Ode to "Ich Tu Dir Weh"
This song reminds me almost
Of what it’s like to feel
It broke through the empty nothing
The place I sit
The place I lay
The place I stay rather than break
Undisturbed for hours
Watching humanity struggle along
Like toiling ants in the blazing sun
I keep thinking
There must be more to life
Then just this
Perhaps I was born in the wrong century
I should be living
Back in more ancient times
When it meant something
To ride in with the
Motherfucking cavalry
Now we are afraid
Afraid to speak
Afraid to fight
Afraid to love
Afraid to express ourselves
Afraid of loss
Afraid to die
Afraid that after all of this
All we ever become
Is dust
I yearn to be a part of something
Larger than life
Something that actually has value
Mundane petty life
Has bored me
Beyond tears
Beyond comprehension
Time stretches out endlessly
Yet stands completely still
I fucking hate this
I hate your smiles
I hate your laughter
I hate the sunlight
I hate your urges to “think positive”
Also known as deluding yourself
That “everything will be ok”
What if I don’t want everything to be just ok?
I hate people who say weed isn’t a drug
I hate whoever came up with the label of alcoholic
If only these problems could be solved
By something in a bottle
If it were a drink
I’d consume it
If it were a pill
I’d swallow it
If something has to be destroyed
I’d say burn baby burn
So tired of the mediocrity
The hypocrisy
The mistaken belief that as long as you believe
And “do the right thing”
That it will all turn out ok in the end
Sometimes it doesn’t
People who are all talk and no action
While the very world we thought we knew
Crumbles all around us
Perhaps people are too oblivious
Too busy with the hypnotic glow
Of their fucking smartphones, their laptops, their ipods, their social media sites like facebook and twitter
Anything but notice how fucked we all are
And when it all comes crashing down
People will notice too damn late
And for those who would prefer to judge me
I’d rather be angry
Then be too afraid to say anything
For fear of offending someone
Or not to feel at all
Anything is better than returning to the abyss
And I’d much rather burn burn burn
Then quietly fade away
And for those that have yet to figure out who I am
I have been places that are very very cold
I have been places that are filled with darkness and flames
I am chaos I am neutral
I am pleasure I am pain
For now just think of me as your friendly neighborhood catalyst
COMMENTS
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LittleLaceDoll
16:15 Dec 06 2013
These lyrics match me quite well. I love the last line~