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When the lightning crashes,

a new soul finds its plan.

Draped in flesh baptised in blood,

it lives to learn its damned.

Every thought a brand new moment,

each day of reknewing breath.

Every second delluded by love,

when you should be awaiting death.

Its not death if you dont see it,

Life wont hurt if you wont feel it.

Love can burn where there's no fuel.

If you deny them you cant be fooled.

Hearts cant break where your is missing.

Blood is spilled while you were wishing.

Dont you dare fall while che's charmeing.

Dare to love its most alarming.

Live and learn child but never catch her.

Dont be her partner be her master.

I was alive before you kissed me,

how I wish that love had missed me.

Left me whole and yet unkowing.

still unloved the overflowing.

With the knowledge that I could be.

Instead I have the doubts that you left me.

Living lonley was an option.

Before I sold myself at your auction.

Into pain I am still living.

Loveing you was not that easy.

Better to not love and lose it.

Its not love if you dont chose it.

Plant my name upon the grass,

a man who might have lived.

Who might have gone and had a life,

who gave up what was his.



Carve my name upon a plate,

in letters forged in stregth and shame.

A man who never left a mark,

that could not be cleansed by the rain.

My rage it is contagious,

my pain it is the sea.

My hate is slef replacing,

the victim always me.



I hate the man I am,

the person I became.

The spinless ass you made me,

you left and left my pain.



My poison fills my cup,

my venom is all yours.

You were the object of my love,

while i was just your whore.



You took the boy I was,

the man I could have been.

Replaced my years of promise,

with age and should have been.



For love I was your Puppet,

I ate and drank and talked.

Free of you I'm rageing,

long live the jaberwalk.

I'd rather then you told the truth,

instead you fade away.

you wont confront with the issue,

instead leave the fray.

I'd with you would just be my friend,

instead you always laugh.

Behind my back you turn to run,

and I guess that that is that.

I'd rather you be upfront with me,

you call me on my shit.

Instead you run without a word,

like a rat on a sinking ship.

You said we're cool and that we're friends,

that I worry uneccessarily.

But in the end I was correct,

friendships not to be.

I'd wish for once you were upfront,

pretend and tell the truth.

Instead you lie and say we're friends,

your actions are all the proof.

I'd wish that you were honest dear,

just tell me what you need.

Instead you ingore me and just avoid,

the friend you had in me.

Its better to have loved and lost,

then never to have loved.

Its better to have lost you once,

and never lost your trust.

Come whatever trial may come,

ride on into my pain.

I know that I will love you most,

and never the same again.

The sun can rise, the moon call fall,

the world can fall apart.

Just no that I will love again,

but its you that has my heart.

Piece by piece i built myself,

with pieces you approved.

I tossed away the parts of me,

that were mirrored by you.

I sold my soul to love you,

I remade myself at will.

I stoped being the man i was,

and now i want to kill.

I want to kill my feelings,

my memories of you.

I want to stop the hurting,

from love i thought was true.

But now i'm back to normal,

I live for only me.

No more loving nature,

Colder then the sea.

I am just what i wanted,

to be just what I can.

I am a living iceberg,

and not your matchstick man.

These are the eyes that first saw you,

These are the lips that you kissed.

These are the hands the first held you.

This is the heart that was ripped.

This is the soul that you walked on.

This is the love tossed away.

This is the man you abandoned.

I hope that you just stay away.

These are the eyes that you looked in.

These are the lips that first spoke.

These are the hands that once touched you.

This is the heart that you broke.

This is the soul that I sold off.

This is the love you betrayed.

This is the man you left dying.

This is the way I will stay.

Where once i was warm and was careing.

That man went and died in your arms.

Now i am cold as the vacum of space.

dead feeling can come to no harm.

You promised that you loved me

your swore to me you cared.

You told you would be there,

i believed but now dont dare.

You told me that you woould be there,

that it was the world against us two.

Not a fucking thing you say,

ever is the truth.

When waiting was inconvient,

you left and found another man.

So much for the lonely two of us,

takeing our last stand.

I know that i cant trust you,

you or all your kind.

You killed all women for me,

but dont dont pay a mind.

So now i lay here bitter,

nither happy nor even sad.

Instead i live in anger,

fidning comfort in being mad.

I am done with bullshit,

the lies i tell myself.

I am done with deception,

that shit it never helps.

I am done with hope,

wishes dont come true.

I am done with happy,

i cant be without you.

I am done with all things,

the happy and the sad.

I am waiting for rebirth,

but for now I am just mad.