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It is hard to believe that it has been over a year....
9/18/17 is the day I gained a sister....two hearts were married...
Congratulations to my brother Robert (bloodstorm) and Faye (LetVREatCake) !!!!
I love you both and I couldn't be happier for the both of you!!!

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MalicedTouch
15:22 Sep 30 2017

Congrts to those crazy kids.

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RaynesAsylum
15:25 Sep 30 2017

At least some have found their happy ending

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SweetOne
16:23 Sep 30 2017

grats

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LetVREatCake
16:38 Sep 30 2017

We love you Kristine ❤️

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RaynesAsylum
17:32 Sep 30 2017

Love you too my sister. I am so happy you found happiness.

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That moment when the phone rings and the voice on the other end is all too familiar...

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MalicedTouch
23:28 Sep 29 2017

Its like hello darkness my old friend...

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RaynesAsylum
00:06 Sep 30 2017

love that song

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MalicedTouch
15:22 Sep 30 2017

Better mean the simon and garfunkel version

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RaynesAsylum
15:24 Sep 30 2017

i love that one but there are a few others i like too

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I am in some bad times. Struggles and stress I know all too well. But in this darkness I find good and light. Two of my best friends were married. My daughter is excelling in school. My son is loving his sophomore year. And There are positives for me as well. I have learned valuable lessons during this time, which is always a good thing. So even though many things are dark right now, I can see the positive and the light at the end of this tunnel.

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XXVesperusXX
16:09 Sep 20 2017

Sounds like you are in a better place. Heading towards a much better outcome.

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Minde
02:06 Sep 21 2017

I hope things get better for you

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You can say many things about love. Love hurts. Love heals. Love never truly dies. And the list goes on.
You can say goodbye.
You can close doors.
You can try to erase memories.
But the truth is, if you truly love someone....
love never fades, never dies....

So what do you do when the closed door cracks open?

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MalicedTouch
19:38 Sep 07 2017

Somethings a truly a mystery. A much as one can run destiny will catch up with you.

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RaynesAsylum
21:24 Sep 07 2017

true. if things are meant to be then it will be

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I cannot believe it took me this long to figure this out...
Maybe I was in denial
Maybe I thought it meant I was weak
Maybe I was just blindsided and it crept up on me...

As an empath and mother, I am use to absorbing heavy energy from the things my kids go through. I am used to pushing back all my needs and maintaining the peace.
I thought I was strong. I thought I could handle whatever came at me.

But then 4 years ago I began working strictly with children. Children with no hope or love in their lives...survivors of abuse and neglect...some jaded, some resilient, some just lost. At first it was easy to direct the energies. Placing the energy where it needed to be. But then, my cup was full. I could no longer....but I did not know then what I know now. When my moms died, I took a break...tried to heal myself but was unsuccessful. All I did was bury my hurt deeper underneath the energy of all around me. I was guarded well, so well that I was guarded from myself. I was numb without feeling numb. But overflowing all the same. And the resentment began to build. Then this year, still working with kids. Not all were broken, but the energy..the pain...I tried to help. I pushed and pushed until I was overflowing and day after day the migraines increased. I tied medication after medication...nothing worked. Everything caught up to me and I the flood gates were released...
Separation from that job, the kids and the migraines stopped. I can breathe. I can feel more than I could before. I can feel myself. It has been so long since I could feel my own energy and emotions...
Why is it easier to control the empathic side with adults? I can manage and control things better when dealing with adults. With those kids....my heart aches for them...I wanted their pain to go away....at any cost...but it cannot consume me...And I think that was my error. I was blindsided and before I knew it - I was overflowing with too much energy with no way of releasing it safely.
Today, taking one step at a time...finding my footing...taking it in and breathing it out...
my only advice to other empaths....be careful when working with children. Self care goes a long way.

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Loki1313
18:12 Sep 06 2017

Children have a power within them that is stronger than most adults. The energy they release can keep an empath powered for awhile. But like you said those kids are releasing a dark energy. They all have regrets and hatred for most adults around them. And some are looking for a family anywhere they can find it. I've been there where you are at. I use to go pick up the kids before the police were sent in. So yes, I've seen their anger and hatred for adults.
Adults usually direct their negativity at one person. Not a group like children do. It took me 3 weeks to realize what happened to me. Now you understand why some adults in your field go cold? You have to sometimes to find self in the chaos energies. But good you found self now.

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RaynesAsylum
00:42 Sep 07 2017

Thank you

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