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( Warning, no kids allowed LMAO!)For my soldier, best friend, lover and soul mate...Jonathan
04:11 Nov 21 2006
Times Read: 630

Sweetie, how I wish I could hold you tonight, rub your back, bring you as much coffee as you could handle, and just spoil your sexy ass.



I'm trying not to worry about your new job, and am just thinking of how I will show you my love now, and when you get home. Baby, you work so hard, and sleep so little. When you get home, I want you to put those feet up, rest your knee, sleep in when ever you need to, eat whatever you want, and oh...yes! ;)( I want to bring you to my den of love, and pleasure you till you pass out with a smile on your face!!!!! MMMHH, and lick, kiss, suck and tease Mr. yummy, till you howl like a wolf, and cum all over me!!!! DO I make you horny baby????)



When your days seem too long, and you feel lonely , cold, and tired....think of me. Remember the feeling of being in my arms, and the taste of my kisses. Remember the look in my eyes when we made love, remember the tears I cried...because you made me feel so loved.

(Oh and remember those huge burritos, oh hell yes, we are going back there to eat when you get home!!! LOL!)



Soon we will be together again, you just keep your ass safe, and protect your friends.



I love you...Always!!!!!!!!!!!!! Love , your Beth

Good night baby!
05:00 Nov 20 2006
Times Read: 633

It's raining outside, & a perfect night for staying in, snuggling, and making love with you all night!

I love you so much , I could fill endless pages trying to express how I feel for you.

I'm saving all this love, just for you, and my heart is so full, it brings happy tears to my eyes tonight.

I love you with all of my heart Jonathan, my life will never be the same , you have changed it forever. * softest kisses* love always Your Beth

I am thankful for....
04:55 Nov 20 2006
Times Read: 634

1. My loving, sweet, children!!!

2. My true soul mate, best friend & lover Jonathan!

3. family, and friends

4 A roof over my head , and enough food not just for my family but to share with others who have nothing.

5. Surviving beatings, and much worse, and being able to help other ladies get through the pain, and move on to be happy.

6. Music, and singing!!!!

5. Every sorrow, and mistake in my past , for they have helped me grow in compassion, and understanding of others. May I never forget to reach out to others who are going through hard times

6. God's unending, unconditional care, and love!!

To Jon, love Eric
04:38 Nov 20 2006
Times Read: 635

Hello Jon! How are you doing?

I made a picture for you tonight. The picture has robots & race car drivers. I made it for you, because I love you. I will be sending you more pictures. from, Ericcccc, oops too many c's, I'm silly like Kevin, ha, ha!

To Jon , Love Kevin
04:32 Nov 20 2006
Times Read: 636

Hi Jon!



I made you a picture tonight. It's a robot with horns, and has laser eyes. I made it f0r you, because you are special to me. I hope you have a good day. I always want you. I drew you a map to our house, and I mailed it two days ago.

I made it cause you are still special.

from, kevinnnnnn, oops too many N's I'm silly, ha,ha!

I know what it's like....
04:21 Nov 20 2006
Times Read: 638

I know what it's like to give your best years to someone , to dream that you have that happily ever after, but know deep down it wasn't meant to be. I know what it's like to have a spouse treat you like a child, or like you're mentally disabled. I know the pain of being told every thing you do is wrong, and never good enough. I know what it's like to have that spouse cheat on you, treat your kids like shit, lie, and then try to get you back, only to hurt you all over again.



But now...thank God I know what real love is, & what it supposed to be. Real love is accepting your mate for who they are, even if you disagree on some things. Real love is trying your best to understand how they feel, and what they need to feel loved. Real love is knowing that you would wait forever , just to be in his arms again, and no other man could take his place.



Yes I know what pain feels like, but now I know, with all my heart, what REAL love feels like!

You are stuck with me soldier, so kiss me already, and that 's an order!!!!
04:03 Nov 20 2006
Times Read: 639

LOL! Sorry for teasing you honey, but I want to make it very clear that the only way I will ever leave your life, is if God takes me, or you tell me you no longer love me... or want me. I'm not worried about it, but even if that happened, I know deep inside I would love you for the rest of my days. Now that I found the man who fills my heart with joy & love, I could never give my heart to anyone else. You are my first true love, and you shall be my last.

Even if God separates us, or some how you push me away. I will be here , and my love for you will not fade away.



You have loved me in a way no other man has or could. I love you so deeply, that I would rather be alone for the rest of my life, than be with any man but YOU!



Your dreams are my dreams, and I want to see your smile when your first book is published.

Most of all, I guess all I ask God for, is the chance to love you, till you see yourself the way I do. Look through my eyes honey! I see you as a smart, tenderhearted, loving, funny, generous, protective man. I've also been blessed to see you as an unselfish, loving, passionate, romantic , oh so kinky lover! You r touch, your love will forever be in my heart.



I want YOU, not any man, but YOU!!!!!

It is up to God , and your own heart what you will do with the unconditional love I offer you.

At this moment, I only wish to rest my head on your chest, snuggled up in your arms, and hear you call me "your Beth." It's so simple really, ....in my heart I want be your Beth forever, regardless of the future.



I want ...I just want you , and your dear sweet heart, to shower with love, and cherish always.

I know it's not up to me, and I'm not going to second guess God, or your own heart. Only you can decide how long you want my heart.

For now I will enjoy every moment, every precious moment of being your Beth. I love you Jonathan Allen!!!!

A love nothing can destroy! ( for my soldier & dearest one)
00:20 Nov 20 2006
Times Read: 642

Ever since I became friends with him, I knew something was different, and very special about him.

Even when I tried to ignore my heart, and date other guys, I found myself thinking of him instead of the guy

I was on the date with, lol! Thus the reason I gave up the whole dating scene. Even as the friendship grew, out of fear I tried to ignore the whispers of my heart, because I didn't think this sweet, broken hearted man could ever love someone like me.



But, this time my heart refused to be ignored or silenced by my fears. The more we talked , and and I got to know him better...the more my heart called out for him.



My heart, soul, and mind called out his name , never letting up, insisting I take the risk, and tell my dearest friend that there was love for him growing in my heart. I was afraid to love him, in fact it took all of my courage to walk up to his door and let him see the love in my eyes.

Some how , a miracle happened and he found that there was love growing in his wounded heart too!



Yes, it pained me to have to leave him so soon, after we truley expressed our love for one another. After the first time he slept in my arms, I knew I'd never want any other man but him.

My arms still ache to hold him every night, and oh how I long to be with him again.



