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so had to have a talk earlier and found out that next summer we are moving to Colorado Springs, Colorado. A lot of crap going on in my house, with drama. I totally hate that crap. Well I hope everyone is having a dark night.

No one knows what it's like

To be the bad man

To be the sad man

Behind blue eyes

And no one knows

What it's like to be hated

To be faded to telling only lies

[chorus]

But my dreams they aren't as empty

As my conscious seems to be

I have hours, only lonely

My love is vengeance

That's never free

No one knows what its like

To feel these feelings

Like i do, and i blame you!

No one bites back as hard

On their anger

None of my pain woe

Can show through

[chorus]

Discover l.i.m.p. say it [x4]

No one knows what its like

To be mistreated, to be defeated

Behind blue eyes

No one know how to say

That they're sorry and don't worry

I'm not telling lies

[chorus]

No one knows what its like

To be the bad man, to be the sad man

Behind blue eyes.

well it is cloudy out again today. I found something at my favorite wiccan spot. It's called Rainbow Earth. Once you step in, you feel a sence of security. I found this quil pen and the ink, I would like to get it to write down spells and journals. Anyway it has been raining here in Alaska and I love playing in the rain. Well enjoy the short journal!

Well it is fathers day so to my mother happy fathers day! To my dead beat father I hope hell finds you!

So I am making friends on here, and that is really cool. Now to find someone to help me get a dang backround!

I have seen several backrounds and all of them are awesome. I have to say this has been the site I now visit the most! I get to read and learn a lot! Not just about other people but vampires and witches. Though I Was told about 5 years ago that I am a natural witch.

I woke up again today, feeling a little bit dead inside! Wanting to be angry at certain people, but not at the world.



Hate is too strong of a word to use, but it seems to get used a lot! My thoughts have been mean and ugly lately. Where I tell everyone how I feel and I just don't care at all!



The night seems to be my friend, and the day is for sleeping. I can't stand certain things in my life and it seems like I want to lash out at the world.



For all the years of being called names, being told who or what I was! I know who I am! I even know what I am!



I wish this was the 1800's to go back in time, where the night is for Vampires, ghost, warewolves, and anything that actually went bumb in the night!



I love having a dark side, but sometimes it is hard to control. The night is my friend, and the day is my enemy!

Your welcome to step into my world as often as you like. I hope you enjoy what you read!



I hope you read all of the poetry with an open mind, and open heart! Do not judge me for any of the poetry for this is part of my life!



I share it with you in trust you will get a feel of what I have been through, and who I am!

So I have found myself not liking someone that I used to be friends with. I am sitting alone in the dark, trying to figure out why, all of a sudden I don't like this person?



Do you have any advice?



Any Clues?



Or maybe some words of encouragment?



This person used to be so cool but now I don't want to be near this person or even talk to this person! Darkness is wonderful!

I am starting to find a place, where my nightmares feel good, and I can meet people with the same interests as me. I live in a world where everyone pretends to be something they are not! How do I define the real me without confusing others.

I want to be so much more than what people see on the outside. Find me, Feel me, bite me, I want to feel that life. I could only dream of that!

For so long I have been trying to find a place where I might feel I belong. A loner in time, I realized that maybe I didn't belong anywhere.



Quote: Why are you trying so hard to fit in? When you where born to stand out!



I am enjoying my new home here at VR!



I look forward to making new friends and learning more. And even finding ways of making my page look half as good as the one's I have seen