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So after visiting the hospital again yesterday, having more blood drawn...having more tests taken.....it's been decided....



I have Strep. That's it. So now I'm on about six antibiotics and different drugs....and they basically numb me from the ears down... This has to be one of the weirdest things...

I'm on about seven different prescription meds now, for my head. I had to go to the hospital the other day, where they injected two of them in my ass, that was no fun. It's like.....amidrin, imitrex, ativan, oxycodone, something with codine....



The problem is, none of it seems to be working! Haha. My head hurts.

So there's something wrong with my head, right? Well of course, we all knew this to begin with....but suddenly it's official. I've been having really bad migrains lately, so I finally went to the doctor's office yesterday. I got there and told the lady what was wrong...and she didn't really know, right off, what it was.



So, now, next Thursday I'm getting a catscan. They took blood and they're "running some tests" and gave me some huge, monster pills. Something called....Midrin? I think it is.



But apparently, caffeine does NOT agree with it. This I did not know. I took a pill this morning, and since I never eat breakfast....didn't eat breakfast. I did, however, grab a can of soda, which I drank about an hour later. About a half hour after THAT, I started getting twitchy and freaking out....God, it was awful....this was nine o'clock this morning, and I'm STILL feeling twitchy and whatnot. It sucks....but what's worse is.....my head still kills.

It's spirit week at school, and I unintentionally showed some by having my hair the same colour as our class colour. Other than that....the spirit just wasn't there. And the shit I got for it....haha, sorry....can't just show miles of support for a school that I'm not that big a fan of....



My head feels like it's going to implode. Like there are gigantic pillows crushing in on it from all different sides....and my eyes hurt....I need to sleep....I'm out of No Doz...

I'm so stressed lately....I wish I knew why. I've been trying to do different things....to take my stress levels down...help me sleep at night. I do yoga....light candles....incense... I listen to music...I read before I sleep....I use Benadryl PM....relaxing rituals... I don't know what else to do.... Lately I've been sleeping with Benadryl and waking myself up with No Doz, a popular caffeine pill. I'd gladly accept any suggestions.



I have rings around my eyes that won't go away, and I almost never sleep.

Oh Jesus. People make me so mad. SO MAD! Phew, okay. You know that thing that you have to do whenever you get really upset? The whole....count to ten in your head before you slit the other person's throat? I've had to do that at least ten times today! I don't know exactly what it is that's making me so upset but I'm just......ARG! Maybe it's because I'm exhausted, maybe it's because I'm impatient and it's fucking Friday so not that much longer to go before I get out of here.....for work. Damn it.



I got into an awful fight with my mother's husband yesterday. I REFUSE to cry in front of him, and I swear, the last time I cried, it was at least two years ago, but the thing last night with him...yeah, that made me want to cry. I've been trying to convince my mother to divorce him but she says it would be too difficult....and she doesn't want to have to pick up more hours, so basically we just stay out of the house as long as possible and then kick him out for random things. Oh yeah, and they sleep in two different rooms....well, two different floors....hahaha, why not just take the extra step and get him out of our lives for good?! ARG! Okay, better now....Jesus. I need to write something....



I have this little book that I usually carry around with me so that I can write in it when I'm struck with inspiration and motivation. It doesn't happen unless I'm really sad or wicked pissed off, and, right now, being the latter, I could use it, but of course, I took it out last night...and left it in my room. So I wrote on a napkin.

Playing around with this. Basically, this is the first entry. I don't count the other one. The first should be something of what you are, I think. Simply said, my hair is purple, I have a hole in my nose, I refuse to spend huge amounts of money on just about anything. Clothes I'll buy everywhere.....same with shoes! And so far, I'm loving this site. I have a blog, but it was getting old. I almost like this better..

So this is my first entry here. Someone gave it to me 'cause they thought it was something I'd be in to, and I have to admit that so far I think it's great. I'm not quite sure how to get around here to anyone else's thing....I'm going to try and work on it but if anyone has any words of advice, that'd be cool.