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i'm tired... mentally exhausted



i try so hard. but never seem to reap the benefits.



i'm submissive to those who deserve my obedience. i'm dominant over those who need my dominance. i defend those whom i love and care about, make my family bigger with each new deserving participant in my life...



and it's just another day in the life of this college vampire... another day, another time, same problems that remain unresolved.



on that note. family.

family isn't just blood anymore. it's no longer who's genetics you hold in your body. it's who is there for you when you are alone in the dark with nothing but the thirst... family are the ones who give you life by being the sourse of energy to keep living. family is the one thing in this community you can't give up. our coven is our family, our mentor is our elder, and through that dinamic we learn the values we should have learned long ago but maybe didn't stick. or maybe those people turned their backs, or maybe they just don't fully understand... either way family is what we make of it.

i've been looking for vampires like me... i'm a starving sanguine living souly on psy energy once or twice a week from a donor. most people are in hiding... so i guess now would be a bad time to come out and find people...



i feel like that one little kid in all the movie scenes of a disaster or an emergency... you know... that little kid that stands there with the eyes shut and the mouth open screaming or crying... looking around and just standing there...



more about me. i'm a vampire since my awakening i suppose... i awakened during middle school... i contracted SMS and autovampirism... which i don't suggest... a lot of my views of my body have been made from those days... i'm not very confident... though i am good at faking it...



so far i've been met with negativity and bullshit... i'm tired of it. so my friend directed me here and said that it's built this way to filter out the bullshit... so i'm excited to see what becomes of this site... hopefully i can get a few interviews..



oh right i should explain that. well i'm a cultural anthropology student in college... i'm a junior second semester... and i hope that i can use the culture of vampires as a topic for my senior thesis and my mini ethnography for my subcultures class this semester... half of it is for my class, but most of it is for me to integrate myself into the online and irl communities...



hopefully i'll be accepted here... i've never met another vampire... it's strange to think that i'm not alone anymore...



oh by the way my motto is everything is false until proven otherwise...