.
VR
Ravensbloodzero's Journal


Ravensbloodzero's Journal

THIS JOURNAL IS ON 38 FAVORITE JOURNAL LISTS

Honor: 0    [ Give / Take ]

PROFILE




31 entries this month
 

Grow The Hell Up

21:07 Jul 31 2008
Times Read: 727


Why do I seem to attract the insanely jealous and the just plain insane?



Isn't it enough that I can't talk to my last boyfriend now even though we parted on friendly terms? After we broke up he became stupidly jealous of any of my male friends and then of any of my friends full stop.



Now a guy I talk to on here has just lost it with me because I said I was hanging out at a friend's house. He asked me what was up. I told him what I was doing. Which really isn't much. It's not like I told him I was about to go and have an orgy or anything with the delibrate intention of annoying him. We aren't dating and it's not like we're ever going to. He has no right to get pissy with me for hanging out with friends.



I'm really getting sick of being treated as a lesser being because I'm female. Yes, I have breasts and a vagina. Well fricking done. So does about fifty percent of the population. Is it so hard to grasp the concept of me being an intelligent model? I do not exist for the sole purpose of being someone's sex slave. People should grow up and remember that slight detail.


COMMENTS

-



 

The Path Of Destruction

20:48 Jul 31 2008
Times Read: 729


I have to go to the hospital in the morning to have an ECG done. I don't know why. There isn't anything wrong with my heart. The problems lie with my head. Fran's going with me to look after me and to make sure I don't panic and miss the appointment. God, I hate having to go into hospital. At least I know I'll be coming out afterward. At least I hope I will...


COMMENTS

-



 

Hunted

12:57 Jul 29 2008
Times Read: 743


There's this guy on here who is sort of starting to creep me out. He lives a few cities over from me in England and wants us to go out on a date. That's not that strange I guess but he keeps going on about it. No matter what I say about my committment issues or about being hurt so much, especially recently, he's determined to date me.



He wanted me to meet him at Sherwood Forest once but I declined for two reasons. Number one, I'm not totally sure how to get there on public transport. And two, isn't it slightly suspicious for a guy to ask a girl to meet him for the first time in a forest?



Now that I'm a premium member, I check who has been viewing my profile and portfolio. He's on them several times a week if not daily. I don't update them that often and it's kind of disturbing how often he's looking at my stuff.



Am I just being paranoid or does anyone else think there's something up with this guy?


COMMENTS

-



Sinora
Sinora
13:39 Jul 29 2008

Send him round to my place hon, I'll give him the once over lol





Skjaldepigen
Skjaldepigen
14:58 Jul 29 2008

Do not meet with him, simple as that. There is no need to let him down nicely, not with that attitude.





 

Hurt Again

12:45 Jul 29 2008
Times Read: 745


I am so fucking sick of being insulted by people who don't even know me. I walked to the garage to buy milk and got insulted by three girls in there and then had more abuse hurled at me from a teenager in a car and then from men in a white van. I just want to give up. I wish people would leave me alone if they can't be nice.


COMMENTS

-



 

Reminder

21:28 Jul 28 2008
Times Read: 747


http://community.livejournal.com/cat_macros/4521513.html


COMMENTS

-



 

Sent To Destroy You

20:23 Jul 28 2008
Times Read: 748


The Combichrist gig was amazing. They were utterly fantastic :D


COMMENTS

-



 

Countdown

12:58 Jul 27 2008
Times Read: 749


Bus to Dublin for Combichrist in two hours!


COMMENTS

-



 

Mass Exodus Phase Two

18:26 Jul 26 2008
Times Read: 751


I'm off to Dublin tomorrow to see Combichrist. Overview when I return. Maybe


COMMENTS

-



 

It Continues...

04:53 Jul 18 2008
Times Read: 765


I'm working on this list again...



I'm sure you all know by now that I'm quite fond of button badges. Well I thought I'd share some that I don't own. Although, there may be a few in there that I do have. Also, the non-geeks among you may not understand some of these. Oh, and I don't necessary agree with all of these but I'm including them anyway.





~ +5 Badge Of Smiting

~ /*No Comment*/

~ 1337

~ 2+2=5

~ 333 Half Evil

~ 40% Of All Statistics Are Wrong

~ 8 Out Of 10 People Love This Badge

~ < /Bush >

~ < Badge >

~ A Wish Is Not A Substitute For A Prayer

~ Adorkable

~ Aged To Perfection

~ Air Guitarist

~ All Your Base Are Belong To Us

~ Almost Normal

~ Anarachy Queen

~ And Your Problem Is...?