Months have passed, and even though we are thousands of miles apart, at this very moment I feel him with me. I feel his arms around me, and see a sweet smile on his face. There is nothing that can destroy the love that continues to grow in my heart. I know with out any doubt who my soul mate is, and I will wait for as long as it takes to him in my arms again. He is......he is the best gift I could have been given this Christmas, and I got him early...lol! ;)



I love you Jonathan!!!!!

A turning point in my life...
23:59 Nov 19 2006
Times Read: 643






Today I was singing my heart out in church, and praising my Father, when this warmth came over me a peace and incredible joy filled my heart. Many years of pain and rejection fell to the ground, and my heart felt so happy and free I wanted to dance.



I also felt a calm assurance ...because God was whispering to me..." Beth, never be afraid again to let Jon love you, he will not hurt you like others have. Believe Jon loves you, and never hold back your love from him.

Beth, you must trust that I love Jon even more than you do, and know I am with him, protecting him as he fights far way from home.



My daughter, I know the secrets of your heart, those wishes , and dreams you never allow yourself to believe can come true. Rest in me daughter, I will take care of you, your sons, and the man you love! Lay your past behind you



Beth, I have given you a love few will ever find.

I am in control, trust me, and know that I want what is best for you! Beth enjoy the deep love you share with Jon, you have my blessing daughter.

Love that man, and let him see your heart my daughter. He needs your love, even more than he knows!

I love you daughter!! "

63 years, 8 kids, and God knows how many grand/great grand kids later!
05:44 Nov 19 2006
Times Read: 653

My Grandparents will be celebrating their 63rd wedding anniversary this week. Wow, 63 years, of love, laughter , and tears. They raised 8 kids ( my mom is the oldest) and they have so many grand kids, and great grand kids I've lost track, lol!



I have always admired the way my grandparents depended on God for everything, and how they continue to treat each other with tenderness and love. I always wanted the kind of marriage they had, and it hurt when after only 10 years mine went to hell, but still I want a lasting love like my grandparents share. I never in my life heard my grandpa say one bad word about my grandma, and she always smiles and treats him like her knight in shining armour despite his many strokes, and other health issues.



Grandpa and Grandma Breithaupt, I love you, admire you, and thank God for your example of what commitment, unconditional love, and endless romance is all about. May God bless you for all the love you've given to me!

Love, your granddaughter Beth

( Well since the kids are in bed...I'm going upstairs to watch one of those wonderful old black & white romantic movies, and work on finishing Jon's blanket. Maybe the kind of love my grandparents have shared all these years can still happen for people like me. Who knows?? :)



(p.s. If you're reading this Jonathan,

"I love you!!!":)

How I love this man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ( for my friends & those jerks)
04:38 Nov 19 2006
Times Read: 656

Every day it seems I hear from friends, ( or guys hitting on me lol) that there is no way Jon will wait for me, no guy can wait that long for sex and he may already be with someone, so I shouldn't wait for him. They can't see how much Jon means to me, nor do they know that I can feel Jon's love over all the miles that separate us. They don't and can't understand, that it makes me sick to think of any man but Jon touching me. He is the ONLY man I've felt that strongly about.



Yes its hard to sleep with out his arms around me, and yes it is hard to not be able to comfort him when he needs it....but it will be okay! See... because I love him so deeply, there could never be some stupid one night stand, like my friends, ( or horny guys lol) suggest. Why in the hell would I want a night of mediocre , loveless, passionless, meaningless sex with a stranger, when I have the love of my mate every single day? Why can't people see that months before I even met Jon face to face, I quit dating anyone. My heart told me even then , that this man was special, and worth the wait.



So my dear friends, ( and you guys who continue to try and seduce me LMAO ) hear this, and hear it well !!! Jonathan Allen is the only man I want or need today, tomorrow, and for always. I believe it when he says he will wait for me while he's serving in Afghanistan, because I know he truly loves me. I also know my own commitment, and desire to only be with him for the rest of my life.



If you all could only see, HOW I LOVE THIS MAN!!!!!!!

His name.....
04:17 Nov 19 2006
Times Read: 657

His name echoes through my heart & soul, rising till it warms every part of me.....then comes out in soft whispers through my smiling lips.



Today I took my kids , and some old friends to the park, and as we played I thought of how Jon would laugh at the silly antics, of 5 little boys playing together. Surprising even myself, I heard "I love you Jon!" spilling from my lips at the park. This is happening all the time now, and it sort of scares me. The intensity, and depth of this love I have for him continues to amaze me. He makes me feel so loved, so treasured and wanted.

For the first time in my life, I feel accepted for who I am by a man .He never pressures me to look or act like someone else. He loves me for who I am.



I wish to spend the rest of my life loving him, and showing him what an incredibly special man he is!



At first when he went back to Afghanistan it was almost unbearable to be apart from him. It felt like some one had cut my heart in two, and I had to find him. But now,there is this peace, a trust and assurance that my love for him, is true and pure. No fairy tail romance, ....there are now, and are going to be rough times ahead.

No, this is the kind of love, that says, I will not give up on him or our love, not ever, no matter how far apart we may be, no matter how many lonely nights we must endure.



(His name...is written upon my heart, & as silly as it sounds, I believe it was written there when God created my heart. It took many years, many heartaches, and times of personal growth to be ready for my Jonathan. But now, I can't imagine my life with out him in it. )



I love you Jonathan Allen, and I look with anticipation, for the day we will be together again. I am so blessed to have your love, only you could make me this happy!



I love YOU!!!!!!!!!

Your girl always, Beth

Why do I listen to them?
20:54 Nov 18 2006
Times Read: 664

All my life I have been singing, since I was a little girl I was in front of church, singing my little heart out, then as I grew I performed in groups, and musicals. I was offered music scholarships for college. But never took the chance...because my parents said I'd never make it, I should just stick do working, and the whole domestic thing. Well all of these years, I 've done my singing/performing on the side, taught voice lessons for kids, or lead music in church. I never actually took the risks needed because none of my family but my sis, believed in me. ( She quit college despite her genius level musical gifts, amazing abilities to compose entire symphonies, not to mention top grades, because no one believed in her.)



Well now at age 31, I have tons for friends with bands, and yet I never audition for them. Why?

I know I have the vocal training, and gift. I can use my voice to make people laugh, cry, even ask me out lol! And yet my parents negative words hold me back from reaching my dreams.



When I sing for weddings, cruises, church, or even at Karaoke night, people beg me to make a CD so they can buy it. So why? Why, do I listen to my parents instead of other people.

