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In my last entry I wrote about how I was so anti-social.

I got out of that.

I don't know when but I did.



I didn't stop being anti-social.

It's not really using the correct term.

But you still understand, I am sure.



During the holidays I started talking to this guy I know, Daniel.

I met him 3 years ago, but we never really talked. We've chatted but never really associated.

Anyway, we started talking and hanging out. And now we're talking in the ghetto meaning of the word.



I've been really happy lately, and my friends have noticed. Kassidy said I beamed a new radiance. I like that. Everybody says that when I'm around Daniel that I seem happier.

I like him, but I didn't think it was so obvious.

I hope it works out with him.



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Yesterday was the best day of my life. I'll call it that, anyway.

The weather was beautiful. A few of my friends, including Daniel, and I were just sitting outside after school doing nothing. We sat in the grass, saying nothing, listening to the student council members taking pictures. We sat in a circle in silence. Drinking in the warm sun, relishing in the cool breeze passing by.

I was strangely at peace all day. All day. I even suspected that it could be because my death was imminent.



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Today was a very unsuccessful day.

I woke up at 5.40 to be at the church rummage sale at 6.30. I stayed there until a little past 13.00--it was so tedious.



I wasn't able to do anything after that, either.

Super uncool.



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Let's hope the next days are better.

This holiday break hasn't been a particularly good one. I've felt alone and not as happy as I should be in the holidays.



My friend Sean died as well. It was very sudden. The last time I saw him was at this Christmas party and he was just fine. He died of something having to do with pneumonia, if you can believe it. He died on the 28th. He didn't even see the new year. It's so sad. I only wish I had known him better before he passed on.



It just goes to show that you can never know what's coming in life. You may feel like the world is so predictable, but by no way is it.



I've been on the computer so much. I'm just lazy. Too lazy to go call a friend and say

"Hey, let's go do something."

That's pretty sad really. Most people leave their laziness behind when it comes to fun with friends. I guess I'm anitsocial as well as lazy.



I'm really not antisocial. I can be very social. I think maybe my laziness is the thing wrong with me. And the fact that I am a homebody. I like staying at home and sitting around.



I need to get out of that habit. Maybe I'll add that to my 2007 resolutions.

-Stop picking at my fingernails.

-Be nice.

-Be even more original.

-Stop staying at home, alone. [NEW]