~ Anti-Bush, Pro-American

~ Anti-Everything

~ ARMY Be All You're Told To Be

~ Army Chick

~ Army Of The World

~ As Seen On TV

~ Ask Me About Chuck Norris

~ Ask Me About Jesus

~ ASL?

~ At Least In Heaven I Can Skate

~ Back By Popular Demand

~ Back Off!

~ Badge

~ Badges Are Lame

~ Bah Humbug

~ Ban Comic Sans

~ Ban The Bomb

~ Bananaphone

~ Barbie Is A Slut

~ Bassist

~ I'm Glad I'm Not A Twin

~ Be Nice To Nerds! One Day You'll Work For One

~ Beards. They Really Grow On You

~ Better Than Barbie

~ Beyond Help

~ Bitch Covered Bitch With A Creamy Bitch Filling

~ Blame The Parents

~ Blessed Are The Cheese Makers

~ Boldly Going Nowhere

~ Boom! Headshot

~ Bored

~ Born Again

~ Born Free (Taxed For Life)

~ Boy Bands Suck

~ Boys Are Stupid

~ Britney Who?

~ Buck Fush

~ Bush For President Of Iraq

~ Bush: The Only Dope Worth Shooting

~ By The Time You Read This, You've Already Read It

~ Can't Sleep (The Clowns Will Get Me)

~ Caution: I'm Crazy (About Jesus)

~ Cheer Up Goth

~ Cheese Addict

~ Child Of the 80s

~ Chocoholic

~ Christmas Rocks

~ Chuck Norris Forever

~ Chuck Norris Brushes His Teeth With Barbed Wire

~ Chuck Norris Can Believe It's Not Butter

~ Chuck Norris Can Blow Bubbles With Beef Jerky

~ Chuck Norris Can Divide By Zero

~ Chuck Norris Can Hold His Breath For Nine Years

~ Chuck Norris Can Judge Books By Their Covers

~ Chuck Norris Can Make Onions Cry

~ Chuck Norris Can Skeletonize A Cow In Two Minutes

~ Chuck Norris Can Slam A Revolving Door

~ Chuck Norris Can Sneeze With His Eyes Open

~ Chuck Norris Can Speak Braille

~ Chuck Norris Can Split The Atom With Bare Hands

~ Chuck Norris Can Taste Lies

~ Chuck Norris Can Touch MC Hammer

~ Chuck Norris Can Win Blackjack With One Card

~ Chuck Norris Can't Love, He Can Only Not Kill

~ Chuck Norris Counted To Infinity Twice

~ Chuck Norris Does Not Sleep, He Waits

~ Chuck Norris Drinks Napalm To Quell Heartburn

~ Chuck Norris Eats Lightning And Farts Thunder

~ Chuck Norris Has Three Knees On Each Leg

~ Chuck Norris Has Two Speeds: Walk And Kill

~ Chuck Norris Is Allowed To Talk About Fight Club

~ Chuck Norris Is My Homeboy

~ Chuck Norris Is Not Only A Noun But A Verb

~ Chuck Norris Let The Dogs Out

~ Chuck Norris Uses Only One Chopstick

~ Chuck Norris Sheds His Skin Twice A Year

~ Chuck Norris Sleeps With Pillows Under His Gun

~ Chuck Norris's Cowboy Boots Are Made From Real Cowboys

~ Chuck Norris's Sweat Burns Holes In Concrete

~ Circus Freak

~ Cleverly Disguised As A Responsible Adult

~ Clowns Taste Funny

~ Code Monkey

~ Conserve Wildlife, Pickle A Squirrel

~ Crappy Valentines Day

~ Crazy Bitch

~ Cyber Money

~ Cyber Punk

~ D'oh

~ Dad, The Great, The Magnificent, The Man With The Wallet

~ Dad, The Man, The Myth, the Legend

~ Dear Santa, Let Me Explain...

~ Diagonally Parked In A Parallel Universe

~ Diet Starts Tomorrow

~ Disco Diva

~ Do I Look Like A People Person?

~ Do I Look Like I Want A Big Issue?