It's time for me to decide if I believe in my God given musical talents..or do I waste my gifts like my sister.

If it was our last kiss.... (for my boyfriend Jon)
20:35 Nov 18 2006
Times Read: 667

(My Jonathan has a new job in Afghanistan, and because I know what that could mean, there is something I want to tell him. )



Jonathan , I never knew what being loved felt like till you came into my life. I was used to giving out love, with out it being returned. But you changed all that, the day you gave me your heart. You are the ONLY man I have ever called my soul mate. Till I met you, I couldn't honestly say that about anyone.



Baby no matter what happens over there, don't forget there is a girl back home, who loves you with all of her heart. She is proud of you, loves you unconditionally, and wants you in her life always!



If the last time we held each other, ..if that was our last kiss, it was worth it! I pray God will be with you, and keep you safe, but if He has other plans...I will not grow bitter. I can honestly say to you that every laugh, every touch, every sweet moment we've shared, has been the happiest of my life. * blushing*



I am forever your Beth, no one could ever take your place in my heart!

I will love you...forever!!!!!

Do I want him?
03:13 Nov 17 2006
Times Read: 674

HELL YES!!! I want his sweet heart, his love, his laughter, his arms around me, and every yummy inch of his body!!!!!!!



I WANT YOU NOW AND ALWAYS JONATHAN ALLEN!!

YOU ARE STUCK WITH ME!!! LOL! ;) love you honey!!!!!!

To Jon, from the boys,
02:17 Nov 17 2006
Times Read: 676

( My sons typed this one themselves/with spelling help, and wrote what ever they wanted to for Jon)





From :Jacob age 10

Thank you for the army men.

Thank you for the books. I cant wait to read them.

from, Jacob









From Eric: ( age 6)



Thank you for the army guys! I like them.

Are you doing good?

I hope you have a good night!

It is okay if you pet our cat.

When is it your birthday?

I love you very much.

love, Eric



From Kevin: ( age 5)

Thank you for my army guys! I like playing with them! Will you be my friend?

I like you. I love you.

I really really like you.

I really really like those army guys.

I hope you have a good night sleep.

from, Kevin

A box of love!
01:52 Nov 17 2006
Times Read: 678

Today has been hard for many reasons, but something came in the mail that made every care and sorrow disappear, and placed a huge smile on my face!



I opened my mail box to find a box, ...and when I saw the address, I pretty much danced back to my car, lol! I drove to my kids' school to wait for them , and in the quiet of the afternoon opened the box . The first thing I looked at was a letter, a sweet, funny letter from my mate Jon!

I read it over and over again, smiling and laughing out loud. Then I saw a little New Testament Bible, I opened it and read the message inside, almost cried with joy too! *blushing*



There were other sweet items like soldiers for my kids( my boys love them, have been playing with them all afternoon, and say "thank you Jon!!!")There was also a really cool coffee mug, chop sticks, books, a hat , and oh yes some "sock puppets" lol!



( Guess I'll have to start a sock drawer in my dresser for you honey;)



( There was also an object Jon will have to explain to me ;)



Isn't it amazing how a crappy day, can become a wonderful day, just from connecting with someone you love?

( I must say my favorite thing in that box was the letter & the Bible, but it was all very sweet honey!)



I have never had a man write me such tender words, or be so kind to me. It's not really about the gifts, but about the love my Jon sent to me.

That love brought me happiness, on a day I felt so discouraged and tired.



Thank you honey, I love you!!!!!!!!!!

Good night my love
06:50 Nov 16 2006
Times Read: 683

As I slip my naked body under my blankets, and snuggle down deep, holding the teddy "Jon, Jon" against my breast to keep your spot warm for you, ......I think of you my love! I imagine you sleeping in your bunk, your faced relaxed, dreaming of dragons & battles, and perhaps even dreaming of me.



I take one last look at your photo, and whisper

" I love you, good night baby!" Then turn off the light. As I drift off to sleep, I can feel your love with me, and I smile knowing I will meet you in my dreams! :)



( Good night baby, I love you!!!!)

Why I love you!
06:39 Nov 16 2006
Times Read: 684

( I'm sure the words will come out wrong, and I will mess it up, but here it goes anyways!:)





I love you not for the work you do, though having you out there protecting us does make me proud.



I love you not for any gift you have or ever would give me, just having your love is enough for me.



I love you not for your looks,( though I find you very handsome and sexy,) because in my eyes you will always be the best man on this planet.



Jonathan, my dearest one , I love you for YOU!

I love you for your wonderful sense of humor, and the way you don't mind my crazy ass humor, lol! I love you for your tender heart, and the gentle respect you've always shown me.

I love you for all that makes you , YOU! And yes, I love you when you are tired, and want some rest , even if you need some time alone. I love you when your health is not the best, and only wish to hug you, hold your hand, and offer my comfort & love.

I love you when your sad, and need some TLC, or some good old fashioned sexual harassment to cheer you up. ;) I love you for all that you've been through, and the man you are today. I will love you as you change with time, and understand that war will bring about some changes in you when you come home.



I am here to be your lover, comforter, and best friend. Not because I feel I have to, but because I love you , and wish to spend what ever time you decide to give me, loving you with all of my heart!



My love for you continues to grow daily, and deep inside I wish to feel your love for as long as you want me.



There is no place I'd rather be, than with YOU!

To keep my love warm,
02:02 Nov 16 2006
Times Read: 689

Every time I have a free minute, or when the house is quiet after the kids go to bed, I get out the blanket I'm crocheting for Jon, and think of him with every soft, warm row I finish. I think of how I wish I could be there to wrap my arms around him every night.

And in a way , I'm not just making a blanket for Jon, but adding my hopes, dreams and love every moment I work on it.



I pray when my Jonathan get his blanket, and snuggles into it , he will feel my loving arms around him, feel how dear he is to me, feel the unconditional love I have for him in my heart.



I know to many it's no big deal & even silly, but making this blanket to keep Jon warm has helped me through many lonely nights.



I love you my sweet soldier!

I just have to let it out, lol!
21:02 Nov 15 2006
Times Read: 692

Have you ever had one of those really crappy months, and yet your heart is so filled with love that you are happy anyways?



Have you ever been in pain, and yet a thought, memory or just hearing the voice of your mate makes you grin like a fool and feel loved?



Have you ever loved someone so deeply that your chest hurts, you can't imagine life with out them, and you long to share the rest of your life with them?



