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As most would know, I am at the end of Graduate school...MS in Clinical Mental Health Counseling. I started this semester with high hopes and excitement. The internship site LaPaz, screwed me out of a Spring Graduation. All because of ONE absence. I admit, that my fault in this was poor communication. I let down my site and my clients. It is my fault that I did not take care of myself enough to know that I was overwhelmed and past my own limit. In my head, I thought, "One absence won't hurt, everyone gets sick" But it did hurt. I had to go before the Fit To Practice committee Last week and today. Good news: I have two other internship sites interested in me. Good News: I was not kicked from the graduate program. Good news: I still get to take my state exam in April and graduate. Bad news: I had to withdraw from internship this semester. Bad news: I cannot graduate with my friends. Good News: I suppose its good news that I can take the next 10 weeks to rest up and reflect and improve on the areas that were questioned about me this semester. Where do I go from here?

Option 1 - take internship and 3 classes (plus full time job) over the summer so I can still graduate with friends.

Option 2 - take 3 classes this summer - take internship in the fall and graduate in Dec (nice bday present to myself lol)

Option 3 - take internship in the summer plus one or two classes - take remaining classes in the fall and graduate in December

I do not think there are any more options. But if anyone has any thoughts, please share.

Overall I am not sure how I feel about any of this. The FTP committee feel that my numbness translates to unawareness of my own actions or how my actions affect others. I am so aware....but numb to all of this. I rather be numb than depressed. *sighs* I have done most of my college career alone. Why does it hurt so bad to not be able to walk the stage with my friends? I feel torn. Its petty to be sad over graduation....I will graduate in Dec or whenever...it should be no big deal....but its a moment I wanted to share with the friends that have become family to me....*sigh* It will be fine. I will be fine.

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Necromance
19:22 Feb 23 2017

Option 2 seems the best. To be honest after reading your posts seems as though you are drained. I would take the break over the summer and relax recharge your batteries .

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BatsInTheBelphry
19:31 Feb 23 2017

im glad you can still take the test, yes use the time to improve on the areas you need at your pace rather than rushed.

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LordFangor
21:44 Feb 23 2017

You will be fine. :)

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Anaksha
23:50 Feb 26 2017

Yeah, I'm going with Option 2. It's more rewarding for you, and YOU can do it. I feel like you were screwed. I really do. They railroaded you for whatever reason. Probably just jealous cause you're so smexy ;) hehehe Anyway.... Dirt off your shoulder and keep it moving cause you can take it ALL the way to the top if you really put your mind to it. :)

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At work, I deal with kids from all backgrounds and situations. This new kid....new to child protective services....her mom died when she was 14. Then her boyfriend committed suicide just before Christmas, she was the one to find him ( he hung himself in her bedroom).



She refused to go to school, hasn't been since her mother died (she is now 17). Her father is doing the best he can to cope and deal with her. But she still dove into drugs and whatnot.



She refuses any and all help. Denies having any issues. But then uses her grief as an excuse to not do things or to get away with her behavior and to validate her poor choices.



I am not here favorite person to come to because I tell her like it is. I hold her accountable. But I am making progress, I got her to agree to enrolling in school this Wednesday.

So yesterday night at about 9pm I get a child crisis call via mobile unit....an hr before my shift ends. Cops did an emergency detainment because a kid attempted suicide via "let's see if I can distroy a car". Kid is "homeless" choosing to sleep in his mother's car and in "trap houses". He has a long arrest history and drug abuse history. Just fresh from County jail. Mother has schizophrenia and is a meth addict. Father is awol and an alcoholic. He survived his dive into oncoming traffic walking away with minor bruising. After I completed my assessment by 10:20 pm I staffed the situation with my LPHA and was advised to admit him to the state hospital. I call to make those arrangements only to be told to call back in 30 due to a riot. I remained with kid until I spoke with the doctor, "sure we will admit him....at 8am on 2/2/17 once the riot is no longer". Cool. Now I can go back to work (30 mins away) to finish up another assessment and all the paperwork. I didn't clock out until 1:36am. Right about 12hrs ....such a long shift.....but I loved it....every second of it!!! And yes child protective services were called as well.