~ Do Not Disturb. Already Disturbed

~ Does Not Play Well With Others

~ Don't Be Caught Dead Without Jesus

~ Don't Believe Anything Until It's Officially Denied

~ Don't Follow Me, I'm Lost Too

~ Don't Get Mad, Get Even

~ Don't Hassel The Hoff

~ Don't Judge Anyone By Their Badge

~ Don't Make Me Smite You

~ Don't Make Me Summon The Flying Monkeys

~ Don't Read This. You Won't Like It. I Promise

~ Don't Worry, Be Silly

~ Drain Bramaged

~ Drama Queen

~ Drummer

~ Dyslexics Have More Fnu

~ Dyslexics Of The World Untie!

~ Earth Is Full. Go Home

~ Eat Well, Stay Fit, Die Anyway

~ Elvis Is Dead, Get Over It

~ Emo Kid

~ Emo Makes Me Cry

~ Employee Of The Month

~ End Racisim. Kill Everyone

~ Error 404. Requested Badge Not Found

~ ESC

~ Everyone Is Entitled To MY Opinion

~ Everyone Smiles In The Same Language

~ Excuse Me, But I Have Minds To Twist And Valves To Warp

~ Explosive

~ Fashion Police

~ Fat People Are Harder To Kidnap

~ Fight Truth Decay

~ Free Prayer. Just Ask

~ Friend Of Tom

~ F.R.O.G. (Fully Rely On God)

~ Game Over

~ Gamer

~ Gangster

~ Geek

~ Get Killed, Get Noticed

~ Girls FTW (For Teh Win)

~ Give Quiche A Chance

~ Global Warming Is So Uncool

~ Goldfish Don't Bounce

~ Golf Sale ->

~ Good For Nothing Student

~ Goofballs Rule

~ Got Jesus?

~ Got Rights?

~ Goth And Proud

~ Granny Magnet

~ Guitarist

~ h4x0r

~ Happy Unimaginative, Hallmark Devised, Pretend That It's Love Day

~ Having An Out Of Body Experience... BRB

~ He Who Hesitates Is... Um...

~ Hoarse Whisperer

~ Hot, Single... And Not Interested

~ How Can I Miss You If You Won't Go Away?

~ How Many Frogs Do I Have To Kiss?

~ Hug Me!

~ Humpty Dumpty Was Pushed

~ I /
~ I Was Designedbr /
~ I'd Rather Be DEAD Than COOLbr /
~ I'm A Pirate. Are You?br /
~ I'm ALREADY Against The Next Warbr /
~ I'm Blonde... What's Your Excuse?br /
~ I'm Having A Shit Daybr /
~ I'm Huge In Japanbr /
~ I'm Much Better Looking ONLINEbr /
~ I'm Not A Geek, I'm A NERDbr /
~ I'm Not A Nerd, I'm A GEEKbr /
~ I'm Not Drunk. I'm Irishbr /
~ I'm Not Fat. I'm Just Fluffybr /
~ I'm Not Irish But You Can Kiss Me Anywaybr /
~ I'm Not Mean. You're Just A Sissybr /
~ I'm Not Misunderstood, I'm Crazybr /
~ I'm Not Weird, I'm Giftedbr /
~ I'm Only Vegan Because I Hate Animalsbr /
~ I'm Really Excited To Be Herebr /
~ I'm Smiling! That Alone Should Scare Youbr /
~ I'm So Happy I Could Diebr /
~ I'm So Irish I Shit Leprechaunsbr /
~ I'm Sorry. My Fault. I Forgot You Were An Idiotbr /
~ I'm Specialbr /
~ I'm Ugly On The Inside Toobr /
~ I'm Up And Dressed... What More Do You Want?br /
~ I'm With Cupid ->

~ I'm With Jesus ->

~ I'm With Pwned ->

~ I'm With Stupid ->

~ I've Never Been A Big Fan Of Reality

~ If At First You Don't Succeed, You're Not Chuck Norris

~ If I Throw A Stick, Will You Leave?

~ If I Wanted Your Heart, I'd Have Brought A Knife

~ Im In Ur Base Killin Ur D00ds

~ In Dog Years, I'm DEAD

~ Inner Beauty Is Over-Rated

~ Insomnia Is Nothing To Lose Sleep Over

~ Instant Geek. Just Add Coffee

~ Irish Lass

~ It's Always The Quiet Ones

~ It's Not Paranoia If They Really ARE After You

~ Itchy, Twitchy & Bitchy

~ Jesus Saves

~ John 3:16

~ Keep Away From Pets And Small Children

~ Keep Out Of Direct Sunlight

~ Kick Me

~ Kick Ass Dad

~ Kiss Me, I'm Irish

~ Kiss Me Quick

~ Kiss Me, Fool!