Have you ever prayed many times a day, that God would keep the one you love safe , and comfort them when you can not?



I have had the blessing to experience all of this.

The more time I spend apart from my mate, the more I appreciate him, and have learned what real love feels like through him. All my life my heart has searched, ached, wished for a man who I will connect with in every way, and love with all of my heart. Finally after much heartbreak and sorrow, I have found him! Even my children think he's someone pretty special, and they don't know him very well. I believe they see how happy I am , and know that my love for my children, & loving Jon is what causes me to smile.

I just have to let out some of this joy, or my heart will explode!

I love you Jonathan Allen!

For Jon, love Kevin
04:29 Nov 15 2006
Times Read: 695

While riding in the car after the kids got out of school, my 5 year old son asked me when Jon was coming home. I told him I hoped Jon would be here some time this next summer. Kevin asked me " could Jon get hurt over there?" I said "we will pray he wont get hurt, but yes there is a chance. " Then Kevin asked very softly, " could...Jon get killed over there?" I answered that "we will pray God will keep him safe, but yes some soldiers will die over there." Then Kevin said very sweetly " I hope Jon stays safe, I don't want him to die , cause he is a very special person to me."



This whole conversation kind of caught me off guard, because my son has never met Jon in person. He has heard me talk about Jon, he has taken the teddy bear ( he named "Jon Jon") that Jon gave me, with him to the doctors office for comfort. He has spoken a few words to Jon on the phone, but never talked to him face to face. But some how my little 5 year old is falling in love with Jon, just as I have. Kevin colored Jon a picture ( many more will come) and mailed it off to him, ...he so excited for Jon to get it lol!

Kevin has a sensitive personality like I do, and tells those he cares about " I love you!" everyday. I'm pretty lucky to hear mommy" I love you!" so often.

I guess kids are the best judges of character, because I'm pretty crazy about Jon myself.



So SGT Sneaky, looks like you have a little boy who cares about you, ...hope you don't mind if the words " guess what? I love you Jon!" pop out of his mouth sometime when you get home. :)

For our Soldiers!
03:55 Nov 15 2006
Times Read: 696

Why is it we pay a bunch of politicians disgustingly enormous amounts of $ , and make our troops go through hell financially, physically, and personally? These congressmen and women ride around in limousines, while our troops go with out body Armour, good food, and decent medical care. They deserve the best medical care for themselves , as well as their families. No soldier should have to need food stamps to feed his/her family, nor be unable to provide what his/her family needs.



My friend Mike is not even 30 yet, and his back is all fucked up from injuries in the Navy seals, and the pain has worsened now that he is in the Special ops. He loses sleep, and is in great pain, because all the docs. do is give him week-ass pills, and tell him to deal with the pain. He started doing yoga, just to do whatever he could to make his back feel better. This huge man has to lift heavy equipment and weapons, and is sent overseas all the time. It pisses me off he has to do his job in pain.



Now I am again angered by the fact my mate Jon( the man I love,) gets sucky medical care too. It hurts my heart to know he's in so much pain! :(



These people are out there protecting our asses, why does our country take them for granted?



I will never understand it!

prayer for inner peace
18:43 Nov 14 2006
Times Read: 704

Lord you know what I'm going through right now, the tears I cry when the kids are fast asleep. You know what he is doing, the things he says, his attempts to hurt me, and make me feel worthless and unloved. You know Lord, you see that in my heart I don't want to be like him, or act like him in any way. So Father I'm trusting in you, to do whats best. If that means selling my house and almost everything I own, just to have peace, I will obey. If it should mean working two jobs, and taking other measures to protect myself from him I will. Or maybe Lord you have something else in mind.



Father I look to you for wisdom, I look to you for the answers. You alone can show me what to do. Let me not worry or stress out about finances, my health or my son Kevin's health.

Let me never doubt you are in control of everything. Help me continue to be a rock for my kids, no matter how alone I feel at times.

And Father please, help me not to push Jon away, help me to block out shat the ex. says, help me remember Jon loves me and would never use me then throw me away. Help me to always trust Jon, and remember that some fools aren't worth listening to.



Thank you Father for my three sons, my Jonathan, my family and friends. Thank you for a roof over my head, food to eat, oh and the glorious sun shining outside. Thank you for all of your many blessings! Amen! :)

A dream is a wish your heart makes , when you're fast a sleep!
05:53 Nov 14 2006
Times Read: 710

Okay so you already know that's a line from a song, but it's true. Sometimes life is rough, and we can actually find comfort in sleep. In my case I do have three funny, great little boys. But.... there is this soldier I am absolutely crazy about, and the only time I get to be with him is in my dreams. Lately I have had wonderful dreams about snuggling with him in my own bed. Some times I'm holding him against my breast, and other times my head is resting right above his heart, his arms around me. These dreams are like little gifts, sweet wishes that only come true when I fall asleep.



I'm not sure if my mate knows just how dear he is to me, or how deeply I love him. I long for him to know , to feel that he is not only loved, but also see he is a wonderful man, a handsome man, and man I think is better than all the rest. I want him to look into my eyes when he comes home, to see the love shining there, to know he is wanted , and accepted just as he is.

There is something I desire to whisper in his ear when he comes home, and though I 'm scared to tell him, I will let him know just how much he means to me no matter what the risk.



These are my dreams, my wishes, the secret whispers of my heart. I know tonight when I close my eyes, I once again shall be with my love!

( Good night honey, I love you and hope you get some sleep!)

Some teasing for my soldier's amusement! ;)
05:17 Nov 14 2006
Times Read: 714

( Over the loud speaker he hears, "Sgt Allen , return to your quarters for a special medical evaluation!")



He stands slowly , his knee in great pain, he lets out a grunt ...just a little pissed off at this stupid

"special medical evaluation " order. I mean what in the hell is that anyway? He's already been to a doc. who told him all about his knee, and gave him those worthless pills. Finally he opens the door to his hut, his face set like stone ready for any frigging tests he has to go through.



But then....he smells something sweet...something VERY familiar! Is he going crazy? He's sure that is the very perfume Beth wears. Glancing around his small room, he sees for the first time there are candles glowing all around the room, and a small table is covered with home made goodies , and OMG is that REAL beer??? His look of surprise turns to shock, when he sees who is lounging on his bed.

There is his Beth, in a short tight, naughty nurse outfit, high heels , fish nets, and a wicked grin on her face.



She stands and walks over to him...looking into his eyes, enjoying his reaction. She sees his pants tent, as he catches a glimpse of her creamy cleavage exposed by her half unbuttoned blouse.



