Today I found out the results of the NCE (National Counselor Examination)
...I PASSED!!!!!!!
So things are improving slowly...What I mean to say is that I am able to resume my schooling. I have been able to pay off unpaid balances and register for one class for the Summer and 2 classes for the Fall. Bad side is that I still need to finish my internship. I am not cleared yet to complete my internship in the Fall. But I am confident that it will happen. I was not able to walk the stage with my friends (do to some unexpected family emergencies and PTO conflicts). But I am ok with that, cause in the end it is about the degree - not the ceremony.
In a lot of ways I am finding that I am at peace with almost 100% of how my life is right now. I have thought about all the different outcomes and I am preparing myself for each. I have to be able to be ok with whatever happens next.
I have to prepare for the next chapter of my life. 2017 will be life altering...Big Changes...Major Changes...One step at a time...One breath at a time. I got this.
'When I say "I love you more" I don't mean I love you more than you love me. I mean I love you more than the bad days ahead of us, I love you more than any fight we will ever have. I love you more than the distance between us, I love you more than any obstacle that could try and come between us. I love you the most.'
I am not perfect. No one is. Sometimes I should bite my tongue. But I am honest to a fault. I wish others would be as honest. Or at least with me, since I am supposed to be part of the family. I think I had the right to know certain things. I can only give for so long before I have nothing left to give. Had I known certain things 7 years ago, I would not have invested so much of my time. I would have been more cautious. I could have possibly done more to help....or at least protect myself better. But what is done is done. In a twist of things, I should probably thank you...would I have met the man I love if I had not gone through the pain? Had you told me what I was truly getting into, would I still be where I am today? Would I know the ones I know? So even though what has happened over the last few weeks has been all kinds of wrong (mentally, emotionally and physically) - ESPECIALLY since you knew about things from the gate!!- - I can let go and move on with peace in my heart and the hopes of obtaining my happy ending.
COMMENTS
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TheMadCountess
01:56 May 31 2017
Congratulations!!!!!!!!!
dwaynemcgriff01
02:56 Jun 24 2017
congrats