~ L

~ Lab Rat

~ Lacks Focus

~ Laugh At Your Problems, Everyone Else Does

~ Lead Guitarist

~ Learner

~ Leave Me Alone. I'm Having A Crisis!

~ Let It Snow

~ Little Miss Attitude

~ Little Miss Stunning

~ Living Legend

~ LOL!

~ Long Cat Is Long

~ LOOK But Don't TOUCH

~ Lord Of The Pies

~ Loser

~ Lost The Plot

~ Love Does Not Hurt... But Chuck Norris Does

~ Love Is For Losers

~ Love Is In The Air... Gross

~ Make Pies, Not Sense

~ Make Tea, Not War

~ Mathlete

~ Mediocre And Loving It

~ Meh

~ Men Have Feelings Too (But Who Cares?)

~ Menace To Sobriety

~ More Cowbell

~ More Trees, Less Bush

~ Mrs Claus

~ Mullets Rock

~ Mutants For Nuclear Power

~ MY Badge Is Better Than YOUR Badge

~ My Brain Hurts

~ My Cat Kneads Me

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~

~



To Be Continued...


COMMENTS

-



 

Mass Exodus

04:37 Jul 12 2008
Times Read: 776


I'm leaving the country in twelve hours or so. We're heading down to Dublin to support Michael (and dance) while he DJs at Dominion. It should be a good night. Lucy is going as well so yay :) *happy huggy dance*



There's only one problem. My head keeps trying to convince me to wear a skirt that is way too short to be worn out in public. Except in Whitby. But Whitby doesn't have the same rules as the rest of the world.


COMMENTS

-



Sinora
Sinora
10:59 Jul 12 2008

Enjoy.





 

Insulted Again

01:43 Jul 12 2008
Times Read: 780


I've just been taking a look at who rated me what. Someone rated me an eight on my portfolio but a one on my profile. Does that mean that I'm just a slut to them? That they like my pictures but don't value my opinions? I really don't like being treated this way.



Yes, I am a model. Yes, I like being complimented. But I'm not a lesser being because I look good in high heels. I may be silly at times and do weird things but I have my intelligence.



So, if you're reading this, grow up. If you're going to rate me a one then you should at least explain why, especially when I send you a nice message asking what improvements you would advise.



I'm not going to name you because I've got friends on here and I don't want to cause trouble. I'm not going to get people to flame or bomb you.



All of you that have insulting me and then insulted me again for not retaliating should remember this, it makes me better. The fact I can turn the other cheek and not get into it when I so dearly want to makes me better than you.


COMMENTS

-



maliciousIntent63
maliciousIntent63
03:12 Jul 12 2008

I totally agree...



SmileyCentral.com





Sinora
Sinora
10:58 Jul 12 2008

*Nods*





 

*sigh*

01:32 Jul 12 2008
Times Read: 781


I really wish I wasn't here right now :(


COMMENTS

-



 

Reversal

22:40 Jul 07 2008
Times Read: 789


Right, this is pretty weird. I keep typing words backward. I don't mean switching the first and last letters of a three letter word. Let me give you an example. I just tried to say something was 'fantastic' and instead typed 'citsatnaf' without thinking about it. To tell you about it, I really had to think about the reverse spelling. What is going on with my head?


COMMENTS

-



 

Negative On An Update

00:38 Jul 07 2008
Times Read: 791


At some point I'll need to explain what's been going on in my life but I can't find the energy to do that right now. At least part of it will involve C&Ping Fran's journal entries anyway.


COMMENTS

-



 

I Didn't Want You To See Me Cry, I'm Fine

00:35 Jul 07 2008
Times Read: 792


The Last Night - Skillet



You come to me with scars on your wrist

You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this

I just came to say goodbye

I didn't want you to see me cry, I'm fine

But I know it's a lie.



This is the last night you'll spend alone

Look me in the eyes so I know you know

I'm everywhere you want me to be.

The last night you'll spend alone,

I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go,

I'm everything you need me to be.



Your parents say everything is your fault

But they don't know you like I know you they don't know you at all

I'm so sick of when they say

It's just a phase, you'll be o.k. you're fine

But I know it's a lie.



This is the last night you'll spend alone

Look me in the eyes so I know you know

I'm everywhere you want me to be.

The last night you'll spend alone,

I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go,

I'm everything you need me to be.