"Come here soldier, I want to kiss you, and help you forget all about your pain." she says.

Then taking him by the hand she lays him on his bunk , and begins to rub his back, while she kisses his neck......the rest I'm afraid is confidential.

You all understand the whole military security thing I'm sure...LMAO!!!!!

prayers during my coffee break
18:37 Nov 13 2006
Times Read: 716

Dear Father, I ask for your strength to not give in, and return the anger and pain he inflicts on me. I ask for your strength to do the right thing, to be strong for my children. Lord I need your peace in my heart. You alone know what I'm, facing right now, and my daily struggles. Father I believe you know best, and I can feel you changing my heart, and helping me to grow in you. Help me to learn from ever struggle, every lonely night, every moment let me come to your arms for comfort. Father remind me I'm not alone, and that you are ALWAYS in control.

Help me to accept what I can not change, and to follow your will not my own.

Thank you Father for never leaving me, for always taking care of me and my children.

Let me never doubt your love, or your wisdom.

I love you!

I'm here for you sweetheart! ( For my Jonathan)
04:06 Nov 13 2006
Times Read: 720

Baby, I know you're in pain right now, and just trying to do your job. I can only imagine your frustration, and concern for the future. Baby, you can tell me anything, don't ever feel the need to hold back, or feel the need to pretend everything is okay. I know life kinda sucks for you right now, and heck...lol, my life has it's own crap too. If we love each other through this, and share our pains and joys, everything will be okay. I love you with all of my heart Jonathan, you never have to wear a "happy mask" for me.

And when you get home.....oh honey, I have arms that are aching to hold you, lips longing to kiss you, and a heart overflowing with unending love, just for YOU!



I will help you through this. You NEVER have to feel alone again my sweet soldier.



I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love forever and a day, your Beth :) XOXO

For my Jonathan, a special hug from me to you!:)
08:23 Nov 12 2006
Times Read: 724

My dearest one, close your eyes baby, and remember the way you felt when you rested your head upon my breasts, remember the comfort and warmth of my arms. Can you hear me softy whispering " I love you Jon" in your ear, as I gently touch your face?

Let your stress and pain melt away my darling, breath in my sweet fragrance, and melt against me. Snuggle closer honey, and sleep my love, just rest and let your worries fade away. Come rest in my love Jonathan, come rest in my love!

Standing up for myself
04:44 Nov 12 2006
Times Read: 727

I've made decisions tonight, and followed through.

Standing up for myself is hard, but worth it.

I will no longer tolerate the cruelty, and raging from the ex. He needs help big time, and I'm NOT going to be his verbal punching bag anymore!

A love that continues to grow...
03:28 Nov 12 2006
Times Read: 729

I was completely unprepared for the intensity of this love growing inside me. Just when I think my heart is so full I couldn't love Jon more, my love grows.

Does he know how special he is to me, how I love him no matter what job he has, no matter what his health issues, ..that nothing could change this love? There is no doubt that he is the man my heart desires. I want to spend forever with him, share every moment of laughter, kiss away all his tears, and make passionate love with him even when we are 100 years old.



I love you Jonathan Allen!!!!!!!!

For my Jonathan
03:20 Nov 12 2006
Times Read: 730

I love you no matter what life throws at us!

I am proud of you, because of the man you are on the inside. You are loved, you are wanted, you have my heart! Believe it, trust me, and never again be afraid to tell me what you are going through.



I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

Why does he treat me that way?
02:46 Nov 12 2006
Times Read: 734

Why does the father of my kids treat me like shit?

Why does he try to pick a fight, when I'm just picking up the kids. It's so embarrassing and degrading for me to have him say such hurtful & disrespectful things in front of the kids. He can't handle the words "no thank you," nor will he let me defend myself when he yells at me. He expects me to remain silent while he verbally tears me down, and accuses me of shit I would never do. So , my only choice is to get the kids ready and out the door ASAP, so they no longer hear their mother being called names and being yelled at.



I'm so tired of being treated like this, and I have no choice but to put up with it.

I love you so much!
20:15 Nov 11 2006
Times Read: 737

It's hard to know you're in pain, and I can't do a damn thing to make you feel better. I can only say I love you with all of my heart, and want to hold you in my arms, more than you could ever know. I love you so much honey, feel better soon!

A new friend....
20:10 Nov 11 2006
Times Read: 739

Through some girls I go out with sometimes, I've made a new wonderful friend. Someone I have tons in common with, and is fun to be with.

Her name is Mary, and her hubby is in the military. Mary understands what it's like to have the one you love, gone for a long time. She knows what it's like when others try to seduce you, yet you know that there is no one night stand, worth losing the best thing that's ever happened to you. I have a feeling God sent Mary to me, at just the right time, I'm so sick of people who don't respect or understand my commitment to Jon. I love him, and only want him!!

Two men who should have had their ass kicked!
10:20 Nov 11 2006
Times Read: 741

Okay I was sitting at the bar eating dinner & waiting for my friend Amber to get off work & show up, so we could play cards.

Lucky me..lol, these two jerks sat by me and proceeded to hit on, harass and try to "seduce " me . LMAO! I told them flat out I wasn't available, and already have the man I want. Well these jerks bothered me through out dinner. Not just some flirting , but they got really gross and creepy.

I was so glad when Amber showed up!

( I wish I could have kicked those horny little pricks in the ass with my spiked heels, and shown them the meaning of, NO!!!!!!!)

Some guys are just assholes I guess, lol!

I miss you so much! ( For my Jonathan)
10:11 Nov 11 2006
Times Read: 742

Tonight I went out with the girls, just so I wouldn't sit at home and let the tears fall. So instead I got up, and sang from my heart, expressing the love I have for you, and you alone. I wish I hadn't missed your phone call Jon, I so wanted to hear your voice.



I miss you, love you, and will be here with loving arms to hold you, when you come home!!!!!

With all my love, your Beth

Short work day ;)
18:58 Nov 10 2006
Times Read: 752

Well my kids are home from school since this is Veterans day, and will be going to the ex-in laws house for two days to visit with grandparents.

So... I thought I'd make this a short work day.

I may go down to Players and Spectators with Amber tonight, who knows. Last time she taught me how to play Black Jack casino style, and I bet only $10 worth of my own cash and made $ 200 in two hours. I enjoy card games but that was my first time gambling. ( I love to play board games and card games with my kids :)I will never gamble any large amount, because I have three kids to be responsible for. But ...it's fun to find out from the dealers, that you won more $ on your first night than the regulars. Maybe I can take $10 tonight and win enough $ to buy that hot tub???? ;) LOL!!!



