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I know saying I want to kill myself is pathetic.. but when my mom screems at my for using rational reasoning on HER behalf and turns it into "YOU JUST DON'T WANT ME TO DISRUPT YOUR LIFE" you have no idea how shitty that can make a fifteen year old feel. I HAVE no life.. I really don't... so why not just end it? I'm a pathetic shrivel of what I used to be... I know I have people that love me.. and I'm sure I have many good years ahead of me.. but if today was the end.. it would save me from future hells.. I'll be the first one to say I am a pathetic bitch... and I really just can't handle it anymore.. she just doesn't realize that I don't want to give up the house.. and I don't want to live in an apartment if her and Bruce break up... but my opinions just infuriate her.. and she just starts to yell because I am not excited.. I know I will regret posting this as soon as I do.. oh well I deserve all the bitchy comments. Especially I was yelled at for crying over the fact she was yelling at me.. and just being horrible.. If I wasn't such a p*SSY I would just end it now..

Anna out ~