The last night away from me



The night is so long when everything's wrong

If you give me your hand I will help you hold on

Tonight,

Tonight.



This is the last night you'll spend alone

Look me in the eyes so I know you know

I'm everywhere you want me to be.

The last night you'll spend alone,

I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go,

I'm everything you need me to be.

I won't let you say goodbye,

I'll be your reason why.



The last night away from me,

Away from me.

COMMENTS

-



 

Wrong. Wrong. Wrong

00:29 Jul 07 2008
Times Read: 793


I've just opened Word to do some work on something and discovered that my brother appears to have moved all of my stuff off the computer. Again. Why can't I keep anything on here without this happening?



Also, Fisho just scratched me. Presumably for trying to type while he was sitting on my lap. Now he's gone off in a huff.



Then there's the fact that one finger on my right hand hurts when I type and I have no idea why. I probably whacked it during an 'episode'.



I'm really grumpy right now. Not helped by the fact my father is being nosy every time he walks past. He keeps looking to see what I'm doing but it's not like he understands anything technological anyway. I'm not doing anything wrong. I just like to have some privacy.



Great. I've been back for three hours and I'm already feeling like I need to beat my head against the nearest wall. They were right. This may very well make me worse. But, if it makes life better and easier for my friends, then so be it. I'll do this. Even if it kills me.


COMMENTS

-



 

Crashing Inwardly

00:13 Jul 07 2008
Times Read: 795


I'm back home. Properly I mean. Not just to grab some more clothes or pick up my post. And it just sucks.



I've had one 'episode' since I got back. I was on a power trip and now I feel completely drained again. Drained and utterly worthless. Hopefully my friends are having a better time now that they aren't having to keep an eye on me.



Fisho is sitting on my knee which does impair my typing ability somewhat but I'm glad to have him there. It's comforting. And I need to comfort now. I feel so alone. Not even just lonely because I've spent so long over with my friends. Properly alone.



I don't even want to go to bed yet because suddenly the idea of sleeping alone sucks. I'm not talking about sex, just the comfort and companionship of being with another person. Hell, I may have been dead without it lately.



But that's all over now. Not the heachaches unfortunately. Not the outbursts. Not the hurt. Not the pain. My friends have tried to help me. They have helped me. More than they even realise. But Jan is right, this is my problem, not theirs. I'm the only one that can fix this, the only one that can stop it. I just don't know if I'm strong enough,


COMMENTS

-



 

And Begin

01:26 Jul 06 2008
Times Read: 798


I just wrote a new song. It's in the relevant journal section. It's only a first draft though.


COMMENTS

-



 

Edit... Edit... Edit...

01:04 Jul 06 2008
Times Read: 799


I just did a bit of an edit to my profile. The assertiveness may yet come through.


COMMENTS

-



 

You Just Keep On Trying Till You Run Out Of Cake

01:00 Jul 06 2008
Times Read: 800


Still Alive (from Portal)

This was a triumph.

I'm making a note here: HUGE SUCCESS.

It's hard to overstate my satisfaction.

Aperture Science

We do what we must

because we can.

For the good of all of us.

Except the ones who are dead.

But there's no sense crying over every mistake.

You just keep on trying till you run out of cake.

And the Science gets done.

And you make a neat gun.

For the people who are still alive.

I'm not even angry.

I'm being so sincere right now.

Even though you broke my heart.

And killed me.

And tore me to pieces.

And threw every piece into a fire.

As they burned it hurt because I was so happy for you!

Now these points of data make a beautiful line.

And we're out of beta.

We're releasing on time.

So I'm GLaD. I got burned.

Think of all the things we learned

for the people who are still alive.

Go ahead and leave me.

I think I prefer to stay inside.

Maybe you'll find someone else to help you.

Maybe Black Mesa

THAT WAS A JOKE.

HAHA. FAT CHANCE.

Anyway, this cake is great.

It's so delicious and moist.

Look at me still talking

when there's Science to do.

When I look out there, it makes me GLaD I'm not you.

I've experiments to run.

There is research to be done.

On the people who are still alive.

And believe me I am still alive.

I'm doing Science and I'm still alive.

I feel FANTASTIC and I'm still alive.

While you're dying I'll be still alive.

And when you're dead I will be still alive.

STILL ALIVE

COMMENTS

-



 

Oh No, Fuck No

23:54 Jul 05 2008
Times Read: 803


I have no idea what the fuck just happened. I found myself lying on the bathroom floor with wet and muddy socks. Does this mean I got outside? Did I hurt anyone?