( Hey Jon, you know the house will be too quiet with out the kids, how about you cum over and make me scream???:) LOL!

FOR OUR VETERANS!!!!!!!!
18:28 Nov 10 2006
Times Read: 755















Thank you for giving us the best country in the world! Thank you for every sacrifice you've made. Many of you have lost friends, lovers,$, and have endured ridicule from those you protect. YOU, and our troops now serving are what keep this country together, with -out you we are nothing!!!



I honor my Grandpas, My father, my brother, my uncles, my cousins who served. I honor all of our Veterans, who bravely stood up for freedom!



I say thank you to our troops, THANK YOU, for all you do!!! Most of all I thank, and honor my mate, I couldn't be prouder of a man. You are my hero honey, my God keep you safe, and guide you all in your work over there!



THANK YOU VETERANS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stopping a control freak....
18:17 Nov 10 2006
Times Read: 755

There are some people who have no idea that their need to control others, to uses others for $ , sex, or make others feel worthless, is just because they are insecure.



Well I had to deal with one of those in the past, and he's trying to hurt me now through $, and my kids. But I won't let it happen. I'm making some sacrifices like selling my car and paying cash for a more economical one, changing jobs, and yes....believing in love, trusting my mate Jon fully. I don't give a crap what the ex. thinks or says, I KNOW deep in my heart Jon would never use me, or intentionally hurt me. I don't know what the future holds for Jon & I , but I do know the ex. is dead wrong. For you see, Jon is NOT like him. Jon loves me , thinks I 'm beautiful, and treats me like I'm special to him. I love Jon for his heart, his sweet, tender heart.



The control is over, and I will enjoy every moment I'm given with my sons, and my mate!

KING!!! Just for you honey...lol!
00:02 Nov 10 2006
Times Read: 757

Kissable

Intriguing

Naughty

Give it to me BABY!!!!



( Yes you ARE my yummy king, and I'm your wicked kitchen wench, so cum spank me your highness! I've been a very , VERY naughty wench!;)

Get in this bed soldier, and that's an order, lol!
21:24 Nov 09 2006
Times Read: 762

Holy heck, I swear this man of mine needs a good spanking! I give those characters in his novel one warning, that if they don't let him get some rest, I'm going to kick some ass!!!!



My man needs sleep, & REAL food. I can't speak for him but I think he also needs some loving arms to fall asleep in, oh and some very passionate naughty love making to help him feel warm all over too! I volunteer for that job...ooh pick me , pick me!!!! ;) LOL!

Take care of your self soldier, don't make me go all " love crazed girlfriend" on your ass!

I love you baby!
08:35 Nov 09 2006
Times Read: 764

Well, I was sleeping for about an hour, and then awoke with the sudden need to tell you I love you! Some day , I will be able to just whisper it in your ear, but tonight I will leave this for you honey.



" I LOVE YOU JONATHAN ALLEN!"



It's back to bed for me, mr. teddy better keep me warm till you come home ;)

They got the hint ....lol!
00:48 Nov 09 2006
Times Read: 773

Just a quick funny story from today. I was running an errand for work , and ended up at one of those ware houses that are all male, all the time lol! Well these three guys started hitting on me and wouldn't stop so I said," hey dumb asses, go take a look at my Durango!"

At first they noticed all the ARMY & Support Our Troops ribbons, then they saw the sticker that has a big American flag heart on it , & says... "I love my soldier! ARMY"

They finally took the hint, and walked away embarrassed! :)

A day of joy! ( a few thoughts while on my coffee break)
19:20 Nov 08 2006
Times Read: 781

My heart is happy today, for so many reasons even though my body is sick, and I feel very fatigued.



Today is my oldest son Jacob's tenth birthday!!!!!!

It's hard to believe just ten years ago, he came into the world. I feel so in love with his chubby cheeks, and beautiful red hair , those tiny fingers and toes. Jacob was a true answer to prayer, because after losing 3 tiny babies before they could enter the world, finally God allowed me to hold this one in my arms. Jacob was sick for quite a while, but he grew stronger and oh so happy!

Now at ten years old, he's almost as tall as I am, his feet are bigger than mine, and he's starting to whoop me in monopoly, lol! He is so mature for a kid his age, not because he's exposed to the wrong stuff, I don't allow that.

But he is mature, for what he's been through.

I have had to remind him since he was 4 that he doesn't have to fill in for his dad. He is still a kid, and should be having fun.

I know his brothers see him as a father figure, and Jacob helps out so much around the house too.



He has finally moved past the stage of acting out in anger, over feeling rejected by his dad. In the last month I've seen a very positive change in Jacob, and his heart is beginning to soften again, as he lets his feelings out.

I'm trying so hard to love him through this , and let him know his feelings are important, and he can always come to me to talk , or even just get a hug. (I think children are a product of their raising. If you love your child through the tough times , and teach them to respect others and them selves, they will show that later. Children don't respect parents who place conditions on love, or parents who can never get their act together...drama sucks lol! I want to be a GOOD mother!)



My smart, sweet, special Jacob, I love you and am proud to have you for a son! It doesn't matter to me what job you have when you grow up, as long as you do your best, love others, and most of all I want to know you're happy!

Happy birthday honey!!! I baked alot of love into your cake buddy :) Love Mom

Good night dearest one!
06:18 Nov 08 2006
Times Read: 785

The last thing I whisper every night is,

"good night baby!"



Then I close my eyes, and remember all of the wonderful moments I spent with you on your leave.



I remember waking up with you in my arms, and just watching your dear face as your slept. That was the very first time I saw you relaxed, and at peace. I'm not sure why, but some how you just fit in my arms perfectly!



I remember so well our last day together , and how I would gaze at you, and be so filled with love. I would blush when I looked at you,....and giggle when you teased me. You are the only man who can make me blush lol!



I remember saying good bye, then ...driving around the corner to catch just one more glimpse of you.



Oh..and here's how sappy I am, lol! I still have my fave text messages from you, saved on my phone!



So...anyways honey, what I 'm trying to say, is somehow you sneaky'd into my heart, and I never want you to leave!



Good night dearest one, I love you!!!!!!

Love always , your Beth



p.s. every night ...in my heart, I'm holding you in my arms.

Small hands to hold!
03:58 Nov 08 2006
Times Read: 792

My little sons, how much joy you bring to my heart! I love to hold you, and watch you fall asleep on my breast. My heart is filled when you giggle and smile, and I love the way you always forgive each other, and are best buddies!



