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07:18 am

Well, it's another Birthday... and i'm at the office... some of my close friends have said Happy Birthday to me ... one of them gave me a cat figure for my desk... other gave me a beautiful mug... my mom called and my sister sang for me...

One of my VR friends and coven mate also wished me a happy birthday... (Greg, thanks for the wishes and for the song... esperemos que se cumpla... o no?)



10:18 am

and other VR friend sent me a message where

he was singing for me... (Thank you Neil... that was very sweet of you!!)



11:45 am

and my brother, who is in Madrid, hasn't called me yet... he usually was the first call i received in the morning...



4:32 pm

and my brother didn't send me a birthday greeting. I'm so sad. Because i miss him... i miss him a lot...



6:30 pm

one of my coven mates posted my b-day in my coven... he´s so sweet... (Thanks PanterVamp... you´re so sweet).



9:00 pm

My brother didn´t call... and my b-day is a sad one... even when i was talking to my sweet friend and made me laugh a lot... but i sent him to sleep... he needs to rest.

Well, yesterday was one of those days when i am feeling the smell of blood in the air. It´s been months since the last time i drank. So yesterday i needed to stop this feeling. Made some phone calls and met some of my friends.



At first, i just wanted to do something different, something that made my mind be focused in other stuff... but the conversation led to something else...



Finally, to make a long story short, they seemed too willing to being bitten... that they offered themselves, the three of them to feed me...



Of course an easy prey, so willing to be taken it´s alluring... and i wasn´t in conditions to say no... so, my vampire came out . I had more than enough this time... but of course, no regret...



No regrets at all... neither mine nor them... which seemed so happy to meet me again...

I wonder sometimes what it is...

Everytime i feel it... it hurts... and everytime i´ve heard about it, it´s not true... others it´s not what i need...



Why does it change? Love shouldn´t change, but most people say that it changes through time... for instance, my parents´ love is not the same... mom says that now they feel different... they love each other, but not like before... NOT LIKE BEFORE??? of course not... they should love eachother MORE than before...



that´s why I say... don´t say it if you don´t mean it...



I´d like to hear it anyway..... but this time for real... with no fear, with no deceit...

well, i don´t really know what´s going on with me. Today is one of those days where i ask to myself "why did i get up?".



It seems that people want to play with me today.

Last night i was invited to the Opera AIDA... it was so wonderful... but of course after a day of so much work, the only thing i wanted was Aida and Radames to die quickly...

it started 9 pm and ended up at 12:30 so it meant that i was at home at 1:30 am... and after that i couldn't sleep... i think that i was over excited ... well, that was my experience at the opera and after...



now, i´m paying the consequences... but i don´t care much...

i´m ready for next...

Sometimes i´m so brave for some things, but when it´s about my feelings i´m a coward... a chicken... i really suck...





i should have said how i felt and i didn´t ... couldn´t...

he´s the most special being on earth and i missed the chance of saying the truth...



In the darkness of my heart... I love you.

Normally women think that when somebody says "I'm interested in someone" that someone has to be us... well, of course things don't work that way in men's head...



It would be so simple... but we can't make them decide... and that hurts... when they keep on treating us as friends...