COMMENTS

-



 

About Me... Take Two

05:02 Jul 05 2008
Times Read: 808


Here's the version of my profile which is about to be replaced...



This profile is currently undergoing a major overhaul so please be patient. I don't know how much time I will have to work on it over the next few months.



































Check out this band. They are going to change the face of music forever





















Some time ago, I came to the conclusion that my profile was too long but I’m only getting round to changing it now. It will be going through a major overhaul so, if it’s a mess, that’s probably the reason why. On the other hand, it may just be a mess anyway. For now, the original will be in my journal under the very original title of “About me”.



















PEOPLE

People enter and leave my life a lot and, though I am not particularly fond of the human race, there are a number of individuals who inspire me and who have changed my life.





Katherine

Mentor and friend.



Emma

Who overcame illness and did two years of exams in one month.



Sophie

The voice of insanity.



Vivica

Blackangelconstruction

Enigma


Three people who made me believe life was worth it.



Ryan

Who showed me I was not alone.



Damien

Who believes I’m beautiful.



David

Who shared a once in a lifetime experience. Twice.



Wordsoncespoken

Who has always been an inspiration to me.



My Mum

A true inspiration.



The Members of The House Of Nocturnal Retribution

Who make me feel part of a whole.



Megan

Who was there when I needed her.



Amy

James

Charlotte

Kirsty

Philippa


Flatmates and good friends.



These people are in no particular order and I’m sure I’ve left many out but to those listed as well as others, many thanks for your input into my life.



















THINGS YOU SHOULD NOT DO

~ Convince people bad ideas are good ones ~

~ Convince lots of drunk people to get on a trampoline ~

~ Give your phone swimming lessons ~

~ Storm off after an argument and fall down the stairs ~

~ Rest your hand on the body of a car if there’s a chance of it being shut in a door ~

~ Try to look scary when dressed in a stupid costume ~

~ Faint in a 3 foot by 3 foot room ~

~ Poke yourself in the head with scissors ~

~ Sit for 18 hours straight at a computer, sleep, repeat ~

~ Bleed over your keyboard ~

~ Stick a staple remover down your bra ~



















FRIENDS LIST

I have no idea whose friends lists I’m on so if you want me to add you to mine, you’ll have to let me know.



















RATING

If I've given you a low rating and you don't think you deserve it, let me know. You may have updated your profile and I'm always willing to re-rate. If I’ve rated you early in your membership, for example, then it is unlikely to reflect your profile’s appearance several months later. However, I do not plan to hand you tens to people who may join and then never visit the site again.



I don’t automatically give out tens. I try to rate fairly but your score will depend on the following:



~ Content ~

~ Presentation ~

~ Whether it’s aesthetically pleasing ~

~ If I’m having a really good or really bad week ~

~ Whether it has bits of unclosed or incorrect code showing up ~

~ Anything on my mind that day ~



















OTHER THINGS THAT YOU PROBABLY DON’T NEED TO KNOW BUT I AM INCLUDING ANYWAY



Recently I was told I was beautiful for the first time ever and it really made me feel good. People underestimate the power of a compliment.



As of September 30th 2006 I have been studying at Nottingham Trent University. To the horror of an overprotective family member, a seventeen year old was shot dead in a shopping centre in Nottingham just before I started here but I’m not too worried. After all, I come from a country where people are shot all the time. In fact, I was more worried about the lack of internet access on campus. My main thought was "What am I going to do without my daily fix of VR?" Thankfully we actually have a wireless network here, even if it is temperamental.



It may shock people but I don’t drink, smoke or do drugs. People judge me because of that and their opinions are rarely kind. Don’t worry though, I have my own vices.



At the risk of offending people here, I don’t like Anne Rice. I’m not going to follow the crowd and say I do just for the sake of it.



A few years ago we got our first ever PC and since then we have worn many of the letters off the keyboard through overuse.



I’m against animal cruelty and am currently disgusted at the fact dogs have had to be put down because people have made them vicious. Many think breeds such as Pit Bulls would rip out your throat as soon as look at you. They are actually sweet animals. It is their owners that turn them into monsters.



I have a very sweet tooth but a low tolerance for spicy foods. What others consider mild, burns me.



Last year I rediscovered Space Dust (Pop Rocks in the American market) Slush Puppies and it’s been heaven. I’d forgotten how much I loved them.



I believe people should accept others the way they are.