Kevin tonight, with your sweet rosy cheek resting on my breast, and your small hand in mine, you fell fast asleep. How well I remember holding you like that when you were a tiny baby.

I remember singing to you and your brothers, every night, till you fell asleep....what precious children you are!



Thank you God for small hands to hold, and for my sweet soldier!

You can't walk away from real love
03:38 Nov 08 2006
Times Read: 795

So many guys hit on me when I go out, even at my kid's school. When I tell them I already have a man I'm deeply in love with, who is serving over in Afghanistan, the guys say "are you really going to wait THAT long?"

And you know what? My heart now answers...

" I'd be a fool to throw away the man who moves my soul, fills my heart with happiness, loves me just as I am, and stirs an unquenchable passion with in me!"



Yes I would wait years for this man if necessary.

There have been a few times I thought I was in love, but then saw that the man didn't really love me for who I was on the inside, and in my heart I knew that we just didn't fit together.

But then....God brought HIM into my life!

A tired, sad , hurting, and yes angry soldier.

( But I saw something in him, ..the soft heart he hid to protect himself from more hurt. I saw the romantic side of him, the sweet tenderness shining behind his wall of pain.)



I knew he wanted to push me away, afraid I would hurt him & leave him. But in my heart something started to grow. First a sweet friendship, then ...to my surprise love!

I was scared , scared to admit my feelings to him, worried I'd be rejected. But when he opened that door, and I looked into his lonely, pain filled eyes, I knew my soul had come home. As the days passed, my heart was filled with a deeper desire to love, and be loved by this man. Despite my fears, I knew I had to let him know how special he was to me.

so I took the risk, and saw the protective layers surrounding his heart, begin to melt away, till finally, he said he loved me too.



Since then , there have been a few times I still got scared. It's hard to deal with feelings you've never had before for ANY man!

But today, I can say with out a doubt, I will love this man forever. I didn't look for him, my heart brought me to his door, and gave me the most wonderful gift I could receive, ...his love!



So to all of those horny, shallow men who continue to hit on me, I say " You can't walk away from real love! I'd rather God took me to be with Him, then be in the arms of any other man than my Jonathan."



I know deep in my heart that this special soldier is the man God made me to love, and be loved by. I no longer question God about it, I have a peace that is allowing me to leave my past hurt behind me, and enjoy the real love I've found...the man who fills my heart with joy, my soul mate Jonathan!

I am yours now and always! ( for my soldier)
22:43 Nov 07 2006
Times Read: 799

Never fear my dear , I'm yours now and always.

If you only knew just how much I love you! If you could only read my thoughts as I look at your photo every night before I go to bed, and whisper

"good night baby!" ( Do you know that I wish to hold you every night for the rest of our lives?)

*Now I'm really blushing lol!*



Look into my eyes when you get home my soldier, and let your fears melt away. Only God Himself could take me to heaven & tear my heart from yours, .... this love was meant, just for YOU!



Stay safe honey, and know that I mean it when I say I love , need you, and want you in my life...forever. Someday you see just how special you are to me, oh my Jonathan....I am yours!

God answers prayer.... ( Don't read if it offends you)
20:03 Nov 07 2006
Times Read: 801

Last night , before I went to sleep, I wept and prayed to God. Giving Him my full trust, and believing that he will take care of me & the kids, I gave all my burdens to Him. I slept very well last night, knowing that some how God would give me strength, and hope for every tough day ahead.



You know what? Even though I know sometimes God decides to wait, or even provides what we need in a different way then we would choose,

I trusted Him to answer my prayers. Why?

Because , for most of my life I've had no one else but Him to depend on, not financially, or emotionally. I've had to learn to trust God, and know that His way is ALWAYS best. The times my life has been really messed up, are the times I turned my back on God.



Today God answered my prayers in some very strange ways, but he answered none the less.



The bills, well ....they will get paid, I always make sure of that.



My 5 year old son will have to go to another doc. next week to remove the growth, have it cauterized to kill all the cells, then have stitches. I'm just glad he will be okay, because he is my little love bunny, and a wonderful sweet son.



Thank you God for answering my prayers! I love you Father!

Bubble bath!!! :)
06:19 Nov 07 2006
Times Read: 803

Some how I think I've earned a nice hot bubble bath... so I'm going upstairs , getting all naked, slipping into those bubbles, and reading a sappy romance novel!



( I love you Jonathan, good night baby!)

All I need is you!
06:12 Nov 07 2006
Times Read: 805

I've never been a rich woman, grew up very poor, and learned that love is what matters most in life. So on hard days like this, all I can say is I am SO RICH IN LOVE! I have 3 sweet, funny little boys to love, and a mate...a soul mate that fills my heart with happiness, and a love that's beyond my understanding. I'm a blessed woman Jonathan Allen, and all I need is you!

Just wanna snuggle up!
00:11 Nov 07 2006
Times Read: 807

All I really want to do is just snuggle up with my Jon, place my head on his chest...an cry till it doesn't hurt any more. I'm so thankful for his love, and hope he feels my love too!

Strength for today....
00:03 Nov 07 2006
Times Read: 814

Some days , the ONLY thing that keeps me going is the strength God gives me, and the reminder of the love I have for my kids & Jon.



Well today started off with the terrible wind storms & rain ,( that continue to gust as I write this.) Needless to say , no one in the house wanted to get up this morning lol!



Well despite a migraine I managed to fill the kids up with hot cocoa, eggs and fruit , then got them off to school.. then headed for down town Spokane to pull a permit.....that's when it started.

My truck frigging broke down in the pouring rain, and I ended up at the repair shop, coughing up a shit load of $ , and thinking I really don't have time for this crap today. Then as I waited for my car to be repaired ...I got a call from my son's pediatrician, about the tests they did on him last week. The doc. says it's skin cancer, and it needs to be removed tomorrow morning. So I get to take my 5 year old in tomorrow to be cut on.

But my day didn't stop there, oh no!

I got a call that one of the builders bounced a flipping $15,000.00 check he wrote my company, which in turn fucked up my accounts.



I wont even go into the rest of my day lol, it all just sucked.



All I can say is screw the fact I just had to flush all my savings down the tiolet to fix my truck, and screw all the medical bills, oh yeah and screw the shit my ex. pulled, "thank you God for the strength to make it through today, and all of the rough days ahead!"

