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Well folks, my dad is dead. He died on the 10th, I am not really that hurt over it, and I am happy he is gone becasue now he isn't suffering any longer.

Well today had been interesting folks. My family is just one wonderful happy bunch! Okay, okay so im lying sue me. Anyways I started the day off with going to lunch, yeah yeah it did start nice. I even got to go to my friend Ivy's house (Ivy9825 on here if you must know) anyways, I borrowed her DDR game and had some fun. Then I came home, we had pizza and we played DDR. Then my mom starts yelling that I messed up her computer just because she doesn't know how to fucking use it. Well screw her. None the less i helped her fix her problem and even went and found her old files so she could get what she wanted off of the old comp...Okay sorry I just had to get that off my shoulders.

Today is an intersting day, my sister and grandmother have come for a visit. They are both asking a lot of questions about my dad, and I don't know how to say it nicely. He's dying, and I have never been one to make sure I don't hurt someones feelings. My grandma is probably trying not to cry as well as my sister and I can't help but feel somewhat sorry for them, as well as for myself because it seems even if I wanted to I can't cry. I can't cry for the man that was never there for me. Does this make me a bad person?

Well for quite a while now I have known about my father having cancer. Yes it was bad when it bagan and it is worse now. He is dying and refusing to go in for treatment any longer. I don't really know if I blame the man however because his chance of survival has been very low from the start (16%). I don't even know if I am upset about him dying as much as I should be either. I know I know he is my father and I only have one right? Well he was only the man who helped my mother create me he has never shown any affection towards me and never treated me like a person, more like a slave.



Yes I know I'll probably cry when he dies and I know I'll miss him, but it doesn't really scare me to know in a few weeks he'll be gone.