I have small hands and hate the way I look. I also hate that I cannot accept myself the way I am. The only positive spin on having small hands is that Marilyn Monroe also had tiny extremities.



Until your mind is open keep your mouth closed.



I’m having a month of ‘those days’ where I start a lot of sentences with “Do you ever have a day where…”



I practically lived in two pairs of trousers for a month last year because the decent ones had to be kept for university.



My hair is dyed poppy red (Directions hair dye) and more people have started conversations with me since I got it done that normal. It’s also been a great confidence giver.



















QUOTES



"Oh no. Am I dead again?" - Piper, 150th episode of Charmed



"We're not the same. I'm an American. You're a sick asshole."



"Good Teenagers" - From the Johnny Depp film 'Cry Baby' - you need to watch it to understand.



"Out of my mind. Back in two minutes" - on a bear that someone gave me as a present - they know me so well.



"Exterminate." - Dr Who



"Everything human has been purged" - Dr Who



"I'm an American" - Quincy after seeing the reactions of others to him shooting at a bat (with a gun) - Stage version of Dracula (with Richard Bremmer (aka Voldemort in HP 1) and Colin Baker (aka Dr Who 1983-1983.)



"I'd rather try dying than die trying."



"I'll live forever or die trying."



"Come To The Darkside. We Have Cookies."



"Your one stop shop for eating people."



Smurpheus pointed to a low table beside his chair. On the table were two small glasses, each roughly the size of a half-pint cup. One of the glasses contained a red fluid, and the other a blue. "You must drink one of these drinks," said Smurpheus. "Drink the blue drink, and you wake up in your bed, where you can think this whole meeting was a dream, and get on with your life. Drink the red one, however, and you'll find out for yourself precisely what the McAtrix is."

Gordon looked at the two glasses.

"What's the red drink?" he asked.

"Cranberry juice," said Smurpheus.

"Right. And the blue one?"

"Toilet duck."

- From 'The McAtrix Derided' (a parody of the Matrix films)



"I'm drunk. I'm really drunk" - a friend at the school formal



"I'm not drunk" - another 'friend' (slurring her words) who had consumed god-only-knows how much alcohol, fallen down the stairs and then thrown up on a very expensive carpet.



"I look forward to weighing your liver." - Dr. Mallard, NCIS

















CONTACT: To get in touch with me scribble a note on some yellow paper using a blue crayon and your teeth (no hands allowed; feet may be permitted) and slip it into an envelope. Then, using only your nose, smear the back of a British first class postage stamp with butter and stick it to the envelope. Next, remove your left shoe (it must be the left one or your message won't reach me - for those of you with directional problems (permanent or drink induced) your left is the hand closest to the start button on the task bar when you're facing the screen and the hand which is normally further from the mouse) and shove the envelope, half a pint of cider and a rubber band inside it and chuck it out a closed window at your postman when he arrives yelling "I hope this goes to hell". Your message will reach me within six years. Providing I haven't holidayed in the artic and frozen to death after falling off an iceberg.

Alternatively, email me.



Enough ranting for now.



















Check out the profile of obsessiveprune. She's my friend in that other world that people like to call real life. I dragged her here one day and now she will never escape. Muahahahaha! *clears throat* Ahem...















If you’ve read all of this, thank you. I never expected anyone to read it all.





Bloody Hugs And Razorblade Kisses



Ravensbloodzero

COMMENTS

-



 

Maybe... Maybe... Not

15:26 Jul 03 2008
Times Read: 811


I'm about to continue listing the badges. I started this the other day. Maybe I'll actually finish it today. Maybe...


COMMENTS

-



 

W00t!

18:47 Jul 02 2008
Times Read: 817


Okay so the results are in for my exams. The pass mark for each is 40%



Here's the overview:



Equine Veterinary Science - 56%



Sports Injury - 48%



Equine Breeding - 59%



Competition Horse - 49%



Training Young Horses - 48%



Learning and Cognition - 70%



Reseach Methods - 57%



I am amazed I got 70% in L&C. Hurrah!


COMMENTS

-



Sinora
Sinora
19:59 Jul 02 2008

YAY...*does happy dance, falls over but does'nt care* ...good for you hon.





 

One Word: Bollocks

18:29 Jul 02 2008
Times Read: 818


I'm about to check my exam results... Argh!