I get the feeling this is just the start of a very hard winter, but I will make it, and be stronger for it! ( Even though I did cry my head off in my truck today lol!)

A slow dance ( For my Jonathan)
21:30 Nov 05 2006
Times Read: 821

All night I've been turning down men,

my girl friends all laugh,

thinking I'm crazy.

But what they don't see,

is inside my heart,

YOU are slow dancing with me.

As the music spins it's romantic spell,

I snuggle closer into your arms,

knowing deep inside my heart,

I love to be swept up in your charms!





So hold me , never let me go,

take all of me, I give you my heart,

not miles ,or wars, NOTHING my dear,

will ever keep us apart!

I'm a romantic nerd, lol!
00:42 Nov 05 2006
Times Read: 826

I wanted to get some charms for the bracelet Jon gave me. So...today I got a charm that reads " I love my kids" and I also got the letters to spell out Jon's name...and a heart to go next to it. Okay now I'm really blushing and feel a little silly, but who cares. I feel so lucky to have my three sons, and my wonderful mate to love.

I wouldn't trade them for the world!



( I wear my charm bracelet EVERY day...if I forget to slip it on in the morning, I feel naked with out it. I reminds me of all the wonderful moments Jon and I shared on his leave this last summer.

Every time I look at it I think of Jon and smile :)

Worth waiting for!
07:13 Nov 03 2006
Times Read: 830

Okay, so my kids are going to the ex's this weekend, and I will more than likely go out for drinks with the girls, and have some fun with Amber. Man do the girls like to tease me. They see the guys in the bars hitting on me, and how I just laugh the guys off. They ask me why I would wait so long for a man, when I could have one right now?



My friends do not yet understand just how much I love Jon, and how...his touch has healed me, stirred up a fire and a passion in my heart, and yes that he makes me feel loved!

I wouldn't trade his love for anyone or anything in this world. Now that I've found him, I will never want any other man but him. He not only satisfies my body, but fills my heart with indescribable happiness!



Some day my friends will meet their own soul mate, and only then will they understand why my Jonathan is worth waiting for!



( I love you honey, and can't wait to hold you in my arms again!)

For you guys out there
06:31 Nov 02 2006
Times Read: 842

(Okay, just to get it off my chest, I'm going to write my opinions, observations, and also findings shared with me personally by experts..on the subject of, PORN. Yep you heard me guys, so get ready to either laugh, sigh, or be very pissed off at me. I know I'm not a highly educated person, but I'm not an idiot either, so here it goes!)



First off , I don't believe all porn is bad. I think if it can help spice up a relationship to watch porn together and get some good ideas, then go for it! If your a single guy, who needs to release a little bit of tension, go for it!



BUT.....after my little brother, 3 of my close friends ex's, and yes my own ex. becoming addicted to porn, I felt the urge to say something. See these guys came to the point, they would stop having sex with their spouses, and would actually prefer to jerk off over porn, than be with a spouse who loved them with all her heart. They came to a stage in their addiction, they would imagine having sex with every woman they saw, and quit seeing females as people with feelings.

The guys would try to hide it, hide the $$ they spent on it, and never looked into why they ended up HAVING to look at porn every day! Well the experts will tell you, a person who is truley addicted to porn , has anger issues toward females, and maybe even toward his own mother. Don't laugh.... the guys I know with this problem, all have huge issues with their moms. Men, if you are married, or dating someone, and you know that you're out of control when it comes to porn, get help before you lose the one who really loves you, it's just not worth the price you will pay!





Tips for guys, don't get pissed lol!:



First off guys, no woman looks like a porn star! Not even a porn star looks like that in real life. It takes a whole fucking crew of make up artists

plastic surgeons, and just the right lighting & camera angles to make her look like that. Also that chick on your computer screen, or magazine doesn't give a shit about you. She only thinks of you in terms of all the $$$ she's getting every time you jerk off!



No porn star is half as good in bed as your own girl! Your girl makes love to you , gives her body and heart to you, not because your a stud muffin with a perfect bod, but because she truly loves you! And ...her love is free!



No woman really wants to know you are looking at skanky chicks or thinking about them while you masturbate. Your girl wants to believe that she is the only one you want, and that in your heart & mind she is the most beautiful, sexy creature God ever made.



How would you feel guys...if your girl told you she looked at photos of naked guys all the time, dreamed about them, masturbated & imagined having sex with them ? Don't you dare tell me that wouldn't bother you, make you jealous or cause you to feel like some how you didn't measure up to those guys in the magazines. Admit it, there are HUGE double standards when it comes to what society allows men to do , and what is considered taboo for ladies.



Take a look tonight at the woman you claim to love. Think of all she does to make you feel special, and wanted. Do you really need to look at a bunch of cheap sluts , or do you already have the perfect woman , who wants to make love to you even when your old, fat and bald?

Personally, I find most porn very dull, some of the chicks are like butt ugly, and there is no passion to grab my attention. Besides I happen to have a wonderful , sexy, sweet man, and the thought of being with any guy but him actually turns my stomach. I can walk past 10 hot guys, and my mind is still on Jon, and how much I miss him & want him in my arms. Wait , maybe that's because I love him, trust him fully, and don't want or need anyone else?







One last thought...more of a question really.





If a person is in a relationship, but lusts after and masturbates while thinking another man or woman other than the one who loves them, is it cheating even if physical contact never takes place? And more importantly, what means more to you, being loved for who you are ....for the rest of your life, or one moment of empty lust?





( Well, I may have just lost some friends over this one, but I speak what I believe to be true, and you all can just deal with it ...lol!)

Movie night with my sons! :)
05:22 Nov 02 2006
Times Read: 850

It was so much fun to take the boys to the movies tonight. I think I enjoyed hearing my children's little giggles, looks of surprise, and having my my middle son Eric snuggled on my lap ,as much as I enjoyed the movie it self. I wouldn't have changed a thing..well maybe one little thing.

I would have loved having my Jon there with his arm around my shoulder, sharing the fun with us. What a great night! :)



( Love you Jon!)

I believe in YOU!
22:35 Nov 01 2006
Times Read: 854

I just wanted my mate to know, how proud I am to have him for my boyfriend! I believe he will succeed not just in the military, but also with his novels. I so can't wait to see the look on his face, the first time he sees his words in print.

How fun it will be to go to a book store and find his stories right on the shelf, and I will say

" I know that author!!!!"



I love you honey, and hope you know you have my full support and love, no matter what dreams & goals you have, or even if they some day change.



I believe in YOU!!!!!!!! XOXO