i talked to a friend that i am truly and madly in love with, and yet i knew deep down that going out was a bad idea, only cuz i found out that the one i care for has made ammens with his gurlfriend more like fiend, but thats besides the point.



He told me that it has been better then it has ever been...I told him that i was happy for him,

(half truth & half lie)

I was happy for him that things are well but at the same time i hurt cuz i was so wanting to be with him, but as to what my friends say, that it will not last nd its only a matter of time.



I dont think so in my eyes, he is gone and i stand alone as always.



Why do i torture myself when it comes to guys that i like, that are taken or in limbo for a while before they crawl back to their evil women? I will never know, so i hurt in the meantime.



Just once i would like to have one of the good ones in my life, and not a jerk. *sniff sniff as eyes begin to well up* ANd i had that chance, but i think i just blew it last nite.



I was talking to him and letting him know that i was happy for him (TRUTH) and that i will be fine, (LIE) and i told him how i felt and that he will always have a place in my heart like so few do, and well now i think its just a place and not a home.



I hate this. i try and try and get hurt in some way.

I just want to feel love again, i ache for it, ache for companionship and affection of another, wanting not to be alone and without pain of it all.



My time in this area i feel will not come to me for a while and i hurt and feel like shit cuz i know that, that to me being with someone gives me reasons to live.





I cry as my heart bleeds in pain for love.

Man oh man, i tell ya. As i walked onto the subway, last nite to meet up with a frined, i saw 3 ppl that were all covered in purple pain, for whatever reason, why i dont know...all i know is that, i had to make a choice to make a comment or not... well i did and it was originally going to be about the blue man group but they were purple... so insted i said to them, that they looked a sexually frustrated...ha ha ha !



but only 2 out of 3 purple people thought it was funny.



I went over to talkto them thinking they might be funt to talk to....i say ne-ne!



one of them was an engineer and he thought of himself as this hot shot, will after telling him off i felt better, and started to laugh at the thought of them being purple and al night i was on this purple people tangent, man i had fun with it.



but to top it all off that engineer fleshbag, called me a racist...what does he know about me, fuck him...hes the one racist. that low life of a waste of skin flesh bag.



pppptttthhhhhhhhh! on him. >:D

One in sorrow, one in pain.

Guess what? I came home alone again.



Tears fall at dismissed guestures of no

I was throwing myself at them and they told me to go.



No lovin could be found by a sweet young lass.

To whon she liked most , she grabed his ass.



To one that is better than gold

for she is lovely fair and bold.



She saw what she wanted, from the get go, thats right.

but alass he said no and left her for the night.



she cried on ones shoulder to let out something sappy.

for she really needed to cheered up and to get happy.



She just wanted to be free of her sexuality,

but it came to a screeching hault to reality.



No way now she will get a man

for her life is now down the can.



so she crys herself to sleep with the pain of the night.

so she can wake up the next day feeling sunny and bright.



no love will come to pass,

no love will come to this lass.