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Better still, my full time job can now be worked from home!! Where we've been living, it's hard to get internet access at the ridiculous high speed that I have to have to work my job from home. Now that we'll be a town over, there are more ISP options available, so I can have an office in my house and they will provide the workstation and all of that stuff. That alone will save a ton of money and time for our family.



2nd job is kicking ass. I can't believe I never took the chance to throw myself out there before... I think I need to listen to Mel more. Things just tend to work out ridiculously well when I do lol. It is also done from home, so I won't be spending all this money on gas and if something ever happens to the car, my job isn't on the line. I found a few other companies to do some more freelance work for while I've been working with the one, so I think I'll be pretty busy.



Now I just have to get all our shit together and move.. God, I really hate moving, though. I can't WAIT til that part is done and over with.



Gotta get some baby cuddles in before I get working on some drafts...

Came home from work today, had a good dinner with Mel and the baby girl, saw the baby's godmother, and been working hard on some of my extra work tonight.



I expected that there would be more kinks to work out or that this would be a lot harder than it's been. So far, the feedback I'm getting is great. It's actually looking like the earnings potential for this part time job might end up making up for a couple of full time jobs, which would be great. More doing stuff I like to do and improving my skills, more time with my family, more income to do things with them.



I can't believe the time I used to waste on just.. nothing. On people and things that weren't worth wasting time ON. I owe so much to this amazing woman that I am with, and I have no idea how she's been so patient and wise with me.. but I'm sure as hell glad she has been.

now I have my full time job, and a part time job.. but the part time is AT HOME. It's awesome. I'm doing stuff with design, graphics, and getting to use my art skills for a living.



Melanie helped me get a portfolio together, helped me weed out some of the stuff that was "emo-fluff", pointed out some work I had that I didn't even recognize for what it was, and we got a pretty awesome package together for the company. Thank God for her fine arts background in college.. there's some things I've been sitting on that I didn't even see the value in and kind of disregarded in favor of some of my stuff that had more "shock value". She was right, and I'm going to be making some good money doing something I'm both good at and enjoy. This is fucking awesome.



Our baby is walking and starting to talk and I'm doing everything I can to make sure her mama is able to stay home with her. Mel told me that she will go back to work and she's okay with it, but I know she doesn't want to leave the baby and the baby sure as hell would rather have her mommy at home. Now that I have this job, it may end up turning full time very soon and even if it doesn't, it pays a hell of a lot more than my full time job does per hour.. like, five times as much. Shit. If I work really hard, and I'm gonna, I'm sure I can get Mel a new car next year!



I'm finally at a place in my life where I don't feel like I'm spinning my wheels and getting nowhere with the people and issues IN my life. So glad I got my shit together.

Valentine's Day, and all... oooh, I got plans..

Got it narrowed down to a couple more places in GA.. can't wait to get moved. I came home from work to fettucine alfredo with chicken, from scratch. She never makes anything out of a box.. I dunno. Its a "pride" thing with her, I guess. It's fucking awesome though. Baby was ready to go outside and kick her little pink soccer ball around with daddy, but it's so damn cold that Mel put two jackets and a scarf on her. She looked like that little kid from "A Christmas Story" that couldn't put down his arms lol.



Gotta get off of here for now. Mel needs a break.. baby's been very active all day.

Mel writes a health advice column online for a fairly decent size new-conglomerate type of website and her section received over 7000 hits in the last two days, which means she gets an earnings bonus on top of great exposure. GO MEL! She's an awesome mother, the most amazing lover I've ever known, and she's a hell of a writer.. I'm just glad she's getting recognized.



I totally don't deserve her.. better keep working on it.

Wasn't happy with either of the houses. Need somewhere nicer for my girls! Going to check out some other places this week.

Luckily, they are both near each other so they shouldn't be hard to find. Got the realtor coming out to give us the tour.



It'll be a lot easier being so much closer to work. Less driving back and forth means more time at home, which is awesome.



Been playing through the first "Infamous". Fuckin' nightmare shit, gaining intensity every level. Can't wait to play the second one.



I'm hoping we get one of the two houses.. we like one a little better than another because it's a bit newer with some nice add-ons (white picket fence and new siding, ftw!), but either would be fine. Puts me within five miles of my job and gives Mel and the baby some more room.



Mel thinks that there are more career opportunities available over there for people with healthcare certifications and licenses like she has, but we don't want her going back to work until the baby is old enough to go to school or at least will be more okay without her mom for a little while. Right now, she's so little she needs her mama. I'll be damned if I leave my baby at some goddamn daycare all day, and Mel doesn't want to leave her with anyone. What's the point of having a baby if you want to get away from her all the time? Most parents we know can't WAIT to get a baby sitter.. but shit, we miss her if she's not with us. Attachment parenting is the way to go.



More later. Got baby and Mel cuddles waiting for me.

..that you can't even form a coherent sentence?



I just did.



Giggity goo.. and omg..

I am not responsible for anyones neuroses but my own



I will not sink into escapism again. It only leads to bullshit.



Negativity only brings more of itself.



Anger and hostility are not neecessary or appropriate, at least 95% of the time. Don't indulge.



I am better than what I've been, and I'm thankful for the patience of the people who have seen me move forward into who I am now.



For knowing all of this, my life is better and happier. I release past negativity and know better than to let anyone pull me back into it.



I owe nothing to anyone. Its from gratitude that I will repay love and kindness shown to me when I was at my least loveable

Gonna go look at a house tomorrow! Keeping my fingers crossed. I need to put my lady and baby in better surroundings. She works all day taking care of this baby in the less-than-great place we live now, and the least I can do is get them somewhere more comfortable with more room for the little one to run around. Hopefully, once we get moved, we can get a little dog for the baby to play with. She LOVES animals and she is so gentle with them.. at least a cat, maybe.

Baby just went to bed.. again. Her poor Mama has been helping her all day long with teething, so she needed at LEAST a foot rub. Just trying to be a good daddy.



I had planned on writing more, but I think that foot rub is actually about to payoff for me ... Gotta go.. its adult time.