COMMENTS

-



 

I'm Going To Prove You Wrong

00:49 Jul 02 2008
Times Read: 822


Awkward Last Words - Armor For Sleep

I wanna live again

I wanna start everything over again

I wanna get this right

I'll meet you in another life

Over again

I'm coming back around again

Coming back over again

I'm coming back around again,

but now it's over



We're out of time and I can't breathe

I told you not to believe in me

'Cause all I do is push you far away from me

All I do is push you far away from me

Out of time and I can't breathe

I told you not to believe in me

'Cause all I do is push you far away from me

All I do is push you far away from me



I'm gonna make this work

I'm gonna change everything wrong with me

I'm gonna prove you wrong

when I meet you in another life

Over again

I'm coming back around again

Coming back over again

I'm coming back around again,

but now it's over



We're out of time and I can't breathe

I told you not to believe in me

'Cause all I do is push you far away from me

All I do is push you far away from me

Out of time and I can't breathe

I told you not to believe in me

'Cause all I do is push you far away from me

All I do is push you far away from me



I never had the gift of holding on to you

You're so far, so far away

No I, never had the gift of holding on to you, now

You're so far, so far away



I wanna live again

I wanna live again

I wanna live again

I wanna start everything over again

I wanna live again

I wanna live again

I wanna live again

I wanna start everything over again



We're out of time and I can't breathe

We're out of time and I can't breathe

We're out of time and I can't breathe

We're out of time and I can't breathe



We're out of time and I can't breathe

I told you not to believe in me

'Cause all I do is push you far away from me

All I do is push you far away from me

COMMENTS

-



 

Tell Me Why I Should Waste My Time With You

00:47 Jul 02 2008
Times Read: 823


You Don't Mean Anything - Simple Plan

Maybe I'm just not good enough for you

And maybe I just don't wanna be like you



And maybe I just don't wanna know

How low you're willing to go

I'm not gonna change

You can't make me whoa



You don't, you don't, you don't, you don't

You don't mean anything to me

You don't, you don't, you don't, you don't

You don't mean anything to me

You're what I never want to be



Tell me does it feel good to be like you

Tell me why should I waste my time with you



''cause maybe you always bring me down

I'm sick of being pushed around

I'm not gonna change

You can't make me whoa



You don't, you don't, you don't, you don't

You don't mean anything to me

You don't, you don't, you don't, you don't

You don't mean anything to me

You're what I never want to be



I know you think you know me

You don't know anything

I know you want to help me

I don't need anything

Don't tell me where to go

I don't need you to know, know whoa



You don't, you don't, you don't, you don't

You don't mean anything to me

You don't, you don't, you don't, you don't

You don't mean anything to me

You don't, you don't, you don't, you don't

You don't mean anything to me

You don't, you don't, you don't, you don't

You don't mean anything to me

You're what I never want to be

You don't mean anything to me

You're what I never want to be

COMMENTS

-



 

The Assertive One Now

00:46 Jul 02 2008
Times Read: 824


I'm going to put some lyrics up again. I know I've used them before but this is my journal. I'll do with it what I like.


COMMENTS

-



 

A Clean Slate

00:43 Jul 02 2008
Times Read: 825


I knew it was the first of the month but it always surprises me seeing a fresh page for my journal entries.


COMMENTS

-



 

Bad Juju

00:42 Jul 02 2008
Times Read: 826


A lot of shit has happened lately. I can't be bothered going into it right now. I don't have the time. I'm at Damien's and they're all downstairs so I'll be re-joining them shortly.



More bad news today. Willow had to be put to sleep last night. He had a slipped disc in his back which could have been fixed but his kidneys were also failing for it was kinder for him. But I miss him.


COMMENTS

-



 

Doom Child

00:45 Jul 01 2008
Times Read: 733


Back out of hospital again. This whole thing is bad.


COMMENTS

-



Sinora
Sinora
06:41 Jul 01 2008

Thinking of you.








COMPANY
REQUEST HELP
CONTACT US
SITEMAP
REPORT A BUG
UPDATES
LEGAL
TERMS OF SERVICE
PRIVACY POLICY
DMCA POLICY
REAL VAMPIRES LOVE VAMPIRE RAVE
© 2004 - 2024 Vampire Rave
All Rights Reserved.
Vampire Rave is a member of 
Page generated in 0.1668 seconds.
X
Username:

Password:
I agree to Vampire Rave's Privacy Policy.
I agree to Vampire Rave's Terms of Service.
I agree to Vampire Rave's DMCA Policy.
I agree to Vampire Rave's use of Cookies.
•  SIGN UP •  GET PASSWORD •  GET USERNAME  •
X