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I feel like my life has been turned upside down. My heart was crushed more than ever. I don't find happiness in anything anymore... everything just seems so pointless without him talking to me. Nothing matters to me anymore. I broke some kids heart like 20 times in one conversation.. and i didnt even care. I just feel like such a bad person for letting him have so much control over me... we havent been together in about 10 months.. but we were still friends.. and now he wont even tell me to leave him alone. it hurts so much. he matters the world to me. everyone tells me to move on. and hes a bad person. but i cant. theres no one to move on to. im just really confused and lost now... all i want to do is go around screaming.. i just feel like he was a huge part of me . and now theres nothing there. no love. no hate. no caring. i feel like im a totally different person now. i just wish he would at least talk to me. then maybe i would be okay. maybe i could be a little like i used to , i wouldnt cry myself to sleep. i wouldnt go around hurting people that care about me,,, i just feel liek such a stupid screwup lately...